guess what i'm supposed to be doing? two beans if you guessed homework. i have these two papers due on monday and friday, the week after we return from spring break. i have a some smaller things due sooner, like the monday we return, there's a discussion. not really a big thing except that i intend to take control of our group and answer the question this time so i can get my credit so i won't have to overly cooperate with the fat cranky chick. my group really irks me, well except for stacy. i have to do this thing downtown for american studies/history and write a paper. chance was supposed to go with me but he has been MIA so far this spring break. oh, the phone's ringing. DOE for my dad. i was hoping it would be that whore downstairs since i left a message for her yesterday to call me about the carpet cleaning and her inspection appointment. i have a feeling she's trying to ignore me or something. maybe she's waiting until the weekend because she still has stuff left to do? well she should at least call and let me know that because i could have plans for the weekend or something. yah right, but how does she know? of course there is the sneaking suspicion that they're going to try to "skip out" on all that, since they didn't pay a deposit or anything. evil people suck. i just want them to pay their stupid carpet cleaning money so i can get the carpet cleaned so that me and W can move our stuff down there so we can have some more room. i don't like doing my homework in the office, although that is the best place for me to concentrate and get it done, but it's so isolated in the back of the house or at least that's what it feels like.

i don't feel like doing my homework but i really need to get it done, not only because it's due soon, but because Ryan's gonna be here the week after spring break and then i won't be able to get anything done. besides, i promised him that i'd finish my homework ahead so that we could go out. at least W is back to opening tomorrow. i never seem to get much done when he's off or closing. even though he's usually doing something like playing games, i just feel bad if i spend all my time with my nose in the books because he doesn't get much time off. plus he tends to be lazy which is high contagious, like today, despite getting up at 10 and eating breakfast and everything, i still ended up back in bed until 2, even though i had a full 8 hours of sleep when i first woke up. another reason why i'm eager to get downstairs, i won't have to study on the bed just to be near him when he's on the computer, we'll have enough room to put my desk and the computer in one place and the bed in a separate room! i know he wants me to do well in school but W is really demanding of my time and i take any excuse to procrastinate and not do work, so that's really bad. case in point, tuesday is almost over and i've answered 3 discussion questions (out of 7 or 8), didn't really start on one paper, wrote one line of notes for the other paper (that's right, just started the research), and haven't gone downtown or really even thought about the american history paper. W's at some orientation meeting for another 1.5 hours so i finally have some time and what am i doing? writing in my journal!

terrible.

after this i probably won't even do my work, i'll probably play with my sim people even though they have pretty much accomplished everything there is to do in my sim land. they're ridiculously rich, i've tried to deplete their funds and they're still disturbingly loaded. they've succeeded at two different lines of work, each, one guy has earned all of his skill points and the other is close to finished with them. they're friends with all the other people in the neighborhood and they're always green=happy. i'm still waiting for W's Twiztid family to kill of about half the neighborhood because i created other families but i don't like how some of the people are turning out. i wanna create another family and build another house because i am still working on getting the house building thing right. i though i had a good one with my filthy rich clowns but it's a little bit too big, bad because it drains precious time and energy to do simple things like use the bathroom.

i think those sims must emit crack vapors when you run it or something. that's the only way to explain why they're so fascinating.

i ran into SK on friday while waiting for the shuttle. it was the strangest thing. he actually talked to me, for quite a few minutes while we waited, while we rode to faculty housing, and while we walked together for a bit. it was really bizaar. as i was telling W, i don't think he ever spoke a single word to me in all the years i was in school with him. not even a hello. last time i heard he wasn't particularly fond of him. i think he didn't find me worthy of having a crush on someone as great as him. that kind of hurt my feelings, especially since when i have crushes, they tend to be from afar. i don't think i'd have any idea how to react if they ever developed into anything more. With SK it was like how i had a crush on Barry. Just to have those feelings were enough for me, i never thought about, or tried, to have anything more. With Barry i was too young, 8th grade. Even though lots of people had relationships in intermediate school, i felt like i was still too close to the physical things are yucky phase. i've always liked boys, i never thought they were yucky, i remember having crushes on guys as early as 1st grade, but i just thought they were cute and funny, stuff like that. i was embarrassed by things like kissing and holding hands and so i never thought about them (or all those other things like sex, which i knew about, but didn't really think about). With SK, for one thing, that was the end of 8th grade and into high school, so i think i still felt too young. I had to formally end my crush on Barry due to all the crap going on with that big nose fat ass bitch jenny yamasaki, but i still secretly liked him. So after my crush with Barry "ended" i decided to move it to SK. I actually had that one for quite a while, until 11th grade I think, when i started to learn more about him from hanging around him. Not with him, mind you, just in the same group of people.

yah, so that was really funny. several times i just wanted to stop and say to SK, "Why are you talking to me? You never talk to me." Not that i especially minded or anything, i was just so amazed by it all. And not amazed in a way like if David Duchovny walked up to me and started talking to me, but amazed like something i never expected to happen nor have i really thought about it happening, but if i had, i would probably elect to pass on it. not that it was bad or anything, but there's a reason why i stopped liking SK.

i'm still trying to decided if we should have fajitas or quesedillas for dinner tonight. maybe i should go make sure the meat is still good or something. it was few days ago, so i'd imagine it would be still today, but you never know. then again it's soaking in shoyu, so that probably helps. i should also make somethign with the sausage while i'm at it, probably spaghetti sauce, although it seems like a waste after having it marinate with the steak for so long. oh well, i was really just trying to kill the orange flavor.