i don't know why, but i keep forgetting the year is 02. well, no, i remember, i just keep writing 01. I've never really had a problem with this before, i have always been good at writing the current year. maybe i have a secret infatuation with the year 2001.

speaking of secret infatuations... last night i had this dream that before she bacame famous, britney spears was in jail (for what??) and i was her penpal. In the dream, i was diggin through stuff in my closet (what closet??) and found a collection of letters from Britney, including a birthday card from her. I showed this stuff to Wayne, since he loves britney soooo much and explained to him that she had been in prison and blah blah blah. i was thinking how very "star-ish" it was of her to forget about me once she became famous. Then i noticed wayne was very upset by this news about britney. he started to cry!! then i woke up a few minutes before my alarm was set to go off. While i was brushing my teeth, i told my mom about my dream (because wayne wasn't up yet) and she said it obviously means i have a secret love for britney. well, that's not true, my mom makes a bad crack psychiatrist, but it was an interesting thought. Wayne just said it was a naughty dream.

if you're not familiar, i really really dislike ms. spears. i wouldn't go as far as to say i hate her, because really, that's a little harsh for someone i don't even know, but i really don't like her. although i do like her song "oops i did it again" but i like the words more than i like her annoying voice singing them. i just think she doesn't have much talent and is pretty much sold using her body (BREASTS) which just doesn't earn much respect from my relatively flat chested self. Plus i have this thing where i am totally convinced that she has fake ta-tas. i mean, look at the before and after pictures. i don't buy that "growth spurt" story her mom keeps telling everyone. i sure as hell wish i could get a spurt like that. girls, by the way, don't usually have growth spurts that late and not all in the chest area. i think she got implants to, uh, help her career along and of course her mom can't stand up proud and say, "Yes, i let my 16 year old daughter enlarge her breasts for the sake of money and fame." hence, the growth spurt. more reasons (and probably the most influential) i dislike britney is because Wayne likes her so much. i'm not sure why, but it totally rubs me the wrong way. i mean, i'm pretty secure with wayne, but at the same time i have a fairly low self esteem level about my self image (it's not usually so low, but i've gained a few pounds in the last year or so that are kind of..well, dragging it down...well, but i'm not fat or anything.. i'm still at a healthy weight and all that..well, nevermind) I think maybe cuz i'm pretty flat. well, not really flat flat, but you know.. i've been mistaken for a guy more than once. oh.. and not only does wayne have this little "thing" for britney, but Seth, my ex from seattle, also had a little "thing" for her, he even named his bong britney and stuck pictures of her on it.. now that was horrible.

i really should be studying now... true it is friday, but i haven't really done any reading this week, with the exception of Okinawa, because of the hour break before that class, and of course, french, because well, that's just not a class you don't read for. anyway, i figure, it's a three day weekend, so i should relax a bit. but that's not a good thing to think. eventually i'll finish here, take a shower and then study while i wait for Wayne to come home. He's supposed to take me to go see a movie since he forgot about juggalette day (again). that's ok though, as long as he doesn't forget about the one in march (that will be our one year anniversary) i'm pretty sure he'll remember that one tho. at least, that's what i'm hoping. so anyway, i wanna go see black hawk down because it looks pretty good. plus it has ewan mcgregor.

i'm cold and wet and kind of smelly because i had to walk home in this less than nice weather we're having. despite being rained on and almost blown away by wind gusts, i got kind of sweaty (blame the book filled back pack or the mostly uphill trek into manoa) i had an umbrella, but with this wind... This morning Wayne said the weather reminded him of Winnie the Pooh and the Blustery Day, which i thought was actually pretty funny and true, except for the rain part.

i talked to Seth a few times this week, which was actually better than i thought it would be. he's can be pretty nice when he wants to be, although he kind of insinuated that he's different now. anyway, i like talking to him, he's pretty good on the phone, you know, like with keeping a conversation going and all that.

in other exciting news... i finally declared my major with the college, making me an official history major. i had to pick an advisor, which was an easy choice, my japanese professor, McNally, because he's a great teacher and he's so funny, even if no one else gets his comments, and i really like his classes. I had one last semester and knew i would have to sign up for him this semester, so i signed up for both classes he offered. Of course they're in my major so that helped too, but his classes are at 9:30 and 10:30 and i have a "no classes before 11" rule because of Wayne (and me before i quit) having to work so late. but i decided McNally was worth waking up early for, and so far (although it's only been a week) it has been worth it. So today in between the two classes, i informed McNally that i wanted him to advise me and he informed me that i will be his second advisee. he said there hasn't been a big rush for him or something... see? he's funny like that. but anyway, yah, he's great and i hope next semester he's teaching a class i haven't had yet so i can take him again, in my last semester.

that's pretty exciting in itself really, that i'm so close to graduating. that could be another reason why waking up so early isn't as painful as it has been in the past... everyday i wake up and go to school brings me one day closer to that day in december when i'll get to wear an ugly green robe and get that freakin' diploma. already i'm having those thoughts, you know, when you're finally done with something and you think back on it and decide it really wasn't that bad after all. so i'm thinking all these things like maybe i can get my master's in history and blah blah... but that will have to wait because i still have my FBI plans.

although it's exciting, it's also kind of scary, something i was talking to scott about recently. he's set to graduate the semester after me (after changing his major about 45 times). i'm so close and i'm freaking because i could screw it up so easily. i've been over the core requirements 100 times, making sure i didn't overlook something; i'm figuring out ways to make up any classes that i don't pass this semester (although i have never not passed a class with at least a C so i don't even know why i'm worry about that) and what if the classes i need aren't offered or have time conflicts?? what if i can't get the money for my last semester?? AAAA!!! see what i mean??? anything could happen to delay me... if i have to retake something or something... that would just totally suck to have to stay an extra semester just to take one class. erg...

i know those are mostly pointless worries, because i know i'm a good student and if i want to i can be an excellent student and i know i can come up with money somehow if i need it and i've already checked and double checked the tentative summer school schedule and last fall's schedule to get an idea of when my classes will be. i'm doing good, i'm on the final lap... victory is close. just don't trip.

oh yah, more stuff, i got a new phone. nokia 8260. i think that's what it is. the little small cute one. my old phone had a problem and kept turning itself off which was ok, except when i was trying to make calls and when i was actually in the middle of conversations. so now i have cute little phone thanks to my parents who gave me money to buy a palm pilot for christmas but i could not decided which one i wanted because they all have too many extra features, so i got this nifty phone instead which has a calendar and stuff like that, so it's almost as good as a palm and it's cheaper and smaller!

i'm gonna go do my taxes now.. hopefully that will take care of my summer school tuition.