E-2.) TOTALITY OF OURSELVES

WHERE ARE THE TONAL AND NAGUAL LOCATED?

 
THE ANSWER DEPENDS ON WHAT YOUR TONAL OF YOUR TIME SAYS, INSIDE, OUTSIDE? NO ONE IS RIGHT IT DOESN'T MATTER
the tonal and nagual are within ourselves...and they are not... but neither of us would be right. The tonal of your time calls for you to maintain that everything dealing with your feelings and thoughts takes place within yourself. The sorcerers' tonal says the opposite, everything is outside. Who's right? No one. Inside outside, it doesn't really matter.
 
TOTALITY OF ONESELF
 
WHAT IS THE TOTALITY OF ONESELF?
 
THE TOTALITY OF ONESELF WAS WHEN THE MIND AND DOUBLE BECOME AWARE OF EACH OTHER
The counterpart of my academic development was the enhancement of my capacity for awareness and perception: together the two develop our total being. Working together as a unit, they took me away from the taken-for-granted life that I had been born into and socialized for as a woman, to a new area of greater perceptual possibilities than what the normal world had in store for me. TSC,xii. impeccabilty.. a way of beating around the bush...this is the time to mention the source of everything that matters...what matters to a warrior is arriving at the totality of oneself.TOP,11. Our reason is petty and is always at odds with our bodies. This, of course, is only a way of talking, but the triumph of a man of knowledge is that he has joined the two together. Since you're not a man of knowledge, your body does things now that your reason cannot comprehend. TOP,85. he said reaching the second attention made the two attentions into a single unit, and that unit was the totality of oneself. SRP,256.
 
YOU FEEL A JOLT WHEN THE NAGUAL SURFACES FOLLOWED BY THE FEELING OF BEING SUSPENDED BECAUSE YOUR TONAL IS BECOMING AWARE OF THE TOTALITY OF OURSELVES
I was concerned with those jolts you've had because that is the way the nagual surfaces. At those moments the tonal becomes aware of the totality of oneself. TOP,133 (..they seemed to be momentary lapses, interruptions in my flow of awareness. They always manifested themselves as a jolt in my body followed by the sensation that I was suspended in something.. TOP,128)..
 
IT IS A JOLT BECAUSE YOUR NAGUAL AND TONAL RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER.. THIS OCCURS AT DEATH
It is always a jolt because that awareness disrupts the lull. I call that awareness the totality of the being that is going to die. The idea is that at the moment of death the other member of the true pair, the nagual, becomes fully operative and awareness and memories and perceptions stored in our calves and thighs, in our back and shoulders and neck, begin to expand and disintegrate. Like the beads of an endless broken neckllace, they fall asunder without the binding force of life. TOP,131.
 
WE NEED ONLY A SMALL PORTION OF THE TOTALITY OF OURSELVES TO FULFILL THE MOST COMPLEX TASKS ON LIFE
 
the totality of ourselves is a very tacky affair...we need only a small portion of it to fulfill the most complex tasks of our life. TOP,133...arriving at the totality of oneself is not a matter of one's desire to agree, or of one's willingness to learn. genaro thinks that your body needs time to let the whispering of the nagual sink into you. TOP,201. I should return (to the totality of yourself)..whenever my inner voice told me to...and in the meantime I should try to assemble all the suggestions that they had made while I was split...by turning off your internal dialogue and letting something in you flow out and expand.. That something is your perception, but don't try and figure out what I mean. just let the whispering of the nagual guide you. TOP,202.
 
DIAGRAM OF THE TOTALITY OF ONESELF
 
The Eight Points
+---Seeing----+

/ \

Nagual Will-----Feeling-----Talking---Reason Tonal

\ /

+---Dreaming--+

 
EIGHT POINTS MAKE THE TOTALITY OF OUR BEING/BUBBLE OF PERCEPTION
The eight points make the totality of oneself. TOP,96. Genaro and I have taught you about the eight points that make the totality of our bubble of perception. TOP,247....
These are eight points on the fibers of a luminous being. TOP,95
 
EACH POINT IS A WORLD
Each of these six remaining points is a world, just like feeling and understanding are two worlds for you...SR,258.
 
THE EIGHT POINTS CORRESPOND TO AREAS OR TO CERTAIN ORGANS IN A HUMAN BEING
The eight points correspond to areas or to certain organs, in a human being.. TOP,96.
 
1 & 2. THE CENTER OF REASON AND TALIKING: THE HEAD
He touched my head and said that that was the center of reason and talking. TOP,96.
 
3. THE CENTER OF FEELING: THE TIP OF THE STERNUM
The tip of my sternum was the centre of feeling. TOP,96.
 
4. WILL: THE AREA BELOW THE NAVEL
The area below the navel was will.TOP,96.
 
5. DREAMING: THE RIGHT SIDE AGAINST THE RIBS
Dreaming was on the right side against the ribs. TOP,96.
 
6. SEEING: THE LEFT SIDE
Seeing on the left. he said that sometimes seeing and dreaming were on the right side.. TOP,96.
 
7 & 8. THE NAGUAL AND THE TONAL MAKE UP THE LAST TWO POINTS
the last two points that make the totality of man, the nagual and the tonal. I once told you that those two points were outside of oneself and yet they were not. that is the paradox of the luminous beings. TOP,268.
 
THERE ARE PROBABLY ONLY EIGHT POINTS THAT A HUMAN CAN HANDLE
as far as I know there are only eight points a man is capable of handling. perhaps men cannot go beyond that. And I said handling, not understanding, did you get that?.SR,258.
 
SIX OF THOSE POINTS HUMANS KNOW NOTHING ABOUT
There are, however, six more points a man is capable of handling..most men know nothing about them.. .SR,258.
 
THE POINTS REPRESENT A HUMAN BEING AND CAN BE DRAWN IN ANY WAY
The outer form is of no importance..these points represent a human being and can be drawn in any way you want...don't call it the body.. TOP,95

DRAWING THE DIAGRAM

 
ALL THE POINTS COULD BE MADE TO CONNECT WITH ONE ANOTHER INDIRECTLY
He showed me in the diagram that in essence all the points could be made to connect with one another indirectly. TOP,96.
 
EXAMPLE OF ONE DIAGRAM
He then spilled some ashes on the ground by the lantern, covering an area about two feet square, and drew a diagram with his fingers, a diagram that had eight points interconnected with lines.
It was a geometrical figure. he had drawn a similiar one years before when he tried to explain to me it was not an illusion that I had observed the same leaf falling four times from the same tree.TOP,95
 
THE DIAGRAM HAS TWO EPICENTERS; REASON AND WILL
The diagram in the ashes had two epicenters; one he called reason, the other will. TOP,95
 
REASON WAS CONNECTED DIRECTLY WITH TALKING
Reason was interconnected directly with a point he called talking. TOP,95
 
THROUGH TALKING, REASON WAS INDIRCETLY CONNECTED TO FEELING, DREAMING AND SEEING
Through talking, reason was indirectly connected to three other points, feeling, dreaming, and seeing. TOP,95
 
WILL WAS DIRECTLY CONNECTED TO FEELING, DREAMING AND SEEING BUT INDIRECTLY TO REASON AND TALKING
The other epicenter, will, was directly connected to feeling, dreaming and seeing but only indirectly to reason and talking. I remarked that the diagram was different from the one I had recorded years before. TOP,95
 
 
THE NAGUAL AND THE TONAL WERE CONNECTED DIRECTLY ONLY TO WILL, ISOLATED FROM EACH OTHER AND WERE MORE DISTANT FROM REASON AND TALKING THAN SEEING, DREAMING AND WILL
And finally, at the outer edge of that world one encounters the other two.The other two were connected only to will and that they were removed from feeling, dreaming, and seeing and much more distant from talking and reason. He pointed with his finger to show that they were isolated from the rest and from each other ..TOP,96.
 
REASON IS A SMALLER CENTER THAN WILL BECAUSE IT IS CONNECTED TO ONE POINT ONLY
This is properly a centre that is smaller than will; it is connected only with talking.. TOP,97
 
ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF A DIAGRAM
 
DRAW EIGHT POINTS ON THE GROUND AND CIRCLE THE FIRST CALLED FEELING AND IT MOVES BETWEEN REASON AND TALKING WHICH WAS A POINT RIGHT ABOVE THE FIRST ONE
He drew..making eight points on the ground. he circled the first point. You are here...we are all here; this is feeling, and we move from here to here. he circled the second, which he had drawn right above number one..SR,258.
 
WHEN HE JOINED THE OTHER POINTS THE RESULT WAS A LONG TRAPEZOID FIGURE THAT HAD EIGHT CENTERS OF UNEVEN RADIATION
he then joined some of the eight points to the others with lines; the result was a long trapezoid figure that had eight centers of uneven radiation. SR,258.
 
MEANINGS OF THE DIAGRAM
 
MOVING BETWEEN THESE TWO POINTS FEELING AND REASON IS CALLED UNDERSTANDING
he then moved his twig back and forth between the two points to portray a heavy traffic. .SR,258. he placed his twig between points one and two and pecked on the ground with it. To move between these two points you call understanding. You've been doing that all you life. If you say you understand my knowledge, you've done nothing new.
 
 
A HUMAN IS FIRST WILL BECAUSE IT IS DIRECTLY CONNECTED TO THREE POINTS AND THEN NEXT REASON
A sorcerer says,as you can see in the diagram, that a human being is first of all will, because will is directly connected to three points, feeling,dreaming, and seeing, then next, a human being is reason. TOP,97
 
 
WE ARE FAMILIAR WITH ONLY REASON AND TALKING AND HAVE A VAGUE SENSE OF FEELING
everyone of us brings to the world eight points. Two of them, reason and talking, are known by everyone. Feeling is always vague but somehow familiar. TOP,96.
 
 
SORCERERS ARE FAMILIAR WITH DREAMING, SEEING AND WILL
But only in the world of sorcerers does one get fully acquainted with dreaming, seeing and will. TOP,96.
 
NAGUAL AND THE TONAL CANNOT BE REACHED BY TALKING OR REASON ONLY CAN WILL HANDLE THEM
These two points will never yield to talking or reason..only will can handle them. Reason is so far removed from them that it is utterly useless to try figuring them out. This one of the hardest things to realize...the forte of reason is to reason out everything. TOP,96.