The control of behavior. POS,14 ....the
systematic control of behavior....a specific kind of behavior with
people... behavior with people.... FFW,188. ..... an art
applicable to everything. POS,80..the foundation on which
everything else sorcerers did was built. POS,94...also called the
art of stealth or the art of controlled folly. POS,94 ....the
ability to understand human behavior to perfection. POS,172...
something one performs. EG,289 ..stalking is a procedure, a
special behavior that follows certain principles. It is secretive,
furtive, deceptive behavior designed to deliver a jolt. POS,119
...the art of using behavior in novel ways for
specific purposes. POS,93....a set of procedures and attitudes
that enabled one to get the best out of any conceivable situation.
EG,4
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE OF STALKING?
TO MOVE AND FIX THE ASSEMBLAGE
POINT
the purpose of stalking is to move the AP as
steadily and safely as possible..FFW,204. The art of stalking
deals with the fixation of the assemblage point on any location to
which it is displaced. TAOD,69 Nelida is a great stalker. She
stalks in dreams. her power is so unique that she can not only
transport herself but bring things with her. TSC,231. The art of
stalking deals with the fixation of the assemblage point on any
location to which it is displaced. TAOD,69,16.....deals with the
fixation of the assemblage point. TAOD,77 by continual practice
they moved their AP move steadily... FFW,188
STALKING ALLOWS VERY SMALL SHIFTS OF THE AP
PROTECTING THE WARRIOR FROM AN ABRUPT CHANGE INTO THE SECOND
ATTENTION
sorcerers in an effort to protect themselves
from the overwhelming effect of silent knowledge, developed the
art of stalking....stalking moves the AP minutely but steadily,
thus giving sorcerers time and therefore the possibility of
buttressing themselves. POS,248
HOW
DOES STALKING MOVE THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT?
UNUSUAL BEHAVIOR PRODUCED A TREMOR IN THE
AP...IF UNUSUAL BEHAVIOR IS PRACTICED SYSTEMATICALLY AND DIRECTED
WISELY, IT EVENTUALLY FORCED THE AP TO MOVE.
Normal human behavior in the world of everyday
life was routine. Any behavior that broke from routine caused an
unusual effect on our total being. That unusual effect was what
sorcerers sought, because it was cumulative ....unusual behavior
produced a tremor in the AP...if unusual behavior is practiced
systematically and directed wisely, it eventually forced the AP to
move. POS, 93,94........stalking started from an observation the
new seers made that when warriors steadily behaved in ways not
customary to them, the unused emanations inside their cocoons
begin to glow. And their AP shift in a mild, harmonious, barely
noticeable fashion. FFW,188
THE
FOUR FOUNDATIONS OF STALKING
THEY ARE POSITIONS OF THE ASSEMBLAGE
POINT
The art of stalking is learning all the quirks
of your disguise.. and to learn them so well no one will know you
are disguised... For that you need the four steps to learning it:
POS, 78,79, 80,81..these four bases are inextricably bound
together. These four bases are positions of the AP and sorcerers
cultivate them by intending them...every act performed by any
sorcerer was by definition governed by these four principles. So,
every sorcerer's every action is deliberate in thought and
realization, and has the specific blend of the four foundations of
stalking... POS,247
YOU APPLY THESE FOUR PRINCIPLES TO THE THINGS
YOU DO DAILY; SMALL THINGS AT FIRST, LEADING UP TO THE MAJOR
ISSUES OF YOUR LIFE
... He made her apply the principles of
stalking to the things she did daily; small things at first,
leading up to the major issues of her life. EG,286.
1.
RUTHLESSNESS:THE PLACE OF NO PITY/THE SECOND POINT
WHAT IS
RUTHLESSNESS?
THE BASIC PREMISE OF SORCERY
...ruthlessness the basic premise of sorcery..
POS,158
THE OPPOSITE OF SELF-PITY
.... the opposite of self pity (POS,127)or
self-importance (POS,162)....a total lack of pity.(POS,142) (not
harshness)(not cruelty,POS,162) but charming, ......it is
sobriety. POS,162.....
IT IS THE SECOND POINT.
...it is the second point..
POS242....
ITS THE SIGHT OF THE OLDER SIDE OF MAN..THE
ANTECEDENTS OF REASON.
its the sight of the older side of man..the
antecedents of reason. POS,154,204.
IT HAS MANY ASPECTS..IT'S LIKE A TOOL THAT
ADAPTS ITSELF TO MANY USES..IT'S A STATE OF BEING..
it has many aspects..it's like a tool that
adapts itself to many uses..it's a state of being.. POS,173.
A LEVEL OF INTENT...CONTROLLED BY MY
EYES
a level of intent...controlled by my eyes..
POS,173.
WHEN
DO YOU EXPERIENCE RUTHLESSNESS?
WHEN A WARRIOR WAS DISTRACTED AND SHOWING NO
PITY
the spirit chose a moment when the man was
distracted, unguarded and showing no pity, the spirit let its
presence by itself move the man's assemblage point to a specific
posititon..called the place of no pity, (this is the moment when a
person loses their sense of self) POS,128..
DESCRIPTION OF FEELING RUTHLESS
I felt a sudden uncontrollable urge.. it was
as if my body were disconnected from my brain... no fear or
concern...uncharacteristic coldness..not hatred or anger.. not
annoyance.. not resignation or patience..not kindness but a cold
indifference.. a frightening lack of pity. POS, 150.. a state of
superb indifference. POS,260. It was as if something inside me had
been turned off, making me indifferent and incapable of expressing
my familiar emotions. TSC,193. ...at this position rationality and
common sense become weak... POS,154.
2.
CUNNING, (NOT CRUELTY) BUT NICE
cunning, (not cruelty) but nice, POS, 78,79,
80,81
3.
PATIENT (NOT NEGLIGANCE) BUT ACTIVE
patient (not negligance) but active POS,
78,79, 80,81
4.
SWEETNESS (NOT FOOLISHNESS) BUT LETHAL
sweetness (not foolishness) but lethal. POS,
78,79, 80,81
THE
SEVEN PRINCIPLE'S OF THE ART OF STALKING
1.
WARRIORS CHOOSE THEIR BATTLEGROUND
The first principle of the art of stalking is
that warriors choose their battleground.. a warrior never goes
into battle without knowing what the surroundings are.
EG,278.
1.
WARRIORS STALK THEMSELVES
The very first principle of stalking is that a
warrior stalks himself...he stalks himself ruthlessly, cunningly,
patiently and sweetly. POS,93..when you stalk yourself you jolt
yourself, using your own behavior in a ruthless cunning way.
POS,119 A stalker stalks anything, including himself. SRP,199.. an
impeccable stalker can turn anything into prey. the nagual told me
that we even can stalk our own weaknesses. SRP,200.
WHY
DO SORCERERS STALK THEMSELVES?
SORCERERS STALK THEMSELVES IN ORDER TO BREAK
THE POWER OF THEIR OBSESSIONS.
..sorcerers stalk themselves in order to break
the power of their obsessions. POS,120......when the pressure of
the sorcerers connecting link is too great, sorcerers relieve it
by stalking themselves..POS,119
HOW
DO STALKERS STALK THEMSELVES?
FIGURE OUT YOUR ROUTINES UNTIL YOU KNOW ALL
THE DOING OF YOUR WEAKNESSES AND THEN CHANGE THEM
You figure out your routines until you know
all the doing of your weaknesses and then you come upon them and
pick them up like rabbits inside a cage. SRP,200.
BUT STALKING YOUR WEAKNESS IS NOT ENOUGH TO
DROP THEM..YOU CAN STALK THEM NOW TO DOOMSDAY AND IT WON'T MAKE A
BIT OF DIFFERENCE.
But stalking your weakness is not enough to
drop them..you can stalk them now to doomsday and it won't make a
bit of difference. SRP,201
A STALKER MUST HAVE A PURPOSE TO REALLY CHANGE
THEIR WEAKNESSES
What a warrior really needs in order to be an
impeccable stalker is to have a purpose. SRP,201. Everybody has
enough personal power for something. The trick for me was to pull
my personal power away from food to my warrior's purpose. A
warrior's purpose is to enter into the other world.
SRP,202
LISTENING TO POEMS
..there are many ways of stalking
oneself...for example poems.. as you read, I listen and I shut off
my internal dialogue and let my inner silence gain momentum. Then
the combination of the poem and the silence delivers the jolt. POS
120,121
USE THE IDEA OF DEATH TO DELIVER THAT STALKING
JOLT
the best remedy for when a sorcerers awareness
is bogged down with the weight of perceptual input is to use the
idea of death to deliver that stalking jolt...POS,119
2.
DISCARD EVERYTHING THAT IS UNNECESSARY
The second principle of the art of stalking is
to discard everything that is unnecessary. EG,278
3.
USE ALL YOUR CONCENTRATION TO DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT TO ENTER INTO
BATTLE.
The third principle of the art of stalking is
applying all the concentration you have to decide whether or not
to enter into battle, for any battle is a battle for one's life.
Don't complicate things.... aim at being simple. A warrior must be
willing and ready to make his last stand here and now. But not in
a helter-skelter way. EG,280... to put your life on the line.
EG,282.
4.
RELAX, ABANDON YOURSELF AND LET THE POWERS GUIDE
US
The fourth principle of the art of stalking is
to relax, abandon yourself, fear nothing. only then will the
powers that guide us open the road and aid us. EG,280
5.
WHEN ODDS ARE BAD, RETREAT FOR A MOMENT, OCCUPY THEIR
MINDS
The fifth principle of the art of stalking is
when faced with odds that cannot be dealt with, warriors retreat
for a moment. they let their minds meander. They occupy their time
with something else. Anything would do. EG,281.
6.
WARRIORS COMPRESS TIME EVEN FOR AN INSTANT
The sixth principle of the art of stalking is
that warriors compress time; even an instant counts. In a battle
for your life, a second is an eternity; an eternity that may
decide the outcome. Warriors aim at succeeding, therefore they
compress time. Warriors don't waste an instant.
EG,281.
7.
WARRIOR NEVER PUSHES HIMSELF TO THE FRONT
The seventh principle of the art of stalking
is that a stalker never pushes himself to the front. EG,290. In
order to apply the seventh principle, one has to apply the other
six. EG,291 because of this he was capable of avoiding or parrying
conflicts. EG,291. The art of sorcerers is to be outside
everything and be unnoticeable. SRP,216.
the art of a sorcerer was to be inconspicuous
even in the midst of people. he demanded that I concentrate
totally on trying not to be obvious..they learned to be
unnoticeable in the middle of all this. SRP,180. The Naugal taught
us to baffle people so they wouldn't notice us. SRP,93
RESULTS
OF STALKING
APPLYING
THE SEVEN PRINCIPLES BRINGS ABOUT THREE RESULTS.
Applying the seven principles brings about
three results. EG,291
1.
STALKERS LEARN TO NEVER TAKE THEMSELVES SERIOUSLY
The first is that stalkers learn never to take
themselves seriously; they learn to laugh at themselves. if
they're not afraid of being a fool, they can fool
anyone.EG,291
2.
STALKERS LEARN TO HAVE ENDLESS PATIENCE
The second is that stalkers learn to have
endless patience. Stalkers are never in a hurry; they never fret.
EG,291
3.
STALKERS LEARN TO HAVE AN ENDLESS CAPACITY TO
SURVIVE
and the third is that stalkers learn to have
an endless capacity to survive. EG,291.
HOW DO
STALKERS STALK?
GENERAL
STALKERS ALWAYS USE STRATEGY WHEN DOING
ANYTHING
Stalkers plan and act out their plans; they
connive and invent and change things whether they are awake or in
dreams. TSC,231.
USING WORDS AND SOUNDS TO OPEN ANYTHING THAT
WAS CLOSED
the sound and meaning of words were of supreme
importance to stalkers. Words were used by them as keys to open
anything that was closed. Stalkers, therefore, had to state their
aim before attempting to achieve it. But they could not reveal
their true aim at the outset, so they had to word things carefully
to conceal the main thrust (waking up
intent)...POS,241
STALKER CREATES IMPRESSIONS
The stalker's art was to create an impression
by presenting the features they chose, features they knew the eyes
of the onlooker were bound to notice (the human eye was trained to
focus only on the most salient features of anything, and those
salient features were known beforehand)..By artfully reinforcing
certain impressions, stalkers were able to create on the part of
the onlooker as unchallengeable conviction as to what their eyes
had perceived... POS,263.. the stalkers created appearances by
intending them, rather than producing them with the aids of props.
Props created artificial appearances that looked false to the
eye.... POS,263...
WOMEN ARE NATURAL STALKERS
Women are natural stalkers. POS,81
SOME
TYPES OF STALKING
STALKING WITH THE DOUBLE
it wouldn't be wise to talk about it because
stalking means doing, not talking about doing. TSC,228 The first
night you slept in the tree house.. when you were about to die of
fright. On that occassion your reason was at a loss as to how to
handle the situation, so circumstances forced you to depend on the
double. It was your double that came to your rescue. it flowed out
of the gates that your fear had thrown wide open. I call that
stalking with the double. TSC,228.
STALKING PERCEPTION - FIXING YOUR AP INTO A
NEW SPOT
The old sorcerers called the entire act of
acquiring uniformity and cohesion outside the normal world
stalking perception. TAOD,77.
ULTIMATE STALKING: SUSTAINING THE UNBENDING
INTENT OF FREEDOM
Ultimate stalking..it is done by sustaining
the unbending intent of freedom, even though no sorcerers knows
what freedom really is. TAOD,181.
STALKING THE STALKER - DRAWING ENERGY FROM THE
INORGANIC BEINGS WORLD
Stalking the stalker...the last task of the
third gate of dreaming.. .to deliberately draw energy from the
inorganic being's realm in order to use awareness to go on a
journey through the universe. TAOD,185....breaking the boundries
of the normal world and using awareness as an energetic element,
enter into another..using awareness as an element of the
environment bypasses the influence of the inorganic beings, but it
still uses their energy. TAOD,187 (Don Juan also calls this s.t.s.
as ultimate stalking) TAOD,190
Stalking the stalker and ultimate stalking are probably the
same thing
SPECIFIC
TECHNIQUES FOR STALKING
THE THREE BASIC TECHNIQUES OF STALKING-THE
CRATE, THE LIST OF EVENTS TO BE RECAPITULATED, AND THE STALKER'S
BREATH-TO BE ABOUT THE MOST IMPORTANT TASKS A WARRIOR CAN
FULFILL
her benefactor considered the three basic
techniques of stalking-the crate, the list of events to be
recapitulated, and the stalker's breath-to be about the most
important tasks a warrior can fulfill. EG,290.
WHAT
IS THE MAIN BEHAVIORAL SITUATION THAT STALKERS
WANT?
Dealing with petty tyrants
WHAT
IS A PETTY TYRANT?
PETTY TYRANT IS A TORMENTOR.. SOMEONE WHO
EITHER HOLDS THE POWER OF LIFE AND DEATH OVER WARRIORS OR SIMPLY
ANNOYS THEM TO DISTRACTION.
petty tyrant is a tormentor.. someone who
either holds the power of life and death over warriors or simply
annoys them to distraction. FFW,32..
WHAT
TURNS PEOPLE INTO PETTY TYRANTS
WHAT TURNS HUMAN BEINGS INTO PETTY TYRANTS IS
PRECISELY THE OBSESSIVE MANIPULATION OF THE KNOWN.
what turns human beings into petty tyrants is
precisely the obsessive manipulation of the
known...FFW,34
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE FOR THE SORCERER'S USE OF A PETTY
TYRANT?
PETTY TYRANTS FORCED SEERS TO USE THE
PRINCIPLES OF STALKING AND, IN DOING SO, HELPED SEERS TO MOVE
THEIR AP
..stalking only moved the AP minimally. for
maximum effect, stalking needed an ideal setting; it needed petty
tyrants in positions of great authority and power. FFW,191
shifting the AP was the reason why the new seers placed such a
high value on the interaction with petty tyrants...FFW,188 Petty
tyrants forced seers to use the principles of stalking and, in
doing so, helped seers to move their AP. FFW,188.However hard it
may be, we have to close the distance between us and those we do
not like if we really want to grow spiritually...and gradually you
learn to master your mind, which means that you can transform
antipathy into sympathy at will. EE,M,186. dealing with petty
tyrants helps seers to move their AP. FFW,126
TO DEAL WITH A PETTY TYRANT WE MUST BE FREE OF
SELF-IMPORTANCE
in dealing with petty tyrants, warriors.. not
only have a well thought out strategy but are free from
self-importance. What restrains their self-importance is that they
have understood that reality is an interpretation we make. FFW,40
the mistake average men make in confronting petty tyrants is not
to have a strategy to fall back on; the fatal flaw is that average
men take themselves too seriously; their actions and feelings, as
well as those of the petty tyrants, are all important.
FFW,40.
IF SEERS CAN HOLD THEIR OWN IN FACING PETTY
TYRANTS, THEY CAN CERTAINLY FACE THE UNKNOWN WITH IMPUNITY, AND
THEN THEY CAN EVEN STAND THE PRESENCE OF THE UNKNOWABLE..
it is an outside element, the one we cannot
control and probably the most important one.... by understanding
the nature of man, they reached the incontestable conlusion that
if seers can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can
certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even
stand the presence of the unknowable.. FFW,34..
nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as
much as the challenge of dealing with impossible people in
positions of power Only under those conditions can warriors
acquire the sobriety and serenity to stand the pressure of the
unknownable. The perfect ingredient for the making of a superb
seer is a petty tyrant with unlimited prerogatives..
FFW,35...
DESCRIPTION OF HOW DON JUAN USED CC'S
RELATIONSHIP AS A CHANCE TO DEVELOP HIS STALKING SKILLS EVEN
THOUGH HE DESPISED CC.
example of stalking.. Don Juans' relationship
with CC where DJ tells CC how much he despises him but DJ used the
relationship as a chance to develop his stalking skills....it is a
rare opportunity for a warrior to be given a genuine chance to be
impeccable in spite of his basic feelings..
POS,138,139
HOW
DO STALKERS HANDLE THEMSELVES AFTER THEY HAVE MOVED THEIR
ASSEMBLAGE POINT?
With Controlled Folly
WHAT
IS CONTROLLED FOLLY?
IT IS THE BASIS FOR STALKING
controlled folly is the basis for stalking.
EG,209.
ONLY THE EAGLE IS REAL AND WHAT PEOPLE DO IS
FOLLY...
that the Eagle is real and final and what
people do is utter folly. The two together give rise to controlled
folly, which is the only bridge between the folly of people and
the finality of the Eagle's dictums. EG,211 I didn't say (your
acts are) worthless. I said unimportant. Everything is equal and
unimportant. For example, there is no way for me to say that my
acts are more important than yours, or that one thing is more
essential than another, therefore all things are equal and by
being equal they are unimportant. SR,82....You think about your
acts..therefore you have to believe your acts are as important as
you think they are, when in reality nothing of what one does is
important. Nothing! SR,86.
...SO CONTROLLED FOLLY MEANS TO ACT AS IF YOUR
ACTS ARE IMPORTANT WHEN YOU KNOW THEY ARE NOT
It's possible to insist, to properly insist,
even though we know that what we're doing is useless.. but we must
know first that our acts are useless and yet we must proceed as if
we didn't know it. That's a sorcerer's controlled folly. SR,77. I
am happy that you finally asked me about my controlled folly after
so many years, and yet it wouldn't have mattered to me in the
least if you had never asked. yet I have chosen to feel happy, as
if I cared, that you asked as if it would matter that I care. That
is controlled folly. SR,78 ...I practice my contolled folly with
everyone...every single time I act, my acts are sincere, but they
are only the acts of an actor...that would mean that nothing
matters to you and you really don't care about anything or
anybody...True I don't...he had always given me his undivided
attention during every moment I had spent with him. SR,79. things
matter to you... everything I do in regard to myself and my fellow
men is folly, because nothing matters. SR,80... certain things in
your life matter to you because they're important; your acts are
certainly important to you, but for me not a single thing is
important any longer, neither my acts nor the acts of any of my
fellow men. SR,80.
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE FOR CONTROLLED FOLLY?
IT HELPS PEOPLE DEAL WITH THE EVERYDAY WORLD
AND THE COMMANDS OF THE EAGLE
The stalkers are the ones who take the brunt
of the daily world. They are the buisness managers, the ones who
deal with people. A warrior's greatest accomplishment in the first
attention is stalking... EG,209... that helps a sorcerer deal with
themselves - in their state of expanded awareness and perception -
and with everybody and everything in the world of daily affairs.
POS,248 .. in the absence of self-importance, a warrior's only way
of dealing with the social milieu is in terms of controlled folly.
EG,210. it means that warriors apply the seven basic principles of
the art of stalking to whatever they do, from the most trivial
acts to life and death situations. EG,291.
IT HELPS SORCERERS LOOK LIKE THEY CARE IN DAY
TO DAY LIFE
..controlled deception or the art of
pretending to be thoroughly immersed in the action at hand -
pretending so well no one could tell it from the real thing... not
an outright deception but a sophisticated, artistic way of being
seperated from everything while remaining an integral part of
everything..POS,248
DESCRIPTION OF HOW A MAN OF KNOWLEDGE ACTS
UNDER CONTROLLED FOLLY
l told you once that our lot as men is to
learn, for good or bad. For me nothing matters but perhaps for you
everything will. you should know by now that a man of knowledge
lives by acting, not by thinking about acting, nor by thinking
about what he will think when he has finished acting. A man of
knowledge chooses a path with heart and follows it; and then he
looks and rejoices and laughs; and then he sees and knows. he
knows that his life will be over altogether too soon; he knows
that he, as well as everybody else, is not going any where; he
knows, because he sees, that nothing is more important than
anything else. in other words, a man of knowledge has no honor, no
dignity, no family, no name, no country, only life to be lived,
and under these circumstances his only tie to his fellow men is
his controlled folly. Thus a man of knowledge endeavors and sweats
and puffs and if one looks at him he is just like an ordinary man,
except that the folly of his life is under control.. nothing being
more important than anything else, a man of knowledge chooses any
act, and acts it out as if it mattered to him. His controlled
folly makes him say that what he does matters and makes him act as
if it did, and yet he knows that it doesn't; so when he fulfills
his acts he retreats in peace, whether his acts were good or bad,
or worked or didn't, is in no way part of his concern. A man of
knowledge may choose..to remain totally impassive and never act,
and behave as if to be impassive really matters to him; he will be
rightfully true at that too, because that would also be his
controlled folly. SR,85.
BUT
DOES CONTOL FOLLY MEAN WARRIOR'S ACTS ARE
INSINCERE?
IT DOESN'T MEAN TO CON PEOPLE
...controlled folly doesn't mean to con
people. EG,291 They were consumate artists in bending people to
their wishes. EG,248. In order to practice controlled folly, since
it is not a way to fool or chastise people or feel superior to
them, one has to be capable of laughing at oneself. EG,289.
EMOTIONS ARE STILL REAL UNDER CONTROLLED
FOLLY
My laughter as well as everything I do is
real. SR,84..but it also is controlled folly because it is
useless; it changes nothing and yet I still do it..
SR,84
WHY SOMEONE CAN LAUGH INSTEAD OF CRY UNDER
CONTROLLED FOLLY
I am happy because I choose to look at things
that make me happy and then my eyes catch their funny edge and I
laugh. One must always choose the path with heart in order to be
at one's best, perhaps so one can always laugh.... I interpreted
what he said as meaning that crying was inferior to laughter, or
at least perhaps an act that weakened us. he asserted that there
was no intrinsic difference and that both were unimportant...
however, that his preference was laughter, because laughter made
his body feel better than crying...he maintained that his
preference did not mean they were equal; and I insisted that our
argument could be logically stretched to saying that if things are
supposed to be equal why not also choose death.
SR,84..
CONTROLLED FOLLY OVER THE DEATH OF
SOMEONE
Description of how a man of knowledge
exercises control folly over the death of a love one. (see death)
SR,90
WHY
DOES A SORCERER GO ON LIVING IF NOTHING MATTERS?
A SORCERER HAS HIS WILL
I go on living though because I have my will.
because I have tempered my will throughout my life until it's neat
and wholesome and now it doesn't matter to me that nothing
matters. My will controls the folly of my life. SR,80. but then if
nothing really matters...how can I go on living? It would be
simple to die; that's what you say and believe, because you're
thinking about life, just as you're thinking now what seeing would
be like.... I can only tell you that controlled folly is very much
like seeing; it is something you cannot think about.SR,86. many
men of knowledge do that (choose death).. one day they may simply
disappear. they choose to die because it doesn't matter to
them...I choose to live, and to laugh, not because it matters,
because that choice is the bent of my nature. The reason I say I
choose is because I see, but it isn't that I choose to live; my
will makes me go on living in spite of anything I may see.
SR,84.
THE ACTS WHICH ARE NEVER CONTROLLED FOLLY:
MEETING WITH THE ALLY
the only acts in the life of a man of
knowledge which are not controlled folly are those he performs
with his ally or with mescalito... my ally and Mescalito are not
on a par with us human beings. my controlled folly applies only to
myself and to the acts I perform while in the company of my fellow
men. SR,91.I cannot see through my ally and that makes it
incomprehensible to me, so how could I control my folly if I don't
see through it?... I am only a man who knows how to see and finds
he is baffled by what he sees; a man who knows that he'll never
understand all that is around him. SR,91.
RECAPITULATION
WHAT
IS THE RECAPITULATION?
RECAPITULATION IS RELIVING THE TOTALITY OF
ONE'S LIFE EXPERIENCES BY REMEMBERING EVERY POSSIBLE MINUTE LIFE
DETAIL
Recapitulation is reliving the totality of
one's life experiences by remembering every possible minute detail
of them...TAOD,148 it consisted of recollecting one's life down to
the most insignificant detail. EG,287.... To recapitulate entails
recalling all the people we have met, all the places we have seen
and all feelings we have had in our entire lives-starting from the
present, going back to the earliest memories-then sweeping them
clean, one by one, with the sweeping breath. TSC,46 Theoretically,
stalkers, have to remember every feeling that they have had in
their lives, and this process begins with a breath. EG,288. the
recapitulation is the forte of stalkers as the dreaming body is
the forte of dreamers. EG,287
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE OF RECAPITULATION?
RECAPITULATION IS THE ACT OF CALLING BACK THE
ENERGY (ENERGY FIBERS) WE HAVE USED IN PAST SITUATIONS TO BE USED
TO MOVE THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT
She explained that the act of the
recapitulation is the act of calling back the energy we have
already spent in past actions. TSC,46 This phase (initial stages
of sorcery training for a stalker) involves the cleansing of one's
habitual ways of thinking, behaving and feeling by means of a
traditional sorcery undertaking, one which all neophytes need to
perform called the recapitulation. TSC,xiii The intent of its end
result, which is total freedom, was established by those seers of
ancient times. And because it was set up independently from us, it
is an invaluable gift. TSC,99. the essential factor in a dreamer's
redefinition and redeployment of energy. Recapitulation sets free
energy imprisoned within us, and without this liberated energy
dreaming is not possible. TAOD,148 The purpose of the
recapitulation is to break basic assumptions we have accepted
throughout our lives.. unless they are broken, we can't prevent
the power of remembering from clouding our awareness...the world
is a huge screen of memories; if certain assumptions are broken,
the power of remembering is not only held in check, but even
cancelled out... but what happened to you just now is that your
normal ability to remember was held in check for an instant and
you saw my shadow move. TSC,73. (so the whole purpose of
meditation is to forget those memories that our upbringing told us
about something... if we have no thoughts on what we are dealing
with then it can become anything because we don't do anything to
it.) as you grew up, your energy was harnessed by social
restraints, and so you forgot you had seen them moving, and only
remember what you think is permissible to remember. TSC,74. This
is what you've been doing for the past few months with your
recapitulation. You are retrieving filaments of your energy from
your ethereal net that have become lost or entangled as a result
of your daily living. By focusing on that interaction, you are
pulling back all that you dispersed over twenty years and in
thousands of places. TSC,134. In order to live and interact we
need energy.. normally, the energy spent in living is gone forever
from us. were it not for the recapitulation, we would never have
the chance to renew ourselves. Recapitulating our lives and
sweeping our past with the sweeping breath work as a unit. TSC,46.
They are conduits (energy fibers) that will bring back the energy
that you've left behind. In order to recuperate our strength and
unity, we have to release our energy trapped in the world and pull
it back to us. She assured me that while recapitulating, we extend
those stretchy fibers of energy across space and time to the
persons, places and events we are examining. The result is that we
can return to every moment of our lives and act as if we were
actually there. TSC,47.
THOSE FOREIGN FILAMENTS ARE THE BASIS FOR OUR
SELF-IMPORTANCE
Unless stalkers have gone through the
preliminaries in order to retrieve the filaments they have left in
the world, and particulary in order to reject those that others
have left in them, there is no possibility of handling controlled
folly because those foreign filaments are the basis of one's
limitless capacity for self-importance. EG,289
HOW
OLD IS THE RECAPITULATION?
THE RECAPITULATION IS A VERY OLD
TECHNIQUE
Although, isn't recapitulating a kind of
psychotherapy?.. not at all...the people who first devised the
recapitulation lived hundreds, if not thousands, of years ago....
so you shouldn't think of this ancient renewing process in terms
of modern psychoanalysis. TSC,98.
WHAT
IS THE KEY TO THE RECAPITULATION?
BREATHING IS THE KEY TO GATHERING UP LOST
ENERGY
The key element in recapitulation was
breathing. EG,288.
She stressed that recapitulation is a magical
act in which intent and the breath play indispensible roles.
Breathing gathers energy and makes it circulate... it is then
guided by the preestablished intent of the recapitulation which is
to free ourselves from our biological and social ties. TSC,98. The
function of this breathing is to restore energy. EG,289 The
cleansing breath you do while recapitulating will eventually allow
you to remember everything you have ever done, including your
dreams... TSC,176.
HOW
DOES BREATHING GET BACK THE LOST ENERGY?
DESCRIPTION OF HOW ENERGY FILAMENTS ARE
REJECTED OR GAINED
The luminous body is constantly creating
cobweblike filaments, which are projected out of the luminous
mass, propelled by emotions of any sort. Therefore, every
situation of interaction,or every situation where feelings are
involved is potentially draining to the luminous body. By
breathing from right to left while remembering a feeling,
stalkers, through the magic of breathing, pick up filaments they
left behind, the next immediate breath is from left to right and
it is an exhalation. with it stalkers eject filaments left in them
by other luminous bodies involved in the event being collected.
EG,289 She said that this is a mysterious way of breathing and the
key to the recapitulation, because inhaling allows to pull back
energy that we lost, while exhaling permits us to expel foreign,
undesirable energy that has accumulated in us through interacting
with our fellow men. TSC,46. ..(sorcerers of antiquity) breathing
as a magical, life-giving act and used it, accordingly, as a
magical vehicle; the exhalation, to eject the foreign energy left
in them during the interaction being recapitulated and the
inhalation to pull back the energy that they themselves left
behind during the interaction. TAOD,149
WHAT
ARE THE RESULTS FROM THE RECAPITULATION?
YOU CAN REMEMBER MINUTE DETAILS OF YOUR LIFE
VIVIDLY WITHOUT FEAR OF EMOTIONAL INVOLVEMENT
I could remember the minutest details of my
life experiences without fear of any coarse emotional involvement.
TSC,245. There were dozen of things...traumatic events that stood
out... although I was painfully aware of them, and during the past
months of intensive recapitulating, many of them had become even
more poignant and vivid. TSC,96. As I broke off old. past links, I
began forming new ones. (to Emilito for instance) TSC,241.
..whenever I silenced my mind, a seemingly independent force
immediately plunged me into a most detailed memory of some event
in my life. TAOD, 150
THE RECAPITULATION MOVES YOUR ASSEMBLAGE POINT
MINUTELY BUT STEADILY (GOING FROM ITS PRESENT SITE TO THE SITE IT
WAS AT WHEN THE RECAPITULATED EVENT TOOK PLACE)
..more than (an intellectual psychoanalysis).
(it induces) a minute but steady displacement of the assemblage
point..the assemblage point, under the impact of reviewing past
actions and feelings, goes back and forth between its present site
and the site it occupied when the event being recapitulated took
place. TAOD,149... recapitulation is the key to moving the AP.
Sorcerers start by thinking, by remembering the most important
acts in their lives. From merely thinking about them they then
move on to actually being at the site of the event. when they can
do that... they have successfully shifted their AP to the precise
spot it was when the event took place. POS 134 The reason I'm
talking to you now is because by means of it (recapitulation) you
have stored enough energy to break certain physical boundaries.
You have perceived, if only for an instant, inconceivable things
that are not part of your normal inventory...My normal inventory
is pretty weird... I'm beginning to see from recapitulating the
past that I was crazy. In fact, I still an crazy. The proof of it
is that I'm here and I can't tell if I'm awake or dreaming.
TSC,139.
THE RECAPITULATION DEVELOPS OUR CONTACT WITH
DIRECT KNOWLEDGE
the purpose of the recapitulation is to grant
the seer the freedom to see.. by giving it range, we can
deliberately turn the seer into a force that is both terious and
effective, a force that will eventually guide us to freedom
instead of killing us. TSC,99.
But they also assured us that by means of the
recapitulation, we can allow the seer to grow and unfold as it was
meant to do.... TSC,99.
This is the reason why I always insist that
you tell me what you find out through your recapitulation.. you
must bring the seer to the surface and give it the chance to speak
and tell what it sees. TSC,100. Now I needed to use that energy
(from recapitulating) to strengthen my bond with the abstract
force called the spirit. TSC,112.
IT PREPARES OUR PHYSICAL BODY FOR THE EMERGING
OF THE DOUBLE
Clara prepared your physical side by teaching
you to recapitulate, and loosened you gates with the sorcery
passes.. my job is to help solidify your double and then teach it
stalking. TSC,228.
IT MAKES YOU LOSE THE HUMAN FORM
FASTER
Her benefactor thought that a profound
recapitulation is the most expedient means to lose the human
form.EG,290 ..thus it is easier for stalkers, after recapitulating
their lives, to make use of all the not-doings of the self, such
as erasing personal history, losing self-importance, breaking
routines and so forth. EG,290
TO MAKE A FACSCIMILE OF OUR AWARENESS FOR THE
EAGLE
(the purpose of the recapitulation is to make
a facsimile of our life experience for the food of the
Eagle)...having had what it seeks, the dissolving force then lets
sorcerers go, free to expand their capacity to perceive and reach
with it the confines of time and space. TAOD, 149.. The reason why
stalkers must recapitulate their lives in such a thorough manner
is that the Eagle's gift to man includes its willingness to accept
a surrogate instead of genuine awareness, if such a surrogate be a
perfect replica. Since awareness is the Eagle's food, the Eagle
can be satisfied with a perfect recapitulation in place of
consciousness. EG,287.
Florinda said that Soledad had been inside a
recapitulation crate for five years, that the Eagle had accepted
her recapitulation in place of her awareness and had let her go
free.EG,292.
BREATHING REPAIRS OUR ETHEREAL NET
Breathing works on both the physical and
ethereal levels.. it repairs any damage in the ethereal net and
keeps it strong and pliant. TSC,134.
BREATHING CALMS OUR MIND THUS GAINING MORE
ENERGY
The mind is like these shadows.. when our
breathing is even, our minds are still. If it is erratic, the mind
quivers like stirred leaves... if your breath is agitated, your
mind becomes restless.. to quiet the mind, it's best to begin by
quieting your breathing. She told me to keep my back erect and to
concentrate on my breathing until it was soft and rhythmic, like
that of an infant. TSC,69. Since emotions are directly linked to
the breath.. a good way to calm ourselves is to regulate our
breathing. TSC,71.For example, we can train ourselves to absorb
more energy by deliberately elongating each breath we take.
TSC,71.
IT KEEPS YOUR INNER BEING IN
BALANCE
the way to (keep the inner being) in balance
is the unique exercise: the recapitulation. TSC,41.
IT MAKES YOU LAUGH
One of the results of a detailed
recapitulation is genuine laughter upon coming face to face with
the boring repetition of one's self-esteem, which is at the core
of all human interaction. EG,289.
IT ALLOWS US TO ASSESS A SITUATION IN AN
INSTANT BECAUSE THE RECAPITULATION CAN LET US SEE OUR LIVES
WITHOUT DELUSION SO THAT WE CAN CHOOSE TO ACCEPT OUR USUAL
BEHAVIOR OR TO CHANGE IT BEFORE IT ENTRAPS US.
Clara explained that the recapitulation
reveals to us a crucial facet of our being; the fact that for an
instant, just before we plunge into any act, we are capable of
accurately assessing its outcome, our chances, motives and
expectations. This knowledge is never to our convenience or
satisfaction, so we immediately suppress it. TSC,99. she assured
me that a deep and complete recapitulation enables us to be aware
of what we want to change by allowing us to see our lives without
delusion. it gives us a moment's pause in which we can choose to
accept our usual behavior or to change it by intending it away,
before it fully entraps us. TSC,62.
HOW
LONG DO YOU RECAPITULATE?
IT IS SOMETHING THAT NEVER ENDS BUT THE FIRST
TIME IN ABSOLUTE SOLITUDE IT SHOULD TAKE EIGHT MONTHS
Weeks went by, then months... I spent all my
time recapitulating and practicing kung fu... TSC,157. Most of my
time was devoted to recapitulating. TSC,240 if after a month, you
don't notice any increase in energy, or any improvement in how you
feel toward yourself or toward life in general, you be free to go
back home...TSC,56 Armed with the list, I went to the cave
everyday. At first, recapitulating was painstaking work. I
couldn't concentrate on it, for I dreaded dredging up the past. My
mind would wander from what I considered to be one traumatic event
to the next, or I would simply rest or daydream. But after awhile,
I became intrigued with the clarity and detail that my
recollections were acquiring. I even began to be more objective
about experiences I had always considered to be taboo.
Surprisingly, I also felt stronger and more optimistic. Sometimes
as I breathed, it was as if energy were oozing back into my body
causing my muscles to become warm and to bulge. I became so
involved in my recapitulation task that I didn't need a whole
month to prove its worth. TSC,57,58. .the recapitulation of our
lives never ends, no matter how well we've done it once TAOD,
147,148 After more than eight months of faithfully practicing the
recapitulation, I was able to do it all day long without fretting
or becoming distracted... TSC,131
REACHING A STANDSTILL IN THE
RECAPITUALTION
I knew that the demands of the self were
really outrageous... I told her (Clara) what bothered me the most
was that I seemed to have reached a standstill in my
recapitulation. TSC,116...
HOW
LONG DOES IT TAKE TO MAKE THE RECAPITULATION LIST?
IT TAKES WEEKS OF BRAIN RACKING WORK TO
COMPILE THE LIST IN ABSOLUTE SILENCE AND SOLITUDE
it took weeks of brain racking work to compile
the list. TSC,57.... during those long days I worked in absolute
solitude and silence. TSC,57.
WHAT
DO YOU NEED WHILE RECAPITULATING OR NEED TO DO?
TO DO THE RECAPITULATION ONLY OUR NEED OR
DESIRE IS NEEDED
Each person performing it has to add his or
her own intent to it, but that intent is merely the desire or need
to do the recapitulation. TSC,98. Every day you sit for hours
alone in a cave recapitulating your life away. That takes courage.
TSC,95.
YOU NEED SILENCE AND SOLITUDE WHEN
RECAPITULATING
she had to remain hiding in his house for
years...she had to fulfill the task of recapitulating and for that
she needed quiet and solitude. EG,287. You need absolute solitude
to concentrate on your recapitulation. TSC,172.
DON'T TALK TO YOURSELF DURING
RECAPITULATION
If you talk to yourself (during the
recapitulation), you can't breath correctly. TSC,131
DO NOT FALL ASLEEP DURING THE
RECAPITULATION
I warned you not to fall asleep during your
recapitulation. TSC,91 I was tempted to explain away the entire
event as a dream, for I often dozed off during my recapitulation.
TSC,135.
A SASH IS NEEDED TO SUPPORT YOU DURING THE
RECAPITULATION AND TO KEEP YOU FROM FALLING IF YOU FALL
ASLEEP
handing me a bunch of dry, copper-colored
leaves... put these over your navel and tie them with your
recapitulation sash... I hope you're using it properly.. the sash
supports us while we recapitulate. You're to wrap your stomach
with it and tie one end of it to the stake I planted in the ground
inside the cave. That way, you won't fall over and bang your head
if you doze off or in case your double decides to wake up.
TSC,170.
these leaves and this sash will buffer you
from the woman's onslaughts (Nelida).. and from to her blows to.
TSC,172.
DO NOT WEAR SHOES WHILE
RECAPITULATING
Clara had advised me to never wear shoes while
recapitulating because, by constricting the feet, they impede the
circulation of energy. TSC,91.
WHEN
AND WHERE DO YOU RECAPITULATE?
EARLY MORNING, LATE AFTERNOON IN A CRATE, A
CAVE OR A TREE
The caretaker had instructed me to go over the
same events and people. I had recapitulated before, except this
time I was to do it in the tree house. TSC,240... After about
three months of recapitulating in the afternoons.. Emilito changed
my schedule(living in the trees).. TSC,241. (With my added energy,
or the influence of being off the ground, I was able to remember
infinitely more detail. Everything was more vivid and pronounced,
and less charged with the self-pity, moroseness, fear or regret
that had characterized my previous recapitulation.
TSC,240.)
I relished being outdoor, especially in the
late afternoons, the time I set aside for this particual task.
TSC,240. Early morning and late afternoon were the most propitious
times to begin such a vast undertaking. TSC,57.
THE RECAPITULATION CRATE
building of. EG,284... he put her inside the
crate daily for at least six hours.. EG,285. he had given her the
crate as a tool and a symbol. it was a tool that would permit her
to learn concentration, for she would have to sit there for years,
until all of her life had passed in front of her eyes. And it was
a symbol of the narrow boundries of our person. Her benefactor
told her that whenever she had finished her recapitulation, she
would break the crate to symbolize that she no longer abided by
the limitations of her person. EG,287. stalkers use crates or
earth coffins in order to seal themselves while they are reliving,
more than merely recollecting, every moment of their lives.
EG,287
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE OF THE CRATE?
THE PURPOSE OF THE CRATE IS TO REDUCE THE AREA
OF STIMULATION AROUND THE BODY
Recollecting was easy if one could reduce the
area of stimulation around the body. This was the reason for the
crate; then breathing would foster deeper and deeper memories.
EG,288
HOW
DO YOU RECAPITULATE?
TWO STAGES OF RECAPITULATING: FIRST A BRIEF
RECOUNTING OF ALL INCIDENTS IN OUR LIVES THAT STAND OUT FOR
EXAMINATION, SECOND A MORE DETAILED RECOLLECTION WHICH STARTS
SYSTEMATICALLY FROM THE MOMENT THE STALKER STARTS AND GOES
THEORETICALLY UNTIL BIRTH
First stage: a brief recounting of all the
incidents in our lives that in an obvious manner stand out for
examination. EG,287.
Second stage: a more detailed
recollection,which starts systematically at a point that could be
the moment prior to the stalker sitting in the crate, and
theoretically could extend to the moment of birth.
EG,288.
MAKING THE LIST OF THE PEOPLE AND EVENTS YOU
WILL RECOLLECT
Make a list of all people you had met in your
life, starting at the present Areas: jobs, schools, etc EG,288
Write down a list of the events to be relived. EG,288 I should
begin making a list of all the people I had met, starting from the
present and going back to my earliest memories.... difficult but
not impossible.. it's a necessary part of the recapitulation. The
list forms a matrix for the mind to hook on to. She said that the
initial stage of the recapitulation consists of two things. The
first is the list, the second is setting up the scene. TSC,50.
RECAPITULATE ALL THE PROMISES EVER MADE IN
YOUR LIFE
She advised me to review, during the
recapitulation, all the promises I had ever made in my lifetime,
especially the ones made in haste or ignorance or faulty
judegement. For unless I deliberately retrieved my intent from
them, it would never rise freely to be expressed in the present.
TSC,117
RECAPITULATE DIFFERENT EVENTS OF YOUR LIFE
WITHOUT ANY APPARENT ORDER.. BE SILENT AND LET THE SPIRIT POINT
THEM OUT
Recapitulate different events of your life
without any apparent order ..be silent and then get to the event
the spirit points out.
(do not let your pettiness decide the events)
TAOD,150 I asked her if the order in which one recollects the past
matters. She said that the important point is to re-experience the
events and feelings in as much detail as possible and to touch
them with the sweeping breath, thereby releasing one's trapped
energy. TSC,47.
WE SHOULD START THE RECAPITULATION FOCUSING
OUR ATTENTION ON OUR PAST SEXUAL ACTIVITY
Clara explained that we must start the
recapitulation by first focusing our attention on our past sexual
activity... that's where the bulk of our energy is caught.. that's
why we must free those memories first... TSC,51
RECALLING THE PEOPLE ON THE LIST: TAKE THE
FIRST PERSON ON THE LIST AND WORK YOUR MEMORY TO RECALL EVERYTHING
YOU EXPERIENCED WITH THAT PERSON EITHER BACKWARDS OR FORWARDS. GO
THROUGH THE LIST WITHOUT DEVIATION
Take the first person on your list and work
your memory to recall everything you experienced with that
person.. from the moment you two met to the last time you
interacted. or if you prefer, you can work backward, from the last
time you had dealings with that person to your first encounter. Go
through the list without deviation, from the first person on the
list, reliving every one of my interactions with them.EG,288
RECALLING EVENTS ON THE LIST: TAKE THE FIRST
EVENT ON THE LIST AND REMAIN WITH IT UNTIL ALL THE FEELINGS
EXPENDED HAVE BEEN RECOUNTED
The stalker then takes the event at the top of
the list and remains with it until all the feelings expended in it
have been recounted. EG,288
WRITING NAMES OF PEOPLE YOU ARE
RECAPITULATING
Clara had asked me to write on the ground the
names of each person I had encountered in my life; then erase it
with my hand after I had breathed in the memories associated with
that person. Emilito ...had me write the names of people on dry
leaves and then light a match to them after I had finished
breathing in everything I had recollected about them.. TSC,240..
Description of the box. TSC,240..As I glazed at the flames
consuming each leaf, I was to draw in the energy of the fire with
my eyes, always being careful not to inhale the smoke. He
instructed me to put the ashes from the leaves into a metal urn
and the used matches into a paper sack. TSC,240.. Each of the
matchsticks represented the husk of the person whose name had been
written on the dry leaf that had been disintegrated by that
particular match. When the urn was full, I was to empty it from
the top of the tree, letting the wind scatter the ashes in all
directions. I was instructed to lower the pile of burnt matches in
a paper bag on a seperate rope and Emilito, handling the bag with
a pair of tongs, would put it in a special basket he always used
for that purpose. he was careful never to touch the matches or the
bag.. disposing of the matches... was the final act in the process
of breaking the ties with the world. TSC,241.
RECONSTRUCTING THE EVENTS/SETTING THE SCENE:
START BY REMEMBERING THE PHYSICAL DETAILS OF THE SURROUNDING, THEN
GO TO THE PERSON YOUR INTERACTING WITH AND THEN TO YOURSELF
EXAMINING YOUR OWN FEELINGS. ONCE ALL THE ELEMENTS ARE IN PLACE
USE THE SWEEPING BREATH AND BREATH IN THE SCENE
Arranging means reconstructing the event,
piece by piece, starting by recollecting the physical details of
the surroundings , then going to the person with whom one shared
the interaction, and going to oneself, to the examination of one's
feelings. TAOD,148 And setting up the scene
consists of visualizing all the details pertinent to the events
that one is going to recall. Once you have all the elements in
place, use the sweeping breath; the movement of your head is like
a fan that stirs everything in that scene... If you're remembering
a room, for example breathe in the walls, the ceiling, the
furniture, the people you see. And don't stop until you have
absorbed every last bit of energy you left behind. Your body will
tell you when you've had enough... TSC,50.
DOING THE SWEEPING BREATH/FANNING THE
EVENT
START WITH AN INITIAL BREATH WITH THEIR CHIN
ON THEIR RIGHT SHOULDER AND SLOWLY INHALE AS THEY MOVE THEIR HEAD
TO THEIR LEFT SHOULDER. THE HEAD GOES BACK TO A RELAXED POSITION
AND EXHALES LOOKING STRAIGHT AHEAD
The procedure starts with an initial breath.
Stalkers begin with their chin on the right shoulder and slowly
inhale as they move their head over a hundred and eighty degree
arc. EG,288 The breath terminates on the left shoulder. EG,288
Once the inhalations ends, the head goes back to a relaxed
position. They exhale looking straight ahead. EG,288
As stalkers remember the feelings they
invested in whatever it is that they are remembering, they inhale
slowly, moving their heads from the right shoulder to the left.
EG,288
FANNING THE EVENT: LONG INHALATIONS LEFT TO
RIGHT AND LONG EXHALATIONS FROM RIGHT TO LEFT
This is coupled with a natural, rhythmical
breathing.long exhalations are performed as the head moves gently
and slowly from right to left; and long inhalations are taken as
the head moves back from left to right. ( called fanning the
event) TAOD,148
INHALE THROUGH THE NOSE AS YOU TURN YOUR HEAD
TO THE LEFT AND EXHALE AS YOU TURN IT TO THE RIGHT, THEN TURN YOUR
HEAD TO THE LEFT AND TO THE RIGHT IN A SINGLE MOVEMENT WITHOUT
BREATHING
She firmly took my chin in her hands and
instructed me to inhale through the nose as she turned my head to
the left and then exhale as she turned it to the right. Next, I
was to turn my head to the left and right in a single movement
without breathing. TSC,46
AS YOU INHALE THE SCENE, YOU INHALE LOST
ENERGY AND WHEN YOU EXHALE YOU LOSE THE EXTRANEOUS FOREIGN
ENERGY
I moved my head from right to left, breathing
in the energy that was still hopelessly caught in the exhibition
hall. As I brought my head back to the right again. I exhaled all
the embarassment and self-pity that had enveloped me. I moved my
head repeatedly, doing one sweeping breath after the other until
all my emotional turmoil was released. TSC,97.Remember, intend to
inhale energy that you left in the scene you're recapitulating,
and to intend to exhale the extraneous energy into you by others.
TSC,50. That's more like it... when exhaling, throw out all the
thoughts and feelings you are reviewing. And don't just turn your
head with your neck muscles. Guide it with the invisible energy
lines from your midsection. Enticing those lines to come out is
one of the accomplishments of the recapitulation. TSC,132
WHEN YOU WANT TO BREAK WITH THAT MOMENT DO THE
SWEEPING MOTION BUT WITH NO BREATH
Then I moved my head from right to left and
back again without breathing, thereby severing all ties with
particular moment of my past. TSC,97.
BE SMOOTH WITH YOUR HEAD MOVEMENTS
Your movements are too jerky... breath like
this... he inhaled deeply as he gently turned his head to the
left. Then he exhaled thoroughly as he smoothly turned his head to
the right. Finally, he moved his head from his right shoulder to
the left and back to the right again without breathing, then back
to the center. I copied his movements inhaling and exhaling as
completely as I could. TSC,132
WHILE YOU RECAPITULATE YOU SHOULD BE FEELING
FOR FIBERS THAT
EXTEND OUT FROM YOUR MIDSECTION AND THEY
SHOULD BE SYNCHRONIZED WITH YOUR BREATHING AND THE MOVEMENT OF
YOUR HEAD
she warned me that recapitulating is not an
arbitrary or capricious exercise. When you recapitulate, try to
feel some long stretchy fibers that extend out from your
midsection.. then align the turning motion of your head with the
movement of these elusive fibers. TSC,47. he suggested I
synchronize the rhythm of my breathing with the turning of my
head, so that together they would entice the invisible energy
lines from my abdomen to extend outward into infinity.
TSC,132.
WHAT
ARE THE DANGERS OF RECAPITULATION?
YOU CAN BECOME TOO SELF-CENTERED/FILLED WITH
SELF-PITY
She also pointed out that for more than six
months I had been doing nothing but focusing on incidents of my
life. Caring for something outside of myself would prevent me from
becoming more self-centered. (gives her the gardening task) Most
people only know how to care for themselves... Although not very
well at that.Because of this overwhelming emphasis, the self
becomes distorted, full of outrageous demands....
TSC,110.
But what hurt me most we when she told me that
my months of recapitulating were meaningless; they were nothing
but shallow reveries, for all I had done was to reminisce
nostalgically about my marvelous self or wallow in pity
remembering my not-so-marvelous moments. TSC,153.
9.
SORCERY PASSES (TENSGRITY)
WHAT
IS THE PURPOSE OF THE SORCERY PASSES?
SORCERY PASSES ARE DESIGNED TO GATHER ENERGY
FOR A SPECIFIC PURPOSE. IT PASSES ENERGY FROM THE BEATH TO THE
AREA WHERE WE PLACE OUR ATTENTION. TO ALLEVIATE STRESS
These are sorcery passes, movements of the
hand that sre designed to gather energy for a specific purpose.
TSC,105. Whenever energy gathers, as in the case of these sorcery
passes we call it power. TSC,106. The movements she was teaching
me whether you called them sorcery passes or breaths.. were
important because they operate directly on the reserve system, and
that the reason they can be called indispensible passes is because
they allow added energy to pass into and through pathways. Then
when we are summoned to action, instead of becoming depleted from
stress, we become stronger and have surplus energy for
extraordinary tasks. TSC,125. (they are called breathing passes)
because the preset intent of these passes is to pass energy from
the breath to the area where we place our attention. It could be
an organ in our body or an energy channel or even a thought or a
memory; as in the case of the recapitulation. What is important is
that energy is transmitted, thus fulfilling the intent established
beforehand; the result is sheer magic, because it appears as if it
had a sprung out of nowhere. That's why we call these movements
and breaths sorcery passes. TSC,112 To complement the
recapitualation I was taught a series of practices called sorcery
passes involving movement and breathing. TSC,xiii With all the
tension that rises to the face, we certainly need a different
intent if we are going to relax the muscles and tone the centers
located there. Clara said that all our emotions leave traces on
our face, more than on any other part of our body. Therefore we
have to release accumulated stress using the sorcery passes and
their accompanying intent. TSC,109.
DESCRIPTION OF THE MOVEMENTS OF A SORCERY
PASS
I saw her repeat the movements she had shown
me, except that this time she was making her fingers and hands
dance. her hands seemed to penetrate deeply into the skin of her
face; at the other times, they passed over lightly as if gliding
on the skin's surface, moving so rapidly that they seemed to
disappear. Watching her exquisite movements mesmerized me.
TSC,108. This way of stroking was never in your inventory.. This
is sorcery. It requires an intent different from the intent of the
daily world. TSC,109. As she performed her
sorcery pass, I recognized it to be a movement of the same nature
as the ones Clara had shown me, but it was different too, lighter,
smoother, more energetically charged. Clara's sorcery passes were
like martial art movements, they were graceful and filled with
internal strength. nelida's passes were ominous, threatening and
yet at the same time a pleasure to watch; they radiated a nervous
energy but they were not agitated. TSC,185.
While she executed her pass, Nelida's face was
like a beautiful mask. her features were symmetrical, perfect.
Watching her exquisite movements done with utter aloofness and
detachment, I remembered what Clara had said about Nelida having
no pity. TSC,185. ..after I finished the
pass, I felt strong and bursting with energy. TSC,185.
Close your eyes... when your eyes are closed it's
easier to use energy lines that are already there to keep your
balance... (I had no trouble following her cues for changing
positions, yet I had difficulty).. I knew it was because I was
trying too hard to do the movements correctly. It was like the
time I had tried walking with my eyes shut, and kept stumbling
because I desperately wanted to succeed. But gradually my desire
to excel diminished and my body became more limber and subtle. As
we kept on moving, I became so relaxed that I felt I had no more
bones or joints. If I raised my arms overhead, it seemed I could
stretch them all the way to the tops of the trees. If I bent my
knees, and lowered my weight, a surge of energy rushed downward
through my feet. I felt I had grown roots. Lines were extending
from the soles of my feet deep into the earth, giving me an
unprecedented stability. Gradually the boundry between my body and
its surroundings dissolved. With every pass I did, my body seemed
to melt and merge with the darkness until it began to move and
breath all by itself. TSC,129. At one
point, the strangest thing yet happened. I felt a light turning on
inside my forehead... I became aware that the light wasn't really
inside me at all. It came from the top of the trees as if a huge
panel of electric lights had been turned on at night, illuminating
an outdoor stadium. I had no trouble seeing Clara and everything
on the patio, and what was around it. The light had the strangest
hue; I couldn't decide if it was rose-tinted, pinkish or peach, or
like pale terra-cotta. In places, it seemed to change its glare
depending on where I looked. TSC,129. Don't
move your head...and continue keeping your eyes closed...just
concentrate on your breathing. TSC,129. I
was trying to determine the coloration of the light, for it seemed
to change with every movement of my head. And its intensity
fluctuated depending on how hard I stared at it. I became so
involved with the glow around me that I lost the rhythm of the
breaths. Then as suddenly as the light had turned on, it switched
off again and I was left in total darkness. TSC,130.
HOW
LONG DO YOU DO THE PASSES?
NEVER DO THE PASSES LONGER THAN A FEW
MINUTES
She warned me never to do any of the breathing
passes she was about to show me for more than a few minutes at a
time. TSC,112.
HOW
OFTEN DO YOU DO THE PASSES?
YOU MUST DO THEM DAILY
What I'm going to show you first are simple
movements that you must do daily... regard them always as an
indispensable part of your life. you must perform (these) every
day of your life from now on. TSC,106... must be practiced daily
until they cease to be massagelike movements and become what they
really are: sorcery passes. TSC,108 I can't urge you enough to
practice all the passes i've shown you.. they are indispensible
companions of the recapitulation. TSC,114. They have to be
practiced every day or else they're worthless. You wouldn't think
of going without eating or drinking water, would you? The
exercises I've taught you are even more important than food or
water. TSC,124. do them every day and you not only won't get tired
or sick but you'll have plenty of surplus energy for your
intending. TSC,125.
TYPES OF
PASSES
MOVEMENTS
FOR KEEPING A YOUNG APPEARANCE
LOOKING YOUNG IS A MATTER OF KEEPING INNER
BALANCE
The way I look is a matter of keeping my inner
being in balance with the surroundings... everything we do hinges
on that balance. We can be young like this stream, or old and
omnious like the lava mountains in Arizona. it's up to us.
TSC,41.
PREVENTING WRINKLES
The purpose of these sorcery passes is to keep
one looking youthful by preventing wrinkles from forming... The
purpose has been decided beforehand, not by me or by you, but by
power itself. TSC,106
She brought her left palm to her forehead and
stroked it in a circular fashion. Then she moved her hand over the
top of her head and down the back of her neck, after which she
flicked her wrists and fingers in the air. She repeated this
stroking and flicking sequence several more times.
TSC,105.
This circular stroking prevents wrinkles from
forming on the forehead.. it may appear like a facial massage to
you, but it isn't. TSC,105.
TO PREVENT FURROWS FROM DEVELOPING BETWEEN
YOUR EYEBROWS.
She vigorously rubbed each thumb on the palm
of the opposite hand and placed them on the bridge of her nose.
She moved them outward with light, even strokes over her eyebrows
to the temples. TSC,107.
TO PREVENT THE CHEEKS FROM SAGGING
She briskly rubbed her palms together, and
with long, firm strokes, she slid them up each cheek to her
temples. She repeated this movement six or seven times, always
using slow, even, upward strokes. TSC,107
MOVEMENTS
TO HELP THE PHYSICAL BODY
INCREASING STRENGTH IN LUNGS
Description of.. TSC,125,126.....your lungs
are weakened from excessive weeping.. a lifetime of feeling sorry
for yourself certainly has taken its toll on your lungs.
TSC,125.
TO CLEAR THE SINUS CAVITIES
After quickly rubbing together her index
fingers, like two sticks starting a fire, she brought them
vertically to each side of her nose and gently moved them sideways
over her cheeks several times.... that's to clear the sinus
cavities... she said, deliberately constricting her nasal
passages... TSC,107
TO STOP BEING DROWSY
I noticed her face was flushed, but she didn't
stop yet. She placed the inner edge of her hand, with her thumb
folded over her palm, above her upper lip and rubbed back and
forth with a vigorous sawlike motion. She explained that the spot
where the nose and upper lip join, when briskly rubbed, stimulates
energy to flow in mild, even bursts. But if greater bursts of
energy were needed, they could be obtained by pricking the point
at the center of the upper gum, underneath the upper lip and below
the nose septum. If you get drowsy in the cave while
recapitulating, rub this point briskly and it will temporarily
revive you.. I rubbed my upper lip and felt my nose and ears
clear. TSC,108...I also experienced a slight numbing sensation on
the roof of my palate. It lasted for a few seconds but took my
breath away. it left me with the sensation that I was just about
to uncover something that was veiled. TSC,108.
FLOWING WATER TO TAKE AWAY UNWANTED
THINGS
Move your feet at the ankles in a clockwise
circle... let the running water draw away your fatigue... Now try
to feel all your tension flow down to your feet, then throw it out
with a sideward snap of your ankles... flowing water takes away
tiredness, coldness, illness and every other unwanted thing, but
in order for this to happen, you must intend it. otherwise you can
flick your feet until the stream runs dry with no results... if
one did the exercise in bed, one would have to use the imagination
to visualize a running stream. TSC,40.
TO PRODUCE A CALM ALERTNESS
Next, Clara moved her index fingers sideways
under her chin, again using a quick back and forth sawlike
motion..stimulating the point under the chin produces a calm
alertness. She added that we can also activate this point by
resting the chin on a low table while sitting on the floor. After
a few moments, I felt my body settle down; a prickling sensation
rose up my back, entered my head and my breathing became deeper
and more rhythmic.... another way to awake
the center under the chin is by lying on the
stomach with the hands in fists, one on top of the other, under
the chin. She recommended that when doing the exercise with the
fists we should tense them to create pressure under the chin and
then relax then to release the pressure. Tensing and relaxing the
fists.. produces a pulsating movement that sends small bursts of
energy to a vital center directly connected with the base of the
tongue. She stressed that this exercise should be done cautiously
otherwise one might develop a sore throat. TSC,108.
A TECHNIQUE TO DIMINISH OUR INNER
AGITATION
Description of TSC,75... she explained that to
gaze fixedly in that manner places our awareness outside of us
onto the ground, thus diminishing our inner agitation. TSC,75...
TECHNIQUE TO REVIVE THE WEAK OR TO CREATE A
STATE OF UNIQUE ATTENTION
Clara picked up a hard-pointed stick and poked
my feet in between the big and the second toe. Something like a
mild current of electricity shot up my calves and ran along my
inner thighs. Then she made me kneel on all fours and, taking each
foot at a time, turned my soles up and poked me at the point just
below the protuberance of my big toe. I yelled with pain.
Classical Chinese doctors used to apply that technique that jolt
and revive the weak or to create a state of unique attention. But
today such classical knowledge is dying out... because the
emphasis on materialism has led man to move away from esoteric
pursuits. TSC,39
MOVEMENTS
FOR BALANCING OUR INTERNAL ENERGY
A BREATH TO BALANCE OUR INTERNAL
ENERGY
I'll show you a breath that has been a secret
for generations. This breath mirrors the dual forces of creation
and destruction, of light and darkness, of being and not-being.
TSC,44 sit with my spine curved forward and to bring my knees to
my chest as high as I could. While keeping my feet on the ground,
I was to wrap my arms around my calves and firmly clasp my hands
in front of my knees, or, if I wished, I could clasp each elbow.
She gently eased my head down until my chin touched my chest. I
had to strain the muscles of my arms to keep my knees from pushing
out sideways. My chest was constricted and so was my abdomen. My
neck made a cracking sound as I tucked my chin in.this is a
powerful breath..it may knock you out or put you to sleep.Clara
instructed me to take short, shallow breaths. I told her that...
was the only way I could breathe in that position. She said that
even if I only partially released the arm pressure I was creating
with my hands, my breath would return to normal. But this wasn't
what she was after. She wanted me to continue the shallow breaths
for at least ten minutes.
I stayed in that position for perhaps half an
hour, all the while taking shallow breaths as she had instructed.
After the initial cramping in my stomach and legs subsided, the
breaths seemed to soften my inside and dissolve them.
The after an excruciatingly long time, Clara
gave me a push that made me roll backward so I was lying on the
ground, but she didn't permit me to release the pressure of my
arms. I felt a moment of relief when my back touched the ground,
but it was only when she instructed me to unclasp my hands and
stretch out my legs that I felt complete release in my abdomen and
my chest. The only way of describing what I felt is to say that
something inside me had been unlocked by that breath and had been
dissolved or released. As Clara predicted, I become so drowsy that
I crawled back inside the cave and fell asleep. TSC,44
Clara said that if this breath is performed
regularly, with calmness and deliberation, it gradually balances
our internal energy.
TSC,45
MOVEMENTS
FOR GATHERING ENERGY
POWER BREATH.. FOR QUICK ENERGY
she moved her hand and gently pressed my solar
plexus. If you need a quick surge of energy..do the power
breath... I watched Clara do a series of short inhalations and
exhalations through her nose in rapid succession, vibrating her
diaphragm. I imitated her and after twenty or so breaths,
contracting and relaxing my diaphragm, I felt warmth spreading
through out my midsection... going to sit here doing the power
breath and gazing at the light behind the eyes.. until you're no
longer frightened. TSC,75.
OPENING ENERGY PASSAGEWAYS IN THE BODY (COULD
BE RELATED TO INCREASING LUNG STRENGTH)
After performing the movement with my right
arm, I felt a burning in my thigh muscles from standing with my
knees and ankles bent. Even though I stood in the same position
every day while practicing kung fu, my legs seemed to vibrate as
if an electric current were running through them. Clara suggested
I stand up and shake my legs a few times to release the tension.
TSC,126.Clara emphasized that in this sorcery pass, rotating and
pushing the arms up in conjunction with breathing moves energy to
the organs and vitalizes them. It massages deep, underlying
centers that rarely are activated. Turning the head massages the
glands in the neck and also opens energy passageways to the back
of the head. She explained that if awakened and nourished by the
energy from breathing, these centers could unravel mysteries
beyond anything we can imagine. TSC,126,127.
A PASS FOR GATHERING ENERGY BY MAKING A
HOLE
Description of.. TSC,185. This pass is for
gathering energy from the vastness that lies just behind all that
we see.. try making a hole and reach behind the facade of visible
forms and grasp the energy that sustains us. TSC,185
MOVEMENTS
FOR DIRECTING ENERGY
DIRECTING THE ENERGY OF THE SUN FOR HEALING A
PART OF THE BODY
Description of.. TSC.112,.. Description of
more of the technique..TSC,113......she explained that in this
exercise, the energy of the sun automatically spreads throughout
the body. But we could deliberately send the sun's healing rays to
any area by touching the spot where we want the energy to go, or
simply by using the mind to direct energy to it. Actually when
you've practiced this breath long enough, you don't need to use
your hands anymore.. you can just visualize the sun's rays oozing
directly into a specific part of your body. TSC,113.
LIGHT BEHIND THE EYES
Desc. of... TSC,75... If the transfer is
accomplished, a light appears on the dark screen behind closed
eyes.... she said that we can send this luminous spot of energy to
any part of our body to counteract pain, disease, apprehension or
fear. TSC,75.
MOVEMENTS
TO BRING OUT THE DOUBLE
CATCHING THE DOUBLE
Description of... TSC,114,115.another powerful
sorcery pass...that it had to be executed in one single motion,
with strength, precision and grace, but without straining.
TSC,114. You have enough energy to intend with me the result of
this sorcery pass. TSC,114. I was completely perplexed by what i
saw, which when I thought about it, I could explain as being an
optical illusion created by her speed. But at a bodily level, I
knew that my eyes had seen something inconceivable; I had had
enough energy to suspend my common sense expectations and allow
another possibility to enter in. TSC,115.
this sorcery pass enables the body to unite
with its double in the realm of not-being, whose entrance hovers
above the head and slightly behind it. By bending backward with
the arms outstreched, we create a bridge, and since the body and
the double are like two ends of the rainbow, we can intend them to
join. TSC,115
this is a sorcery pass of the twilight.. but
you have to have lots of energy and be extremely calm in order to
do it. The twilight helps you to become calm and gives you an
added boost of energy. That's why the end of the day is the best
time of the day to practice it. TSC,115.
BODY MANEUVER CRUCIAL FOR ERASING OUR FALSE
DUALISM (PREPARING THE DOUBLE)
she wanted to show me one other body manuver
crucial for erasing our false dualism. She asked me to sit with my
back straight and my eyes slightly lowered, so that I would be
gazing at the tip of my nose. TSC,45. Description of the breath.
TSC,45Clara said that circulating the breath in such a fashion
creates an impenetrable shield that prevents outside disruptive
influences from piercing the body's field of energy; it also keeps
vital energy from dispersing outwardly. She stressed that the
inhalation and exhalation should be audible, and that the
breathing exercise could be done while one is standing, sitting,
or lying down, although in the beginning it is easier to do it
while sitting on a cushion or on a chair. TSC,46.
MOVEMENTS
FOR GETTING TO THE NAGUAL
EXERCISE FOR STOPPING THOUGHTS AND FOR FEELING
ENERGY LINES
she was going to show me another exercise for
stopping thoughts and for feeling energy lines. Otherwise I would
be doing what I had always done: be enthralled with myself.
TSC,87
Clara told me to sit in a cross-legged
position and lean sideways as I inhaled, first to the right, then
to the left, and to feel how I was being pulled by a horizontal
line extending out of the opening of my ears. She said that,
surprisingly, the line didn't sway with the motion of one's body
but remained perfectly horizontal, and this was one of the
mysteries she and her cohorts had discovered... leaning in this
manner.. moves our awareness - which normally is always directed
to the front-to the side... she ordered me to loosen my jaw
muscles by chewing and swallowing my saliva three times... the
chewing and swallowing brings some of the energy lodged in the
head down to the stomach, lessening the load on the brain..
TSC,87S
CRACKING AN OPENING IN THE ENERGY
LINES
Description of.. TSC,127.
What you are going to open is a crack in the
energy lines of the world... Imagine those lines as rigid vertical
cords that make a big screen in front of you. Now grab a bunch of
the fibers and pull them apart with all your might. Pull them
apart until the opening is big enough for you to step through.
TSC,127.
this is one of the most powerful and
mysterious of all the sorcery passes.. with it we can open doors
to different worlds, provided of course that we have stored a
surplus of internal energy and are able to realize the intent of
the pass. TSC,127.
When you step in..your body has to feel
rooted, heavy, full of tension. But once you are inside and have
turned around, you should feel light and airy, as if you were
floating around. TSC,127.
Exhale sharply as you lunge forward through
the opening, then inhale slowly and deeply, filling your lungs
completely with the energy from behind that screen.
TSC,128.
You're not pulling the door open hard
enough... use your internal energy, not just your arm muscles.
Expel the stale air and pull in your stomach as you lunge forward.
Once inside, breathe as many times as you can, but be on the
alert. Don't stay longer than you need to. TSC,128...instantly I
felt as if some sliding doors had opened. TSC,128.... all sorts of
things can happen once you go through that opening. Remember you
have to be cautious and at the same time bold.
TSC,128.
USING ENERGY LINES TO STRENGTHEN THE
DOUBLE
those invisible lines are a part of your soft
body, your double... The more energy you entice out by
manipulating those lines, the stronger your double will become.
TSC,132.
COMMUNICATION WITH INTENT
she began curling her fingers as if she were
making shadow pictures on the table cloth.. this is a form of
communication, not with people but with that force we call
intent.. she extended her little and index fingers, the made a
circle by touching her thumb to the tips of the two remaining
fingers. She told me that this was a signal to trap the attention
of that force and to allow it to enter the body through the energy
lines that end or originate in the fingertips. Energy comes
through the index and little finger as if they are extended like
antennae. Then the energy is trapped and held in the circle made
by the other three fingers. She said that with this specific hand
position, we can draw sufficient energy into our body to heal or
strengthen it, or to change our moods and habits.
TSC,63.
EXERCISING INNER HEARING FOR COMMUNICATION
WITH THE NAGUAL
she told me to relax and to take deep breaths
because she was going to show me how to exercise my inner hearing.
For it is with the inner ear.. that one is able to discern the
spirit's biddings. When you breathe, allow the energy to flow out
of your ears... when you exhale, fix your attention on the
openings of your ears and use your intent and your concentration
to direct the flow... exhale through your nose with your mouth
closed and the tip of your tongue touching your palate..exhales
noiselessly... TSC,83...after a few attempts, I could feel my ears
pop and my sinuses clear. Then she instructed me to rub the palms
of my hands together until they were hot and to place them over my
ears with my fingers almost touching, at the back of my head..
Clara suggested I massage my ears using a gentle circular
pressure; then, with my ears still covered and my index fingers
crossed over the middle fingers, I was to repeatedly tap behind
each ear by snapping my index fingers in unison. As I flicked my
fingers, I heard a sound like a muffled bell reverberating inside
my head. I repeated the tapping sound eighteen times as she had
instructed. When I removed my hands I noticed I could distinctly
hear the faintest sounds in the surrounding vegetation, while
before everything had been undifferentiated and muffled.
TSC,84.