THE ANSWER DEPENDS ON WHAT YOUR TONAL OF YOUR
TIME SAYS, INSIDE, OUTSIDE? NO ONE IS RIGHT IT DOESN'T
MATTER
the tonal and nagual are within
ourselves...and they are not... but neither of us would be right.
The tonal of your time calls for you to maintain that everything
dealing with your feelings and thoughts takes place within
yourself. The sorcerers' tonal says the opposite, everything is
outside. Who's right? No one. Inside outside, it doesn't really
matter.
TOTALITY
OF ONESELF
WHAT
IS THE TOTALITY OF ONESELF?
THE TOTALITY OF ONESELF WAS WHEN THE MIND AND
DOUBLE BECOME AWARE OF EACH OTHER
The counterpart of my academic development was
the enhancement of my capacity for awareness and perception:
together the two develop our total being. Working together as a
unit, they took me away from the taken-for-granted life that I had
been born into and socialized for as a woman, to a new area of
greater perceptual possibilities than what the normal world had in
store for me. TSC,xii. impeccabilty.. a way of beating around the
bush...this is the time to mention the source of everything that
matters...what matters to a warrior is arriving at the totality of
oneself.TOP,11. Our reason is petty and is always at odds with our
bodies. This, of course, is only a way of talking, but the triumph
of a man of knowledge is that he has joined the two together.
Since you're not a man of knowledge, your body does things now
that your reason cannot comprehend. TOP,85. he said reaching the
second attention made the two attentions into a single unit, and
that unit was the totality of oneself. SRP,256.
YOU FEEL A JOLT WHEN THE NAGUAL SURFACES
FOLLOWED BY THE FEELING OF BEING SUSPENDED BECAUSE YOUR TONAL IS
BECOMING AWARE OF THE TOTALITY OF OURSELVES
I was concerned with those jolts you've had
because that is the way the nagual surfaces. At those moments the
tonal becomes aware of the totality of oneself. TOP,133 (..they
seemed to be momentary lapses, interruptions in my flow of
awareness. They always manifested themselves as a jolt in my body
followed by the sensation that I was suspended in something..
TOP,128)..
IT IS A JOLT BECAUSE YOUR NAGUAL AND TONAL
RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER.. THIS OCCURS AT DEATH
It is always a jolt because that awareness
disrupts the lull. I call that awareness the totality of the being
that is going to die. The idea is that at the moment of death the
other member of the true pair, the nagual, becomes fully operative
and awareness and memories and perceptions stored in our calves
and thighs, in our back and shoulders and neck, begin to expand
and disintegrate. Like the beads of an endless broken neckllace,
they fall asunder without the binding force of life. TOP,131.
WE NEED ONLY A SMALL PORTION OF THE TOTALITY
OF OURSELVES TO FULFILL THE MOST COMPLEX TASKS ON LIFE
the totality of ourselves is a very tacky
affair...we need only a small portion of it to fulfill the most
complex tasks of our life. TOP,133...arriving at the totality of
oneself is not a matter of one's desire to agree, or of one's
willingness to learn. genaro thinks that your body needs time to
let the whispering of the nagual sink into you. TOP,201. I should
return (to the totality of yourself)..whenever my inner voice told
me to...and in the meantime I should try to assemble all the
suggestions that they had made while I was split...by turning off
your internal dialogue and letting something in you flow out and
expand.. That something is your perception, but don't try and
figure out what I mean. just let the whispering of the nagual
guide you. TOP,202.
EIGHT POINTS MAKE THE TOTALITY OF OUR
BEING/BUBBLE OF PERCEPTION
The eight points make the totality of oneself.
TOP,96. Genaro and I have taught you about the eight points that
make the totality of our bubble of perception.
TOP,247....
These are eight points on the fibers of a
luminous being. TOP,95
EACH POINT IS A WORLD
Each of these six remaining points is a world,
just like feeling and understanding are two worlds for
you...SR,258.
THE EIGHT POINTS CORRESPOND TO AREAS OR TO
CERTAIN ORGANS IN A HUMAN BEING
The eight points correspond to areas or to
certain organs, in a human being.. TOP,96.
1 & 2. THE CENTER OF REASON AND TALIKING:
THE HEAD
He touched my head and said that that was the
center of reason and talking. TOP,96.
3. THE CENTER OF FEELING: THE TIP OF THE
STERNUM
The tip of my sternum was the centre of
feeling. TOP,96.
4. WILL: THE AREA BELOW THE NAVEL
The area below the navel was will.TOP,96.
5. DREAMING: THE RIGHT SIDE AGAINST THE
RIBS
Dreaming was on the right side against the
ribs. TOP,96.
6. SEEING: THE LEFT SIDE
Seeing on the left. he said that sometimes
seeing and dreaming were on the right side.. TOP,96.
7 & 8. THE NAGUAL AND THE TONAL MAKE UP
THE LAST TWO POINTS
the last two points that make the totality of
man, the nagual and the tonal. I once told you that those two
points were outside of oneself and yet they were not. that is the
paradox of the luminous beings. TOP,268.
THERE ARE PROBABLY ONLY EIGHT POINTS THAT A
HUMAN CAN HANDLE
as far as I know there are only eight points a
man is capable of handling. perhaps men cannot go beyond that. And
I said handling, not understanding, did you get
that?.SR,258.
SIX OF THOSE POINTS HUMANS KNOW NOTHING
ABOUT
There are, however, six more points a man is
capable of handling..most men know nothing about them..
.SR,258.
THE POINTS REPRESENT A HUMAN BEING AND CAN BE
DRAWN IN ANY WAY
The outer form is of no importance..these
points represent a human being and can be drawn in any way you
want...don't call it the body.. TOP,95
DRAWING
THE DIAGRAM
ALL THE POINTS COULD BE MADE TO CONNECT WITH
ONE ANOTHER INDIRECTLY
He showed me in the diagram that in essence
all the points could be made to connect with one another
indirectly. TOP,96.
EXAMPLE OF ONE DIAGRAM
He then spilled some ashes on the ground by
the lantern, covering an area about two feet square, and drew a
diagram with his fingers, a diagram that had eight points
interconnected with lines.
It was a geometrical figure. he had drawn a
similiar one years before when he tried to explain to me it was
not an illusion that I had observed the same leaf falling four
times from the same tree.TOP,95
THE DIAGRAM HAS TWO EPICENTERS; REASON AND
WILL
The diagram in the ashes had two epicenters;
one he called reason, the other will. TOP,95
REASON WAS CONNECTED DIRECTLY WITH
TALKING
Reason was interconnected directly with a
point he called talking. TOP,95
THROUGH TALKING, REASON WAS INDIRCETLY
CONNECTED TO FEELING, DREAMING AND SEEING
Through talking, reason was indirectly
connected to three other points, feeling, dreaming, and seeing.
TOP,95
WILL WAS DIRECTLY CONNECTED TO FEELING,
DREAMING AND SEEING BUT INDIRECTLY TO REASON AND
TALKING
The other epicenter, will, was directly
connected to feeling, dreaming and seeing but only indirectly to
reason and talking. I remarked that the diagram was different from
the one I had recorded years before. TOP,95
THE NAGUAL AND THE TONAL WERE CONNECTED
DIRECTLY ONLY TO WILL, ISOLATED FROM EACH OTHER AND WERE MORE
DISTANT FROM REASON AND TALKING THAN SEEING, DREAMING AND
WILL
And finally, at the outer edge of that world
one encounters the other two.The other two were connected only to
will and that they were removed from feeling, dreaming, and seeing
and much more distant from talking and reason. He pointed with his
finger to show that they were isolated from the rest and from each
other ..TOP,96.
REASON IS A SMALLER CENTER THAN WILL BECAUSE
IT IS CONNECTED TO ONE POINT ONLY
This is properly a centre that is smaller than
will; it is connected only with talking.. TOP,97
ANOTHER
EXAMPLE OF A DIAGRAM
DRAW EIGHT POINTS ON THE GROUND AND CIRCLE THE
FIRST CALLED FEELING AND IT MOVES BETWEEN REASON AND TALKING WHICH
WAS A POINT RIGHT ABOVE THE FIRST ONE
He drew..making eight points on the ground. he
circled the first point. You are here...we are all here; this is
feeling, and we move from here to here. he circled the second,
which he had drawn right above number one..SR,258.
WHEN HE JOINED THE OTHER POINTS THE RESULT WAS
A LONG TRAPEZOID FIGURE THAT HAD EIGHT CENTERS OF UNEVEN
RADIATION
he then joined some of the eight points to the
others with lines; the result was a long trapezoid figure that had
eight centers of uneven radiation. SR,258.
MEANINGS
OF THE DIAGRAM
MOVING BETWEEN THESE TWO POINTS FEELING AND
REASON IS CALLED UNDERSTANDING
he then moved his twig back and forth between
the two points to portray a heavy traffic. .SR,258. he placed his
twig between points one and two and pecked on the ground with it.
To move between these two points you call understanding. You've
been doing that all you life. If you say you understand my
knowledge, you've done nothing new.
A HUMAN IS FIRST WILL BECAUSE IT IS DIRECTLY
CONNECTED TO THREE POINTS AND THEN NEXT REASON
A sorcerer says,as you can see in the diagram,
that a human being is first of all will, because will is directly
connected to three points, feeling,dreaming, and seeing, then
next, a human being is reason. TOP,97
WE ARE FAMILIAR WITH ONLY REASON AND TALKING
AND HAVE A VAGUE SENSE OF FEELING
everyone of us brings to the world eight
points. Two of them, reason and talking, are known by everyone.
Feeling is always vague but somehow familiar. TOP,96.
SORCERERS ARE FAMILIAR WITH DREAMING, SEEING
AND WILL
But only in the world of sorcerers does one
get fully acquainted with dreaming, seeing and will.
TOP,96.
NAGUAL AND THE TONAL CANNOT BE REACHED BY
TALKING OR REASON ONLY CAN WILL HANDLE THEM
These two points will never yield to talking
or reason..only will can handle them. Reason is so far removed
from them that it is utterly useless to try figuring them out.
This one of the hardest things to realize...the forte of reason is
to reason out everything. TOP,96.