hmm i guess i must have been busy these past few days because i don't think i've made a journal since 2/15, and that wasn't really an entry so i guess you could say since 2/14? yah something like that.

mostly i've been working, working and more working at that job o mine.... the one that i don't like, well, no i guess i do like it but it's not exactly what i want to be doing yah something like that.

went to see the beach tonight with s, a guy from work. he's pretty nice and he's very tall, which was kind of interesting because most everyone i know is my height or shorter, except my brother but s is taller than my brother i think, but not by much. the beach was, strange might be a good way to put it.... it had interesting moments, but leo kept going nuts or something and it was kind of distracting because i kept trying to figure out what was going on with that. oh and there was lots of yucky parts with like bleeding people and shark bites and stuff like that.

so s told me that he actually asked the manager if it would be okie for him to take me to a movie which now means that the manager knows which isn't a bad thing but it's kind of strange to think that your boss knows about what you do when you're not at work. it's not like we work at some kind of highly professional type business where it wouldn't be okie, but i guess he just wanted to make sure it was not against the rules or something. i suppose it wouldn't come up much, considering there are mostly guys that work down there.

there's lots of guys asking me to go do stuff with them. i suppose being new helps a lot with that. i'm nice and mysterious, which is kind of funny to think of myself in such a way.

i went to a hotel party the other night, invited by rf from work also. that was pretty funny because he asked me if i wanted to go, i gave him my number so he could call and give me directions, if they decided to go, and as i was driving home i realized, i wasn't sure what his name was. i thought i knew, but couldn't be positive. then when he called i found out and i was right, but it was kind of funny for a while. so i went to that, briefly, i stayed for like an hour. i didn't really go with him, becasue i drove myself and stuff, but i did talk to him while i was there, since i didn't know anyone else. there were some asian guys but they were all banana and stuff. *sigh*

so now i have to pee. reviewing my life like this makes me have to pee i suppose. isn't that strange. no not really, i think i had to pee from before, i'm just making an excuse for why i suddenly have to go. do you ever get this feeling like you are babbling or something? i can just hear sue-p "mel, you're babbling, shut up."

i do that for some reason. look i'm doing it again! i just wrote this whole thing up there about it and now i'm starting a whole new little paragraph thing about it. what is my problem?? i am beginning to think that perhaps this means i shuld go?

oh... boss guy from downstairs just came up, at least i think that was him. someone just walked in the door. there's always people walking in and out here so it's so hard to tell what's going on some times. i think tyler is still here but i can't here anything except for bropo and boss guy. maybe tyler died? last time i looked he was on the floor. i wanted to step on him because he just looked like someone i could easily step on and crush. do you ever think about crushing people like that? sometimes these thoughts just enter my head and i can't make them stop. hehe i'm psycho!

i missed x files and VIP tonight, i am so very upset =( =(

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i have this beer but it's yucky becasue i don't like it. why can't i ever type because properly?

damn i am just going to go because my typing is too ill.