I actually wrote this a day or two ago, which by the way, is also when I'd thought I'd take a ride.

You know me, all busy with the house painting and shit. Got schemes going down for lots of stuff. Will update more on that later, once things become more finalized and settled. These are very exciting times my friends, indeed.

Getting ready to take a little sojourn next month, which is of course very exciting for me because I love to travel. Heading to the Big Easy/Nouveau Orleans, yes my favorites COPS location, New Orleans for two nights of drunken debauchery on Bourbon Street and fresh hot beignets and hot chocolate. Normally I’d be dunking those hot French donuts in a café au lait but I’ve decided to give up coffee for Lent. Again with the "But you’re not Catholic" thing. Blah blah bleh. Jesus would have wanted it this way. Anyway, I don’t think I can convince JC that café is not really coffee because I’m fairly sure he speaks French. I was going to give up swearing (hey that’s very very important to me!!) but somehow I didn’t think that would fly considering I shouldn’t really be doing that in the first place.

Anyway, after NO, it’s 3 days in the home of cute little chubby babies named Melissa who were born on June 3, 1978, oh wait, there was only one of me, make that baby, yes folks, let’s hear it for Southern California. *mad cheers from the crowd*

Anyhoooo, because I like to steal stuff from other people’s sites, I did all this crazy numerology shizat on Scottchu’s site and here’s what I got, I’ll react in fancy pants italics:

The Life Path is the sum of the birth date. This number represents who you are at birth and the native traits that you will carry with you through life. The most important number that will be discussed here is your Life Path number. The Life Path describes the nature of this journey through life.

this is pretty true; I in fact make it a point to try to learn something from every thing/experience. It is my opinion that the only mistakes are not learning from your mistakes and that every event is an opportunity to learn something about yourself and others and human nature in general. I am very analytical, so much in fact that when I take those personality tests, I am mostly analytical and very little anything else. When I make decisions I very carefully weigh out my options, the pros/cons, the desires result, the probable results, the plan B, the plan C, and a plan D. I actually make pro/con lists, and I love them. I will ask for opinions but I usually have already made up my mind 95% and it is really just to think out loud or is it aloud, anyway, and I don‘t think I‘ve yet to have had my decision changed by the opinion of another.

This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age. You need a good deal of quiet time to be with your own inner thoughts and dreams. You dislike crowds, noise and confusion. You are very thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to be a meet a high standard of performance, too. You evaluate situations very quickly and with amazing accuracy. You rely heavily on your experiences and your intuition, rather than accepting advice from someone; your hunches usually prove to be very accurate, and knowing this, you are one who tends to follow the directions they seem to guide. It's easy for you to detect deception and recognize insincere people. You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life. You really aren't a very social person, and your reserve is often taken to be aloofness. Actually, it's not that at all, but merely a cover up for your basic feeling of insecurity. You actually like being alone, away from the hustle and bustle of modern life. In many ways, you would have fit in better in much earlier times when the pace of life was less hectic.

All that is pretty much true. I definitely am not a social person, I don’t have many friends, but I like to think I am fiercely loyal to the few friends I do have. The reason, I believe, that I have so few friends is because I put a lot of effort into maintaining those friendships (not that it’s like a bad thing or anything) so if I don’t feel I want to or can invest my time/energy in a person as a friend, I won’t be looking to make new ones. Someone once told me that my sarcasm and anti-social behaviors were cover ups for my insecurity, funny that.

In the most negative use of the 7 energies, you can become very pessimistic, lackadaisical, quarrelsome, and secretive. A Life Path 7 individual who is not living life fully and gaining through experiences, is a hard person to live with because of a serious lack of consideration and because there is such a negative attitude. The negative 7 is very selfish and spoiled. If you have any of the negative traits they are very difficult to get rid of because you tend to feel that the world really does owe you a living or in some way is not being fairly treated. Fortunately, the negative 7 is not the typical 7, at least not without some mitigating positive traits. This number is one that seems to have some major shifts from highs to lows. Stability in feelings may be elusive for you.

well…..I’ve never felt the world owes me anything. I don’t like unfairness but usually in general, not just towards me. I don’t have major shifts in feelings either, although I do have extremes in feelings, ie I hate it or love it, but only if I’ve bothered to form an opinion, otherwise it’s just in the middle. I’m a don’t knock it ‘til you’ve tried it. I do have a quick temper so I can be snappish, but I’m fairly stable.

The neat thing about this whole thing is that it’s almost me to a tee. The other neat thing, I read all of them, expecting them to all be kind of similar and all have lots of common traits but they didn’t, none of the other numbers came close to describing me. The following numbers don’t describe me as closely as the Life Path number, but again, out of all the choices they were the ones that matched best.

A number derived from all of the letters in your FULL BIRTH NAME make up what is called the Expression or Destiny number. Although this number is called both of these names, throughout this website it will be referred to as the Expression number. This is the number that describes the talents and attitudes at your disposal in this lifetime, if you choose to develop and use them. This is sometimes referred to as your potential or destiny. Living up to attributes of this number may not be easy, but it is your goal in the here and now.  It is your life's purpose, spiritual mission, and your field of opportunity.  Unlike the Life Path number which reads as you are, the Expression number more correctly reads as you MUST.

some true, some not necessarily untrue but not likely at least I don’t think so. I am very adaptable sometimes and I do like change when I choose it. Being analytical, I can present a pretty convincing argument. Being a stubborn, spoiled, and violent person, I can beat you up until you agree with what I want. I’ve never considered myself popular, but then I have met complete strangers who know me, remember me, from high school or something. Not just, "hey didn’t you go to Roosevelt?" but "Melissa!! You went to Roosevelt!" I have no idea who these people are, but for some reason I made such an impression on them that they remember me going on 8 years after I left the school. Anyway, the last line is 100% true, although I have to point out that W says I am not witty.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.

I hate routine, I have the same old shit. My job sucks because it’s boring and it makes my ass numb. It’s a great job, pay is awesome for the effort, benefits are amazing, but it’s boring. I hate being restricted or controlled by others. If someone tells me to do something, I will not do it, even if I was going to do it anyway, just because I don’t want them to think that they can tell me what to do. However, I do not tend to make the same mistakes over and over because part of making mistakes is that you learn from them as to not make the same mistakes over. History baby (mad propz to UH).

The Soul Urge or as it is sometimes called, the heart's desire, is an important core influence in numerology. This number is made up from the vowels (a, e, i, o and u) in your full birth name just as it is recorded on your birth certificate. The sum of all of these letter, converted to numbers, and reduced to a single number or a master number is your Soul Urge. This means your inner craving, likes and dislikes. This number denotes what you value most regardless of Life Path (what you are from birth) and expression (what you will become in life).

  The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

sounds pretty accurate.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people. 99% I can be boastful but almost always in a joking way unless I‘m talking to my mom and telling her that she‘ll never be as good as me.

The sum of the consonants in your name relates a secret dream, your inner desires, or maybe even fantasies. As a modifier, this aspect of your chart may be considered less important than many of the others because often these remote and deep-seated dreams are never realized. Sometimes, however, when this number has a relationship to another core number, the dream can come true. Strangely, this number is also associated with your personality or how people see you on first meetings. This number may be so strong in your subconscious that you even project the trait as a personality mask.

I do like reading and studying (when it’s purposeful), I can see myself as a teacher but not the other two. I’m much too practical for mysticism. As I said at the beginning, life is a learning experience and above all, what should matter is what you gain from your time on this earth.

Hi, it’s me again. I’d like to say here that I don’t believe in numerology or astrology or psychics or sidekicks. When I say I don’t believe in them, I don’t mean they can’t be true or anything, I just mean that certain aspects conflict with my religious beliefs (we’ll talk about those another time) and my faith in God does not allow for me to accept certain things as the truth. I believe that certain people are able to use certain abilities which may allow them to foresee things or communicate with other planes. I believe that spirits exist, either among us or very near us. I believe that I have encountered non-physical human entities. So it only makes sense that some are able to have more contact with them than I believe I’ve had. Personally, I would not go see a psychic. I do not read my horoscope, I stay away from anything that has any hint of specifics that are in store for my future. Partly because I don’t want to know because wouldn’t I try to change it and haven’t I seen enough movies to know that what is destiny cannot be changed and I’d spend my whole life trying to avoid or achieve a certain outcome only to end up at that same outcome in the end. The other reason is because of my spiritual/religious beliefs. I forget the exact Bible story but some king or something went to see a seer/oracle/whatever who predicted defeat in this great battle or something, this was actually not true but God decided to punish him and while he was originally meant to achieve victory and greatness, God allowed the oracle’s predictions to come true. Something like that. I’ll have to look it up now.

I have to go start my car and go spend a boring day at work. At least today there’s an hour-long presentation by Motorola. I hate Motorolas they’re such a pain in the ass. This is super ass long already so you should all have a headache by now. I have lots more to say because I like the typing feeling but I’ll do that later.

Well wasn't that just too exciting?? I'm seeing all kinds of crazy errors so I better save this and see if I can fix them.