i feel down at work last night. i slipped on the ground because it was icy. i landed on my dog knee and bruised it. it's all sore and nasty looking now. i would have hurt my hand too but fortunately, my watched broke my fall. somehow it managed to pop open and the metal band slipped over my palm. phew...

tonight i had the pleasure of delivering to a trailer park. there are a lot of trailer parks in our area. i got to the , uh, door.. this fat lady, so typical white trash looking in her half falling down uh, home, she wants to kow if i brought the CD. there's this special when you buy a big giant pizza, you get a free CD from CD NOW and you can go to that site and make a custom CD. well, i found it really hard to believe that that lady had a computer with a CD ROM in her little shack and i really watned to tell her to sav me the trip back to her place because i know she wouldn't be able to use it anyway. but i couldn't say that because that would be rude. so i went back to the store and then went back to her houes. she answered the door and she had pizza all over her fat face. like damn woman, couldn't you at least wipe your face on your sleeve or something??

my job is okie, for a temporary part time thing. the people are really nice there and this one guy "jose" i'll call him, is always checking to make sure i know where im going and stuff. he's really nice. i keep meaning to ask him where he's from but i never have the chance since i usually go home before him. i'd feel weird hanging around outside until he came out just to ask him where he's from.

i've been spending a lot of time online. it's really sad. i'm like always online wheni'm not at work or sleeping. i feel like i should be doing something more productive, yetthere's not really anything else i can do right now.

sometime things are okie here in washington and i think i could stay out here for a while, or at least the 3 years it would take me to finish school. but then again, if i think about it, that's like too long to be away from home and everyone i love, because i miss them so much already. yet when cj and mc get out here it won't be so bad, so i guess i'll just have to wait and see.

i really do have some interesting conversations on ICQ. it's fun. it's amazing how much something like tha can have an effect on your life. like SAIMIN. if i had never gone on saimin, well...i wouldn't know cj or pookie-poo, lots of people. then my brother would have met mc before me. i possibly wouldn't even be into any of this chat stuff now, if not for my early habit forming years on saimin. anyone who says saimin isn't a gateway drug is lying!

speaking of, d sent me a book... high times, cultivation tips, twenty years and still growing. hehe i'll have to read it sometime when i'm not online.

i need to get better sleeping habits. i've been staying up until at least 3 every morning, sometimes until 4 or 5. then i sleep 8 or more hours, then i have to get up and almost get ready for work. it's terrible. while it's true that i don't have any reason to get up early, id' stil like to because i don't really like the thought of sleeping most the day.

oh well. i need to get the dishes washed because they're getting kind of out of hand. then i should try to go to bed sometime before 3 tonight. well, maybe by 3. baby steps...