ooh i have 4 days of work next week. only one this week and not until saturday, but next week, manager's going on vacation which means i get to do the sunday paperwork. maybe i'm the only one that knows how... well whatever. that's why i make the big bucks. ahaha yah whatever

my grandparents sent me a thanksgiving card with a phone card in it. i think they want me to call them. i would except... well i don't really like calling people. i hardly ever call anyone unless they call first or tell me to call them. actually even if they tell me to call them i usually don't. i have a problem.

today i am going to the y, yes, i am. i am going to make myself go. that's the hardest part, actually going. once i'm there, i'm fine, it's just getting myself to get out of the house and get in the car and drive there.

i was reading the paper, the comic actually. have you ever read "for better, for worse" or whatever it's called. sometimes i read it but it's like one of those on going story comics which follows a family, dad, mom, brother, sister and younger sister. over the many years of the comic, the two kids have grown up, the mom had the younger sister who also grows, the dog died and was replaced by one of his offspring, the son got married to his long time girlfriend, blahblahblah. now the older daughter is in college and has a steady sweetie who in today's comic we discover may have lied to her about his dinner with mom. now, i'm sure what it's going to develop into is that he's sneaking around because he has a part time job because he's saving money to buy her a spectacular christmas present. i'd say an engagement ring, but it's too soon for that. i was thinking how it'd be soo cool if he really was cheating on her. that would be hilarious. but of course, people in this comic don't have sex, and certainly not before they have been married several years.

this comic really irritates me when i think about it. they're white, of course, the dad is a dentist with a sucessful in home practice, the mom doesn't really work, i think she has like a part time job at a bookstore. the older kids both went away to college (paid by dad i'm sure) and graduated in due time (guess they didn't go to UH) well, the one son graduated, the daughter's still in college. they both dated like only one person ever... i'm sure the daughter's going to end up marrying this guy she's dating after they graduate from college (of course) they're just so perfectly unrealistic it irks the heck out of me.

planning the agenda for juggalo night on the 28th. decided to give the "meetings" some structure, just because i like that sort of stuff. anyway...

is kid rock really dating pamela anderson? uh oh. now i'm gonna have to stop liking her. i really do like her but i really don't like kid rock. i'm not going to say whether he's a smart dude or not because really i don't know much about him except that he looks like a freakin' loser! yes, i will be the first to admit that i judge people on their appearance, anyone who says they don't is most likely lying! but he's like so scruffy and dirty looking. dirty looking people make me feel yucky.

okie i've let my food digest for almost 2 hours now, i think i can make it out of the house. i have to come back and clean my room because, yes it is still messy. then i can get distracted working on juggalo night stuff although i have more than a week to do that.. my mom is bugging me to do some more volunteer stuff with her. something about feeding dinner to a bunch of rich folks. doesn't sound like that much fun because i know i'm going to have to get all dressed up for that too. i hate getting dressed up.. she tells me, "it's just like working at zippy's" oh yah, because that was so much fun! i mean that's why i still work there. no wait, i quit that job over 5 years ago. hmm... guess it wasn't that much fun after all. hmm. i'll have to think about that one.

what happens when you procrastinate is that you get stuck doing things you really don't want to do and you spend the whole time you're stuck doing it thinking about the things that you would have been doing if you didn't wait so freaking long before going to do them.