i'm not dead, i've just been busy. i have two jobs you know.

well since i'm really pissed now and not feeling too well, i don't think i'll bother with my usual niceness. my fucking throat hurts and i don't know why and i'm starting to feel sick in other ways (as in feverish, not mentally or anything) these stupid insurance people are asking to be fucked and so now i'm not too happy with anything.

just a word of advice...if you ever get into an accident, shoot all the people around you, or make sure the other car is damaged in such a way that its occupants can't jump out and start telling their side of what happened to anyone and everyone standing on the street who could later serve as an "independent" (my fat ass) witness. also if you're looking for car insurance i can give a a couple companies you should definately avoid. one offers "resonable" rates, even if you've made a few mistakes...rates which are made possible partly because they're freaking change with their settlements...when i got my car estimated by them they offered to "repair" everything including the scratches in my bumper...don't ask me how you can repair something like that but i will tell you that my insurance company's estimate came out almost twice as high as theirs and even my company's was lower than my own mechanic's estimate. that's the other company to avoid because my agent is a pussy who doesn't have my interests in mind at all.

this whole thing is stupid and it really pisses me off because everyone is lying and i hate when people lie. like OJ Simpson, for example..."100 percent not guilty" and the shitty thing is, no matter how many people know he did it and knows he's lying, he still got off. i know that he'll get his and he has to live with his guilt for the rest of his life and all that, but please...i'd rather if he was found guilty and was feeling that guilt in a 6 by 9 cell somewhere instead of golfing on public courses (oh no!) because all the private courses banned him...gee, i wonder why, could it be because he's a murderer???? nah, that couldn't be it.

fucking liars....

of all the sins, i think lying is one of the worse...

i mean, if you did something wrong, you obviously had reasons that were right to you at the time...so what's the problem? why lie about it? what is accomplished by lying?

people are pissing me off.

in a desparate attempt to change the subject before i get so pissed off i hurt someone, i think i'll change the subject.

i think i'll talk about other things that are pissing me off. like my best friend's girlfriend who likes to act all nice to my face but secretly can't stand me. see, the problem isn't that she doesn't like me, i couldn't give a flying fuck if i was paid 1 million bucks just to try, it's that she acts like she likes me. i wish she'd just fess up and tell me that she thinks i'm a bitch and she's so insecure that she can't deal with the fact that someone else wants to talk to her boyfriend, who by the way, was my best friend for several years before she ever knew he was born upon God's green earth.

i wonder if drinking tons of beer would make my throat feel better? ahaha

my brother owes me money, but will he ever pay me? i doubt it. there's always some excuse...some important somethign he has to buy. the thing is, it's not even that much money....like 300 or something. i wouldn't even bother trying to get him to pay except for the fact that he promised me he was going to pay me back and i don't think i should forgive his promise that quickly. i mean if i do then that means that i'll never be able to accept any promises again, ever and being that he's my only brother, that'd be a bad thing to have to deal with. i want to be able to trust him and stuff but if i tell him, hey, forget your promise, it was only 300 bucks, then i can never trust him again and i like to think that's worth more than 300 dollars.

how important is sex in a relationship? good question.