THE SECOND ATTENTION IS THE AWARENESS OF THE
NAGUAL/TO PLACE YOUR AWARENESS ON THE NONORDINARY WORLD AND TO
IMPART ORDER TO IT
the second domain was the attention of the
nagual the capacity of sorcerers to place their awareness on the
nonordinary world SRP,240 the altogether portenous ability that
all of us have, but only sorcerers use, to impart order to the
nonordinary world. SRP,240. The second attention is the
counterpart to normal attentiveness. POS,112 the second face..
every Toltec warrior had two faces and faced two opposite
directions. SRP,274...all of us have to have two faces to fare
well in both attentions. SRP,279. The Naugal told me that the SA
is the most fierce thing there is... If it is focused on objects,
there is nothing more horrendous. EG,13
ARE THE OTHER NAMES OF THE SECOND ATTENTION?
THE SECOND ATTENTION/THE SECOND RING OF
POWER/SECOND DOMAIN/ATTENTION OF THE NAGUAL/THE SECOND FACE/THE
LEFT SIDE/THE SHADOW WORLD/THE REALM OF NOT-BEING...also called
the second ring of power SRP,240 the left side... the mysterious
side of man. FFW,9.. the supernatural.... CC TAOD pg viii.. The
residue of consciousness. EG,135. the domain of what he called the
second attention, or the attention of the nagual, or the attention
under the table. SRP,256.
THE NAGUAL IS PERCEIVED WHENEVER THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT IS FIXED INTO ANY NEW POSITION
old sorcerers called the result of fixing the
assemblage point on new positions the second attention awareness
of other worlds. TAOD,16
THE NAGUAL IS THE PART OF US WE NEVER DEAL
The nagual is the part of us which we do not
deal with at all...TOP,124 Soledad told me that the left side is
the parallel line to the one we are living in now. EG,83. The
nagual is not experience or intuition or consciousness
..TOP,138.The nagual is the part of us for which there is no
description-no words, no names, no feelings, no knowledge.
TOP,124... The left side, called the naugal, is a realm of
indescribable features, a realm impossible to contain in words.
THE NAGUAL IS THE VASTEST FIELD ONE CAN
The SA is also called the the left-side
awareness and it is the vastest field that one can imagine, so
vast in fact that it seems limitless. It's a quagmire so complex
and bizarre that sober seers go into it only under the strictest
THE NAGUAL IS BUT A REFLECTION OF THAT
INDESCRIBABLE VOID THAT CONTAINS EVERYTHING
the nagual of every one of us is but a
reflection of that indescribable void that contains everything.
THE SECOND ATTENTION IS EXHAUSTING AND IS NOT
A STATE OF POWER
I was exhausted, because to be in the left
side awareness is a special and frail condition which has to be
used sparingly. It certainly is not a state of power
THE NAGUAL AS A LUMINOUS GOOEY
and then you saw your naugal on her
forehead... that substance was yourself.. It came out of your body
and it was your naugal. by touching it, you pulled it back.
SRP,198... since all of us had the same luminosity, if my naugal
touched one of them(sorcerers), I would not get weakened, as
ordinarily be the case if my naugal touched an average man. If
your naugal touches us (sorcerers)... your luminosity stays on the
surface. You can pick it up again and nothing is lost.
Probably refering to this as the energy
THE NAGUAL ACCOUNTS FOR OUR
in the life of a sorcerer it was the nagual
that was accountable for creativity. TOP,136..the nagual is the
only part of us that can create. TOP,139
ANALOGY OF THE NAGUAL USING RESTAURANT
(Analogy of the nagual using restaurant
tables) TOP, 125,126...
The term nagual Is also used to describe
the leader of a sorcerer's party as the nagual and the force
inside us (energy body)
DOES THE NAGUAL WORK?
THE NAGUAL CAN DO EXTRAORDINARY THINGS BUT WE
DON'T KNOW HOW IT HAPPENS
The nagual can perform extraordinary
things...things that do not seem possible, things that are
unthinkable for the tonal. But the extraordinary thing is that the
performer has no way of knowing how those things happen.... the
secret of a sorcerer is that he knows how to get to the nagual,
but once he gets there, your guess is as good as his to what
takes place...one feels like one is doing
THE ENTRANCE TO THE NAGUAL WAS NOT
METAPHORICAL BECAUSE IT ACTUALLY APPEARS SOMETIMES AS A PLAIN
DOOR, A BLACK CAVERN, A DAZZLING LIGHT OR ANYTHING
to call it an entrance was not metaphorical
because it actually appears sometimes as a plain door, a black
cavern, a dazzling light, or anything conceivable, even a dragon's
eye. ..in this respect, the metaphors of China's early sages were
not farfetched at all.. TSC,67.
THE NAGUAL IS NOT GOD BECAUSE GOD IS PART OF
THE TONAL OF OUR TIME
...the nagual is not God, because God is an
item of our personal tonal and of the tonal of the times. God has
no more importance other than being a part of the tonal of our
time... God is only everything you can think of, therefore,
properly speaking, he is only another item on the island.
GOD CANNOT BE WITNESSED BUT TALKED ABOUT WHILE
THE NAGUAL CAN ONLY BE WITNESSED AND NOT TALKED ABOUT
God cannot be witnessed at will, he can only
be talked about. The nagual,on the other hand, is at the service
of the warrior. It can be witnessed, but it cannot be talked
BANDS DOES OUR ASSEMBLAGE POINT ASSEMBLE IN THE SECOND
FROM THE REMAINING 46 GREAT BANDS, THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT CAN ASSEMBLE 7 COMPLETE WORLDS, 5 OF THOSE WORLDS
ARE DIFFICULT TO ASSEMBLE
The other 46 great bands are not part of the
world we normally perceive. There are other complete worlds that
our AP can assemble..the old seers counted seven, one for each
band of awareness. I'll add that two of those worlds, besides the
world of everyday life, are easy to assemble; the other five are
something else. FFW,182
DO WE ACTUALLY PERCEIVE ANOTHER WORLD?
WE EXPERIENCE ANOTHER WORLD WHEN OUR
ASSEMBLAGE POINT ASSEMBLES ANOTHER GREAT BAND OF THE EAGLE'S
In order to see another world I had to
perceive another great band of the Eagle's emanations. FFW,175...a
true change of worlds happens only when the AP moves into man's
band, deep enough to reach a crucial threshold, at which stage the
AP can use another of
the great bands. FFW,183
THE SECOND ATTENTION IS HOOKED TO EMANATIONS
OF THE UNIVERSE
our second attention was hooked to the
emanations of the universe. EG,262
THE EARTH'S COCOON CONTAINS THE UNKNOWN
inside the earth's cocoon is.. the unknown
DOES THE SECOND ATTENTION CORRESPOND TO THE LUMINOUS
THE SECOND ATTENTION BELONGS TO THE LUMINOUS
....The second attention belongs to the
luminous body. EG,252....
THE SECOND ATTENTION IS A SPECIALIZED STATE OF
THE GLOW OF AWARENESS
The SA is a complex and specialized state of
the glow of awareness. FFW,127,128
THROUGH THE WILL WE CAN WITNESS THE EFFECTS OF
Sorcerers say that through the will they can
witness the effects of the nagual. TOP,267,268.
IS THE SECOND ATTENTION ASSEMBLED?
THE SECOND ATTENTION IS ASSEMBLED ONE AND
ONE-HALF FEET IN FRONT OF THE MIDPOINT BETWEEN THE STOMACH AND THE
BELLY BUTTON AND FOUR INCHES TO THE RIGHT
The second attention assembles itself
approximately one and one-half feet in front of the midpoint
between the stomach and the belly button and four inches to the
CAUSES US TO PERCEIVE THE HUMAN UNKNOWN?
The human unknown result from shifts from
the assemblage point (See Awareness)
KIND OF SHIFTS ARE THERE?
SHALLOW SHIFTS OF THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT MAKE
THE DREAMER SLIGHTLY MORE VULNERABLE TO EMOTIONS
If the shift is a shallow one...the dreamer
is like almost anyone else in the street, except for a slight
vulnerability to emotions, such as fear and doubt.
WILL YOU PERCEIVE IN A SHALLOW SHIFT?
SHIFTS GIVE RISE TO MINUTE PERCEPTION
Shifts give rise to minute changes, which are
practically unnoticeable. The challenge of the shifts is that they
are so small and so numerous that to maintain cohesiveness in all
of them is a triumph. TAOD,70..even the most minute shifting,
creates totally isolated islands of perception.
CHANGES IN LIGHT THAT RESULT FROM A SHIFT OF
a shift of the AP is marked by a change in
light. In the daytime, light becomes very dark; at night, darkness
becomes twilight. FFW,265.
it was a new path; (entering the shadow
world) something unnamed and unimaginable from the point of view
of the normal world. TSC,140.
DESCRIPTION OF SEEING NO SHADOWS
However, when I looked closer I noticed
something odd in the shadows cast on the floor. A shudder went
through me, for I knew the shadows were wrong. I could have sworn
that they were agitated, shimmering, dancing, but there was no
wind or movement in the room. (Emilito is showing a room to Taisha
in the forbidden side of the house. ) TSC,201,202.
A moment ago it was light. I could see
everything clearly... what happened is that you entered into the
shadow's world... I could tell by the rhythm of your breathing
that you had gone there. But I didn't want to frighten you then by
asking you to look at your shadow... there were no shadows..there
was light but nothing had a shadow... in the worlds outside this
one, there are no shadows. TSC,130.
IS THE SHADOW WORLD LOCATED?
THE REALM OF NOT-BEING IS LOCATED ABOVE THE
HEAD AND SLIGHTLY BEHIND IT
the realm of not-being, whose entrance hovers
above the head and slightly behind it. TSC,115
IS HEIGHTENED AWARENESS?
HEIGHTENED AWARENESS IS A SHALLOW SHIFT OF THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT WHERE THE GLOW GOES DEEPER IN THE LUMINOUS COCOON
AND THE SHINE IS MORE INTENSE ON THE SURFACE OF THE
HA is a shallow shift of the AP. FFW,270. HA
is only an intermediate state. There is infinitely more beyond
that...FFW,69.. ...a state of HA is seen not only as a glow that
goes deeper inside the egglike shape of human beings, but also as
a more intense glow on the surface of the cocoon. FFW,131,132
OF BEING IN HEIGHTENED AWARENESS
...I could have sworn that his touch
hypnotized me. I believed he had instantaneously put me to sleep
and I dreamt....TAOD,24..
my ears buzzed POS,10
My ears popped, the room became energized and
everything fell into place.. (this is a recollection experience)
LIKE A JOLT
then he bent over and slapped me on the
belly. It was not painful or pleasurable or anything I could think
of. It was rather a jolt. SR,155.
IT IS NOT QUITE A PLEASING STATE
It was not quite a pleasing state. TAOD,
FEELING OF DRYNESS
There was no pain involved; instead it
brought on a sensation impossible to describe. The closest I can
come is to say that it created a feeling like dryness in me. The
blows to my back seemed to dry out my lungs and fog up everything
else. Then.. everything that had become hazy after the naugal's
blow became crystal clear as I breathed, as if breath were the
catalyst, the all-important factor. Same thing happened on the way
back to everyday awareness. EG,165.
SPEEDING: AN INCOMPARABLE RICHNESS OF PERSONAL
Another feature (besides clarity) of those
states of HA was the incomparable richness of personal
interaction, a richness that our bodies understood as a sensation
of speeding. On the left side, there is an inherent need for
economy and speed. EG,165. to la Gorda, it seemed that everything
in that state (HA) went faster, yet nothing in the world had been
changed. EG,164.... everything stood by itself. It may have been
that my reasoning faculties were numbed by DJ's blow, thus
allowing me to perceive without their intervention. EG,164.
INTENSITY: CAN PERCEIVE EVERYTHING AT ONCE IN
A MASS OF DETAIL
intensity is the ability to perceive
everything at once. in these states of HA we had perceived
everything in one clump, one bulky mass of inextricable detail.
EG,165. Most of the time it was like a strange dream so intense
that normal awareness paled by comparison. TAOD, 17
..great clarity of mind. POS,10...... On the
left side I could grasp the meaning of things with precision and
directness. Every facet of activity was free of preliminaries or
introductions. I acted and rested; I went forth and retreated
without any of the thought processes that are usual to me. EG,165
From my experimental position, such displacements meant that my
awareness used to enter into a most disturbing state of unequaled
clarity, a state of superconsciousness, which I enjoyed for short
periods of time and in which I could understand anything with
minamal preambles. TAOD, 17
I couldn't believe that I was listening to
her every word. Some major change had definitly taken place,
transforming my habitual bored indifference into a most unusual
LOSE SENSE OF SURROUNDINGS
in HA one is minimally conscious of the
surroundings, because one's total concentration is taken by the
details of the action. FFW,13.
FEELING OF COMPLETENESS
I had come to regard those incomprehensible
states as being my true self. There was one simple reason for
that- on those states I felt complete; nothing was missing from
me. The anger and the sadness were a reaction to impotence. I was
more aware than ever of the limitation of my being.
ALONG THE MIDSECTION
A DREAMER WHO IS SHIFTING ALONG THE MIDSECTION
BECOMES A BLOB OF LIGHT.
But at a certain degree of depth, the dreamer
who is shifting along the midsection becomes a blob of light.
IN DEPTH/TO THE LEFT
A SHIFT IN DEPTH/SHIFT TO THE LEFT WHERE YOU
NEVER LOSE YOUR IDENTITY BECAUSE IT STILL USES THE SAME EMANATIONS
BUT ONLY MORE OF THEM
(for the old seers they saw that when the AP
shifted it looked like it moved to the left but in fact it is a
shift in depth..but the new seers kept the name...)...Since the
shift of the AP was always in depth, I had never lost my sense of
identity in spite of the fact that I was always using emanations I
had never used before. FFW,141
To see the glow of the AP moving inside that
disk gives the feeling it is shifting toward the left on the
surface of the cocoon. the transparency of the luminous egg
creates the impression of a movement toward the left, when in fact
every movement of the AP is in depth, into the center of the
luminous egg along the thickness of man's band.
SHIFTING IS ORDINARILY TOWARDS THE LEFT/A
NATURAL REACTION FOR HUMAN BEINGS
the movement ordinarily is toward the left,
that such a directional preference is a natural reaction of most
A SHIFT LATERALLY ALONG THE WIDTH OF MAN'S
BAND OF EMANATIONS
....a shift of the point from one side to
the other along the width of man's band of emanations instead of a
shift in depth. FFW,153
ON BOTH EDGES OF MAN'S BAND IS
on both edges of man's band of emanations
there is a strange storage of refuse, an incalculable pile of
human junk. FFW,??
ON THE RIGHT EDGE OF THE BAND IS PHYSICAL
ACTIVITY, VIOLENCE, KILLING, SENSUALITY
on the right edge we find endless visions of
physical activity, violence, killing, sensuality. FFW,154.
DESCRIPTION OF BEING ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF
...while I lay there, I had the most
wonderful, fulfilling thoughts of love, for goodness...I felt
elated.. I was moved by profound love.. I wanted to be with them,
to pray to the Lord. FFW, 149,150
THE DARK SIDE OF MAN IS LOCATED BY SHIFTING
THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT IN MAN'S BAND TO THE PLACE DIAMETRICALLY
OPPOSED TO ITS NORMAL POSITION
some of the obsessive visions of seers, the
ones that were almost impossible to conceive, coincided with a
shift of the AP to the region of man's band which is diametrically
opposed to where it is ordinarily located. those were visions of
the dark side of man.. because it is somber and foreboding ..it is
not only the unknown, but the who-cares-to-know-it. FFW,143
ON THE LEFT EDGE OF THE BAND IS SPIRITUALITY,
RELIGION AND GOD
On the left edge we find spirituality,
religion, God. FFW,154. Genaro and I walked your assemblage point
to both edges, so as to give you a complete view of the junkpile.
THE MOLD OF
IT IS A HUGE CLUSTER OF EMANATIONS IN THE
GREAT BAND OF ORGANIC LIFE
....it is a huge cluster of emanations in the
great band of organic life. FFW,278
THE MOLD OF MAN IS AN ENERGY PATTERN THAT
SERVES TO STAMP THE QUALITIES OF HUMANNESS ON AN AMORPHOUS BLOB OF
BIOLOGICAL MATTER/THE ORIGIN OF MAN
is what puts us all together SRP,140....he
talked about the mold of man in terms of a pattern of energy that
serves to stamp the qualities of humanness on an amorphous blob of
biological matter. He said that it was like a gigantic die that
stamps out human beings endlessly as if they were coming to it on
a mass-production conveyor belt. FFW,280,281. The mould is the
source, the origin of man, since, without the mould to group
together the force of life, there was no way for that force to
assemble itself into the shape of man. SRP,138. The new seers are
the only ones who have the sobriety to see the mold of man and
understand what it is. What they have come to realize is that the
mold of man is not a creator, but the pattern of every human
attribute we can think of and some we cannot even conceive of.
FFW,281 We are simply the product of its stamp; we are its
impression. The mold of man is exactly what its name tells us it
is,a pattern, a form, a cast that groups together a particular
bunch of fiberlike elements which we call man.
IT IS A STATIC PROTOTYPE OF HUMANNESS WITHOUT
The new seers have seen.. that what we call
God is a static prototype of humanness without any power. For the
mold of man cannot under circumstances help us by intervening in
our behalf, or punish our wrongdoings, or reward us in any way.
IT IS AN ENTITY WHICH WE ALL SEE AT THE MOMENT
OF OUR DEATH
The mold of man was definitely an entity, an
entity which could be seen by some of us at certain times when we
are imbued with power, and by all of us for sure at the moment of
our death. SRP,138
IS IT CALLED THE MOLD OF MAN?
IT IS CALLED THE MOLD OF MAN BECAUSE THE
CLUSTER APPEARS ONLY INSIDE THE COCOON OF MAN
It is called the mold of man because the
cluster appears only inside the cocoon of man. The mold of man is
the portion of the Eagle's emanations that seers can see directly
without any dangers to themselves. FFW,278.....
EVERY SPECIES HAS A MOLD OF ITS
He said that every species has a mold of its
own and every individual of every species molded by the process
shows characteristics particular to its own kind. FFW,280,281.
THERE ARE TWO WAYS TO SEEING THE MOLD OF MAN:
AS A MAN OR AS A LIGHT IT DEPENDS ON THE SHIFT OF THE ASSEMBLAGE
POINT: LATERAL SHIFT IT IS A HUMAN BEING, SHIFT TO THE MIDSECTION
OF MAN'S BAND IT IS A LIGHT
There are two ways of seeing the mold of
man.. you can see it as a man or you can see it as a light. That
depends on the shift of the AP.FFW,288. if the shift is lateral,
the mold is a human being; if the shift is in the midsection of
man's band, the mold is a light. FFW,288.
THE MOLD OF MAN'S POSITION ON THE ASSEMBLAGE
POINT IS CLOSE TO WHERE THE DREAMING BODY AND BARRIER OF
The position of the AP where one sees the
mold of man is very close to that where the dreaming body and the
barrier of perception appear. FFW,288.
OF SEEING THE MOLD OF MAN
He hit me on my right side, between my
hipbone and ny ribcage. That blow sent me soaring into a radiant
light, into a diaphanous source of the most peaceful and exquisite
beatitude. That light was a haven, an oasis in the blackness
around me. I saw that light for an immeasurable length of time.
The splendor of the sight was beyond anything I can say and yet I
could not figure out what it was that made it so beautiful. Then
the idea came to me that its beauty t of a sense of harmony, a
sense of peace and rest, of having arrived, of being safe at long
last. I felt myself inhaling and exhaling in quietude and relief.
What a gorgeous sense of plentitude! I knew beyond a shadow of a
doubt that I had come face to face with God, the source of
everything. And I knew that God loved me. God was love and
forgiveness. The light bathed me and I felt clean, delivered. I
wept uncontrollably, mainly for myself. The sight of that
resplendent light made me feel unworthy, villainous.
Then I heard DJ's voice in my ear. He said
that I had to go beyond the mold, that the mold was merely a
stage, a stopover that brought temporary peace and serenity to
those who journey into the unknown, but it was sterile, static. It
was at the same time a flat reflected image in a mirror and the
mirror itself. And the image was man's image. FFW,283. I also
realized it was not DJ's voice in my ear.. it sounded like it but
it wasn't. FFW,284...As I gazed into the light with all the
passion I was capable of, the light seemed to condense and I saw a
man. A shiny man that exuded charisma, love, understanding,
sincerity, truth. A man total of all that is good. The fervor I
felt on seeing that man was well beyond anything I had ever felt
in my life. I did fall on my knees. I wanted to worship God
personified, but DJ intervened and whacked me on my left upper
chest, close to my clavicle, and I lost sight of God. FFW,284. I
was left with a tantalizing feeling, a mixture of remorse,
elation, certainties, doubts. FFW,284. Description of CC seeing
the mould of man as a man... SRP,138. It was a radiant, luminous
being. I could not look at it. It blinded me. But being in its
presence was enough. I felt happy and strong. And nothing else
mattered, nothing. just being there was all I wanted. SRP,139. It
was simply a luminous human. SRP,140. The human mold glows and it
is always found in water holes and narrow gullies. It feeds on
water. Without water there is no mould. SRP,139.
SHIFT BELOW/PLACE OF THE BEAST
A SHIFT THAT IS BELOW THE HABITUAL POSITION OF
THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT/NOT A SHIFT IN DEPTH
but there are seers who can direct that
movement to positions below the customary spot where the point is
located. The new seers call that shift the shift below seers also
suffer accidental shifts below..FFW,154.
DOWNSHIFTS OCCUR LESS FREQUENT AS THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT MOVES FARTHER TO THE LEFT/DEPTH
..an unwitting downshift occurs periodically
to every seer, but that such a downshift becomes less and less
frequent as their AP move farther to the left. FFW,155
DOWNSHIFTS DIMINISHES THE POWER OF THE
Everytime it occurs, however, the power of a
seer undergoing it dimishes considerably. It is a drawback that
takes time and great effort to correct. FFW,155
THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT DOESN'T REMAIN THERE LONG
IN ACCIDENTAL SHIFTS
the AP doesn't remain there long, and that's
fortunate, because that is the place of beast FFW,154.
IT IS NOT GOOD TO GO BELOW EVEN THOUGH IT IS
EASY TO DO
To go below is counter to our interest,
although its the easiest thing to do...FFW,154.
THE OLD SORCERERS MADE THE MISTAKE OF GOING TO
THE PLACE BELOW ALOT AND BECAME OBSESSED
among the many errors of judgement the old
seers had committed, one of the most grievous was moving their AP
to the immeasurable area below, which made them experts at
adopting animal forms. They chose different animals as their point
of reference and called those animals their naugal. FFW,154. They
believed that by moving their AP to specific spots they would
acquire the characteristics of the animal of their choice, its
strength or wisdom or cunning or agility or ferocity.
VISION BECOMES LIMITED IN A SHIFT
when the AP moves to the regions below its
normal position, the vision of sorcerer becomes limited.
SHIFT BELOW IS THE SAME WORLD BUT FROM A
A shift below entailed a view, not of another
world proper but our same world of everyday life seen from a
different perspective. FFW,175. a shift below allows the seer a
detailed and narrow view of the world we know. So detailed is the
view that it seems to be an entirely different world. It is
mesmerizing view that has tremendous appeal..minimal effort is
DEATH IS MORE OF A PROBLEM IN A DOWNSHIFT THAN
IT IS IN THE HABITUAL POSITION
the only problem is that in those positions
of the AP, seers are plaqued by death, which happens even more
brutally and more quickly than in man's position.
THE SHIFT BELOW ALWAYS RESULTS IN A TOTAL
A shift of the AP to the area below always
results in a total transformation FFW,155
FEMALES HAVE MORE DOWNSHIFTS THAN MALES BUT
CAN BOUNCE OUT OF THE POSITION EASIER.
Female seers have downshifts more often than
males..but they are also capable of bouncing out of that position
with no effort at all, while males linger dangerously in
it.FFW,156 He said that also women seers have an extraordinary
capacity to make their AP hold on to any position in the area
below.. Men cannot. FFW,156
They can therefore, reproduce an animal form
with flare, ease, and a matchless ferocity. FFW,156...
CAUSES THE HUMAN UNKNOWN PROPER (NO HUMAN TRAITS)?
The unknown proper results from a
displacement of the assemblage point (See
KIND OF MOVEMENTS OF THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT ARE
DISPLACEMENT, DEEP LEFT SIDE
JUST BEFORE THE BARRIER OF PERCEPTION IS AN
UNMEASURABLE AREA OF AWARENESS WHERE WARRIORS FALL PREY TO EVERY
...there was an unmeasurable area of
awareness in between the customary position of the AP and the
position where there are no doubts, which is almost the place
where the barrier of perception makes its appearance. In that
umeasurable area, warriors fall prey to every conceivable misdeed.
He warned me to be on the lookout and not lose confidence, for I
would unavoidably be struck at one time or another by gripping
feelings of defeat. FFW,279
THE WORLD DISAPPEARS WHEN THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT
MOVES PAST THE MIDLINE OF THE COCOON OF MAN
a displacement of the AP beyond the midline
of the cocoon of man makes the entire world vanish from our view
in one instant, as if it had been erased-for the stability, the
substantiality, that seems to belong to our perceivable world is
just the force of alignment. FFW,302. He added that if the AP
moves beyond a crucial threshold, the world vanishes; it ceases to
be what it is to us at man's level. FFW,155
IN THE INTERMEDIATE STAGE, BEFORE ONE ENTERS
FULLY INTO THE LEFT SIDE AWARENESS, ONE IS CAPABLE OF GREAT
CONCENTRATION, BUT OPEN TO EVERY INFLUENCE.
.. in the intermediate stage, before one
enters fully into the leftside awareness, one is capable of
tremendous concentration, but one is also susceptible to every
conceivable influence... FFW,65
THE TRANSITION PERIOD IS ALSO WHEN THE DEEPEST
LEARNING TAKES PLACE
the transition period is the time when the
deepest learning takes place and that it is also a time when
warriors must be supervised and explanations must be given to them
so they can evaluate them properly. If no explanations are given
to them before they enter into the left side, they will be great
sorcerers but poor seers, as the ancient Toltecs were.
THE TRANSITION PERIOD IS CALLED THE
netherworld is (the region between our world
and the inorganic being's world) TAOD,248
RECOLLECTING THE DREAMING BODY WOULD PUT THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT IN A POSITION TO BREAK THE BARRIER OF
the recollection of the dreaming body would
put my AP in a position to break the barrier of perception in
order to assemble another world. FFW,291
WILL WE PERCEIVE THERE?
A SPECIAL RECESS OF AWARENESS CALLED THE WALL
OF FOG OR THE BARRIER OF PERCEPTION/CRACK BETWEEN THE
a special recess of awareness, which was the
site of the keenest form of attention. EG,154. One of its main
features, was that in that state we were able to perceive a
colossal bank of yellowish vapor, called the wall of fog.
THE CRACK BETWEEN THE WORLDS IS THE CAPACITY
TO CHANGE LEVELS OF ATTENTION
....the crack between the worlds was more
than a metaphor. it was rather the capacity to change levels of
IT IS A POSITION WHERE THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT
CANNOT ALIGN EMANATIONS AND WE EXPERIENCE IT AS A MOMENT OF
PERCEPTUAL BLANKNESS AND A BANK OF FOG APPEARS
when the AP is moving away from its
customary position and reaches a certain depth, it breaks a
barrier that momentarily disrupts its capacity to align
emanations. We experience it as a moment of perceptual blankness.
(Nonperception where the AP had moved but not far enough to reach
and light a totally new bundle of energy fields. POS,111)....the
old seers called that moment the wall of fog, because a bank of
fog appears whenever the alignment of emanations falters.
THERE ARE THREE WAYS ON INTERPRETING THIS AREA
OF NONPERCEPTION: CAN BE THOUGHT OF ABSTRACTLY, IT CAN FEEL LIKE
PIERCING A TIGHT PAPER SCREEN WITH THE ENTIRE BODY OR SEEN AS A
WALL OF FOG
There were three ways of dealing with
it.FFW,276 (1) It could be taken abstractly as a barrier of
perception; FFW,276 (2) it could be felt as the act of piercing a
tight paper screen with the entire body; FFW,276 (3) or it could
be seen as a wall of fog. FFW,276
WE NEED ONLY PART OF OUR AWARENESS TO GET TO
THE FOG BUT TO CROSS BODILY INTO THE OTHER WORLDS REQUIRES OUR
..To venture behind the wall of fog, while
one is in a state of HA or while is doing dreaming, entails only a
very small portion of our awareness, while to cross bodily into
the other worlds entails our entire being. EG,241.
THERE IS A GREAT PRESSURE IN THE
....the heavier regions...the pressure would
get so great that we would die. EG,152...
YOU CAN ONLY ENTER THE FOG WITH AWARENESS OR
THE LIFE FORCE IS EXHAUSTED BY THE PHYSICAL PRESSURE OF THAT
the rule says that one could only enter in
there with awareness. To enter without it brings death, since
without consciousness the life force is exhausted by the physical
pressure of that world... EG,244.
ANYBODY WHO HAS LIFE FORCE CAN GIVE IT TO
OTHERS BY BLOWING ON THEM
anybody who has life force can give it to
others by blowing on them. EG,244.
ORGANIC BEINGS/DIABLEROS COME FROM THE
..That other side is the world of the
diableros. TDJ,182 Allies (or call them demons. EG,158)...come
from that deserted plain. And other things even more fierce.
THE WALL IS OUTSIDE OF US AND ROTATES WHEN WE
MOVE OUR HEADS
..He said that the wall was not inside us; it
was certainly out in the world, dividing it in two, and rotating
when we moved our heads, as if it were struck to our right
A WOMAN MUST BE TRANSPORTED THROUGH THE
A woman has to be transported through the
fog..because one needs to be heavy to go through and a woman is
WOMEN CAN RELAX EASIER IN THE FOG
women have an easier time learning to relax
in no-man's land. EG,157
STOPPING THE ROTATION OF THE WALL TO ALLOW A
WARRIOR TO GO THROUGH IT
it was an accomplishment when the warrior had
the serentity and control to stop the rotation of the wall...this
enables the warrior to face the wall and give him the power to go
through it anytime he so desired. EG,105.
INTENT IS THE KEY TO STOPPING THE
I realized that intent was the key, a special
aspect of my intent because it was not my volition as I know it.
It was an intense desire that was focused on the midpoint of my
body. It was a peculiar nervousness that made me shudder and then
turn it into a force that did not really stop the wall... the
result was that for an instant I had two points of view. I was
looking at the world divided in two by the wall of fog and at the
same time I was staring directly at a bank of yellowish vapor. The
latter view gained predominance and something pulled me into the
fog and beyond it. EG,239.
PIERCING THE WALL/EASIER IN
..It is easier to pierce the wall of fog in
dreaming because then it does not move. EG,105
DESCRIPTION OF THE WALL OF FOG
Earlier with DJ, I was there twice. Both
times I had written off the experience because it had been brought
around by the ingestion of hallucinogenic plants.
I close my eyes and I see this wall. It's
like a wall of fog. EG,58... It was three or four yards to my
right (always to my right. EG,154)... and it was an inconceivable
bank of yellowish fog that... divided the world in two. It went
from the ground up to the sky, to infinity. ..the half of the
world to my left was intact and the half to my right was veiled in
fog.... (the fog was extending forward to the horizon and up to
infintiy, thus dividing the world in two. EG,155).... the axis of
the bank of fog went from east to west. Everything to the north of
that line was the world as I knew it. DJ made me turn a few
degrees to my right, and I saw that the wall of fog moved as I
turned my head. (The wall of fog would turn either to the right or
to the left as I turned my head, so there was never a way for me
to face it. EG,155).....The world was divided in two at a level my
intellect could not comprehend. The division seemed real, but the
boundry was not on a physical plane; it had to be somehow in
myself. Or was it? EG,104.
THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WALL OF FOG/NO-MAN'S LAND/LIMBO/AREA BETWEEN
THE PARALLEL LINES
the space between the world we know and the
other world. EG,153... It is the area between the parallel
lines... we can go to it in dreaming. But in order to leave this
world and reach the other, the one beyond the parallel lines, we
have to go through that area with our whole
DESCRIPTION OF NO-MAN'S LAND BEYOND THE WALL
He pushed me into the fog...and I was looking
at the desolate plain. (no-man's land) EG,155.. the sensation I
had upon entering into that wall of fog was that my body was being
twisted like the braids of a rope. EG,238.
I had seen at least two aspects of it, one
perfectly flat, and the other covered with small, sand-dune-like
there was the horrible desolate plain.
EG,238...We were surrounded by small round mounds that looked
exactly like sand dunes. They were all around us, in every
direction, as far as we could see. They seemed to be made of
something that looked like pale yellow sandstone, or rough
granules of sulpher. The sky was the same color and very low and
oppressive. There were banks of yellowish fog or some sort of
yellowish vapor that hung from certain spots in the sky.
EG,152...there were low yellow clouds around us, but no sky or
horizon; banks of pale yellow vapor impaired visibility. It was
very difficult to walk. EG,238. The further we got away from the
wall, the darker it got and the more difficult it was to move.
I could see very well over the major part of
a 180-degree range in front of my eyes. And what I saw was a
cloudy, pale-yellow horizon; it seemed gaseous. A sort of lemon
hue uniformly covered all I could see. it seemed that I was on a
plateau filled with vapors of sulpher. SR,130.
DESCRIPTION OF GOING THROUGH THE CRACK BETWEEN
THE WORLDS/FINDING A HELPER/DIABLERO
the particular thing to learn is how to get
to the crack between the worlds and how to enter the other world.
There is a crack between the two worlds, the world of the
diableros and the world of living men. There is a place where the
two worlds overlap. the crack is there. it opens and closes like a
door in the wind. TDJ,182 It is hard to see the other side of the
boundry. it is windy, like a sandstorm. The wind whirls around.
TDJ,182After this journey the man arrives at a sort of plateau. it
is possible to distinguish some of its features clearly. It is a
plane above the ground. it is possible to recognize it by the
wind, which there becomes even more violent; whipping, roaring all
around. On top of that plateau is the entrance to that other
world. And there stands a skin that seperates the two worlds;
THE PLACE OF THE YELLOW MOUNDS IS ALWAYS THE
SAME IN PERCEPTION FOR ALL PEOPLE
... she contended that those yellow mounds
are present here and now, and that that is the way, they look and
stand always to the warrior who journeys into them.
TRAVELING THROUGH THE DESERTED PLAIN IS A
MANDATORY AND A PREPARATORY STEP JOURNEY FOR A
Passing through the deserted plain was
mandatory for all travelers who journey into the unknown.
EG,157..a warrior's journey into the desolate sand dunes is a
preparatory step for the real crossing of boundaries.
OF THE SECOND ATTENTION
SENSATIONS ENTERING THE SECOND ATTENTION
BUZZING INSIDE THE EARS
I detected a noise that seemed to be a
buzzing inside my ears. The sound became louder by degrees until
it was like the vibration caused by an enormous bull-roarer.
TDJ,96. My ears began buzzing. JTI,169. Description of ears
buzzing at a mitote though not under the influence... SR,55 .it
took me twice as long to relax and stop my internal turmoil. When
that was done, the reflection of DJ's face and mine became
instantly clear... (after seeing the inorganic being in the mirror
in the water).. there was a peculiar buzzing in my ears. FFW,112,
113. My ears were buzzing; FFW,134 I experienced a peculiar
buzzing in my ears as though he had actually shouted his words,
which he had not done; however, there had been a metallic sound in
his voice that was reverberating in my ears. JTI,57.
My ears buzzed and then they tingled.
CLARITY OF HEARING
I experienced an exceptional clarity of
my eyes teared to the point that I could
hardly make out the shape of the furniture.FFW,134
OUT OF FOCUS
My vision seemed to be totally out of focus.
THE VISION CAN BE FLAT AND ALL AROUND
I noticed that my view was not unidirectional
and stereoscopic from the level of the eyes, but flat and all
around me.. TOP,251.
REACHING THE PLACE OF SILENT KNOWLEDGE YOU
PERCEIVE TWO PLACES AT ONCE CALLED HERE AND HERE, THE THIRD
the only way to talk about the perception
attained in the place of silent knowledge was to call it here and
here.. not here and there.
POS,221..being in two places at once was a
milestone sorcerers used to mark the moment the AP reached the
place of silent knowledge. Split perception, if accomplished by
ones own means, was called the free movement of the AP...this was
also called reaching out for the third point.. POS,228. but a
sorcerer perceives his actions with depth..his actions are
tridimensional..with a third point of reference...POS,225...in
order to reach the third point of reference one must perceive two
places at once...when we perceive two places at once total clarity
DESCRIPTION OF PERCEIVING HERE AND
I was seeing the desert chaparral and the
tops of the shrubs at the same time.. POS,221. there was crucial
instant in which I was neither in one place nor the other, but I
was rather in both places as an observer seeing two scenes at
DESCRIPTION OF THE EXPERIENCE OF THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT BEING ON REASON AND ON SILENT
the experience of feeling double... when the
AP had aquired sufficient fluidity for him to be double, which had
allowed him to be in both the place of reason and in the place of
silent knowledge, either alternately or at the same time.
I had.. a clear knowledge of a dualism in me.
Two obviously seperate parts were within my being. One was
extremely old, at ease and indifferent. It was heavy, dark and
connected to everything else. It was part of me that did not care,
because it was equal to anything. It enjoyed things with no
expectation. The other part was light, new, fluffy, agitated. It
was nervous, fast. It cared about itself because it was insecure
and did not enjoy anything, simply because it lacked the capacity
to connect itself to anything. It was alone, on the surface,
vulnerable. That was the part with which I looked at the world.
POS,153...this older dark side was a view of the antecedents of
reason...the older side of man and what the older side of man
knows is silent knowledge. It's a knowledge you cannot
voice..because it is necessary to have and to use an inordinate
amounts of energy. POS,154
WE CAN BE IN TWO PLACES AT ONCE, THAT WE CAN
EXPERIENCE A PERCEPTUAL DUALISM
...we can be in two places at once, that we
can experience a perceptual dualism. FFW,291 Two different
feelings at the same time in a dream example. EG,131.
DOUBLE PERCEPTION DESCRIPTION.
.....double perception description. SRP,100.
(MORE ON THESE (LUMINOUS BEING)FIBERS AND
THEIR MOVEMENTS..ALSO HERE AND HERE VISION..) TOP,217....MORE ON
THE JUMPING OF DJ AND DG..TOP,219.
...(more on these (luminous being)fibers and
their movements..also here and here vision..) TOP,217....more on
the jumping of DJ and DG..TOP,219.
COMPREHENDING/EXPLANATION IN BEING IN TWO
PLACES AT ONCE
(he was aware that he was doubled but) no
sorcerer knows where his other is. A sorcerer has no notion that
he is in two places at once. To be aware of that would be the
equivalent of facing his double, and the sorcerer that finds
himself face to face with himself is a dead sorcerer. That is the
rule. That is the way power has set things up. No one knows why.
TOP,49. A sorcerer may certainly notice afterwards that he has
been in two places at once. But this is only bookkeeping and has
no bearing on the fact that while he's acting he has no notion of
his duality. TOP,50. The world doesn't yield to us directly, the
description of the world stands in between. So..we are always one
step removed and our experience of the world is always a
recollection of the experience. We are perennially recollecting
the instant that has just happened, just passed. If our entire
experience of the world is recollection, then its not so
outlandish to conclude that a sorcerer can be in two places at
once. This is not the case from the point of view of his own
perception, because in order to experience the world, a sorcerer,
like every man, has to recollect the act he had just performed,
the event he has just witnessed,the experience he has just lived.
In his awareness there is only a single recollection. But for an
outsider looking at the sorcerer it may appear as if the sorcerer
is acting two different episodes at once. The sorcerer, however,
recollects two seperate single instants, because the glue of the
description of time is no longer binding him. TOP,50.
spots of intense violet light appeared. They
grew large. FFW,112, 113
There were also spots of jet blackness. Then
it turned into something like a flat picture of a cloudy sky at
night, in the moonlight. Suddenly, the whole surface came into
focus, as if it were a moving picture. The new sight was a
three-dimensional, breathtaking view of the depths. FFW,112, 113.
MEN'S FACES AS A PINKISH GLOW
also faces of the men seen as
brighter..pinkish glow. SR,55
Everything around me was dark. There were
streaks of chartreuse phosphorescence that illuminated dark,
moving clouds.... FFW,134
DESCRIPTION OF LIGHTS IN THE SECOND ATTENTION
a bright patch of light appeared, hovering
about two feet from me. The illusion startled me, yet at the same
time it enthralled me so that I couldn't turn my eyes away. I had
the irrational certainity that the light was alive, conscious and
aware that my attention was focused on it. Suddenly the glowing
sphere expanded to twice its size and became encircled by an
intense purple ring. TSC,134.
I HAD A SUDDEN AND STRANGE THOUGHT, VERY
SIMILAR TO THOUGHTS THAT COME TO MY MIND JUST BEFORE FALLING
ASLEEP. IT WAS MORE THAN A THOUGHT; A COMPLETE IMAGE WOULD BE A
BETTER DESCRIPTION OF IT.
I had a sudden and strange thought, very
similar to thoughts that come to my mind just before falling
asleep. It was more than a thought; a complete image would be a
better description of it. TOP,150.
CLARITY IN THE SECOND ATTENTION IS USUALLY
..everything around me was crystal clear. I
had been drowsy or absent-minded before because of my inner
THE NAGUAL IS AN ADVANTAGE ONLY THAT OUR GRASP
OF THINGS IS ACCELERATED
the left side is only an advantage only in
the sense that our grasp of things is accelerated.
SEEING THERE IS AN INTRICACY OF
...he was convinced that it was seeing and
not a hallucination because of the intricacy of detail.
AT FIRST IT IS EASY TO GET LOST IN
In the beginning seeing is confusing and it's
easy to get lost in it. As the warrior gets tighter, however, his
seeing becomes what it should be, a direct knowing.
THE NAGUAL IS A DISADVANTAGE BECAUSE IT ALLOWS
US TO FOCUS WITH INCONCEIVABLE LUCIDITY ONLY ON ONE THING AT A
TIME, THIS RENDERS US DEPENDENT AND VULNERABLE
It is a disadvantage because it allows us to
focus with inconceivable lucidity only on one thing at a time;
this renders us dependent and vulnerable. EG,299.
I began to feel a strange pressure; it was a
physical heaviness. FFW,134
FLOATING LIKE A BALLOON
I seemed to be floating like a balloon. I had
a pang of terror. FFW,134
TICKLE ON THE HEAD/AWARENESS OF STOPPING THE
Description of tickle on head..body
suspending judgement... awareness of stopping the world. SRP,82,
IN THE SECOND ATTENTION, AWARENESS OF TIME
In my experience with DJ I had noticed that
in such states one is incapable of keeping a consistent mental
record of the passage of time. There had never been an enduring
order, in matters of passage of time, in all the states of
nonordinary reality I had experienced, and my conclusion was that
if I kept myself alert a moment would come when I would lose my
order of sequential time. JTI,239.
I stayed on the hilltop in a state of ectasy
for what appeared to be an endless time, yet the whole event may
have lasted only a few minutes.JTI,252.
He also said he had been trying to bring me
back for three days and had had a very difficult time doing it. He
said the only interesting part was what I saw and did after he
tossed me into the air and I flew away. All I could remember was a
series of dreamlike images or scenes. They had no sequential
order. I had the impression that each one of them was like an
isolated bubble, floato focus and then moving away. They were not,
however, merely scenes to look at. I was inside them. I took part
in them. TDJ,166
being on the left side entailed that the
primacy of the immediate took precedence, which made it
practically impossible for me to forsee beyond that moment...
THERE ARE NO EMOTIONS ON THE LEFT
on the left side there are no tears.. and
that the only expression of anguish is a shiver that comes from
the very depths of the universe. It is as if one of the Eagle's
emanations is anguish. the warrior's shiver is infinite.
ANYTHING CAN ANNOUNCE ITS PRESENCE: A LOUD
NOISE, A SOFT VOICE, A THOUGHT THAT ISN'T YOURS, AN UNEXPECTED
SURGE OF VIGOR OR WELL-BEING.
anything can announce its presence: a loud
noise, a soft voice, a thought that isn't yours, an unexpected
surge of vigor or well-being. ta,tsc,102
OF BEING IN THE SECOND ATTENTION
I remembered what Clara had said about the
house being charged with an imperceptible energy, like an electric
current flowing through wires. I hadn't been aware of it earlier
because of all the activity. But now, in absolute silence, I
distinctly heard a mild humming sound. Then I saw the minutest
bubbles jumping all around the room at a tremendous speed. They
were frantically bumping into one another, giving off a buzzing
sound like the drone of a thousand bees. The room, the entire
house seemed to be charged with a subtle electric current that
filled my very being. TSC,33.
I had noticed that the air in the hall behind
that door was bubbling, just like it had in the darkness of my
room the first night I had slept in the house. TSC,188. On the
third shout, the air in the hall began to fizzle. Billions of tiny
bubbles sparkled and glowed as if they had all lit up at the same
instant. I heard a soft hum that reminded me of the sound of a
muffled generator. its mesmeric purr drew me inside.. my ears were
plugged and I had to swallow repeatedly to unplug them.. I had no
control over my movements all I could do was shout Clara's and
manfred's name... as I flew past them, beyond the hall, the house,
beyond the trees and the hills into a blinding glare, and finally
into an absolutely black stillness. TSC,190.
I heard the mysterious sound again (moth
call)...and it came to me..not as flat specks or flakes but as
spherical bubbles. They floated towards me. One of them burst open
and revealed a scene to me. It was as if it had stopped in front
of my eyes and opened up, disclosing a strange object. It looked
like a mushroom. TOP,36.
...feeling was all that counted....they were
the guage that assessed the state of being of the subject that I
was seeing. The mushroom like formation was the essential shape of
human beings when a sorcerer was seeing them from far away, but
when a sorcerer was directly facing the person he was seeing, the
human quality was shown as an egglike cluster of luminous fibers.
TOP,37..you were not facing your friend..therefore he appeared
like a mushroom. TOP,37...while the first one had been yellowish
and small, the second one was whitish, larger and contorted.
TOP,37. ,,he had already pointed out that what I called coloration
was not a hue but a glow of different intensities. TOP,38. (seeing
shapes of sorcerers TOP,39)
THE VOICE THAT COMES WITH SEEING
when seers see, something explains everything
as the new alignment takes place.. It's a voice that tells them in
their ear what's what. If that voice is not present, what the seer
is engaged in isn't seeing...it is equally fallacious to say that
seeing was hearing, because it was infinitely more than that, but
that seers had opted for using sound as a guage of a new
alignment... the voice of seeing is a most mysterious inexplicable
thing.. DJ personal conclusion is that the voice of seeing belongs
only to man. The old seers believed it was the voice of an
overpowering entity, intimately related to mankind, a protector of
man. The new seers found out that that entity, which they called
the mold of man, doesn't have a voice. .. the new seers say it's
the glow of awareness playing on the Eagle's emanations as a
harpist plays on a harp.. FFW,72..
VOICES HEARD IN THE SECOND
Then I heard a voice in my ear describing the
scene, and I realized that the voice was the alien thought in my
From then on I concentrated my attention on
the voice alone. It seemed to come from my shoulder. It was
perfectly clear, although it was a small voice. it was, however,
not a child's voice or a falsetto voice, but a minature man's
voice. It wasn't my voice either. I presumed it was English that I
heard. Whenever I tried deliberately to trap the voice, it
subsided altogether or became vague and the scene faded. I thought
of a simile. The voice was like the image created by dust
particles in the eyelashes, or the bloodvessels in the cornea of
the eye, a wormlike shape that can be seen as long as one is not
looking at it directly; but the moment one tries to look at it, it
shifts out of sight with the movement of the eyeball.
What I thought to be a voice was more like
something whispering thoughts into my ear. But that was not
accurate. Something was thinking for me. The thoughts were outside
myself. I knew that was so, because I could hold my own thoughts
and the thoughts of the other at the same time.
I was concentrating on my new unique ablitity
to see in the dark. The world changed from bright to dark to
bright again with every beat of my heart. TDJ,97.
I felt as if I were in a gigantic cavern. Its
velvety walls enveloped me; it was dark. My attention was caught
by a luminescent dot. It flickered on and off like a beacon
appearing and disappearing whenever I focused on it. Then the area
in front of me became illuminated by an intense light. Then
gradually everything became dark again. My breathing seemed to
cease altogether and no thoughts or images disturbed the
blackness. I no longer felt my body. My last thought was that I
had dissolved. TSC,214.
I remembered seeing a dark mass with myriads
of pinholes. In fact, the mass was a dark cluster of little holes.
I don't know why I thought it was soft. TDJ,168.
One element from the hallucinogenic
experience with the mushrooms kept recurring in my thoughts: the
soft, dark mass of pinholes. I continued to visualize it as a
grease or an oil bubble which begin to draw me its center. It was
almost as if the center would open up and swallow me, and for very
brief moments. TDJ,170,171.
Description of the dome. SRP,190,191. above
me was a white shiny, inconceivably big dome. FFW,230
TAISHA ABELAR'S EXPERIENCE IN THE TREE
I began to feel the house tilting. it was
barely perceptible at first, but it became more noticeable until
it seemed that the floor was inclined at a fourty-five degree
angle. i let out a scream as I felt the platform tilt even more...
at one point the incline was so acute that I felt as if I were
actually standing up instead of lying down.. the whole tree house
seemed to be coming apart... just when I had given up all hope of
pulling through, something inconceivable came to my rescue. A
light spilled out from within me. it poured out through all the
openings of my body. the light was a heavy luminous fluid that
fixed me to the platform by covering me like a shiny armor. It
constricted my larynx and subdued my screams; but it also opened
my chest area so i could breath easier. It soothed my nervous
stomach and stopped the shakings of my legs. the light illuminated
the entire room so i could see the door a few feet in front of me.
As I basked in its glow, I grew calm. All my fears and concerns
vanished so that nothing mattered anymore. I lay perfectly still
and tranquil until the dawn broke. TSC,204.
TAISHA ABELAR'S EXPERIENCE IN EMILITO'S
I found out it was almost impossible to walk;
my legs seemed to weigh a ton. I felt the caretaker pushing and
lifting me up. Suddenly an immense force sucked me in and I was no
longer walking but gliding in space... for just then another surge
of energy made me accelerate at top speed... I squeezed my eyes
shut but it made no difference. I saw the same vastness before me
whether my eyes were opened or closed..I was jolted by another
blast of energy and I found myself drenched in perspiration...
TSC,249. You are able to perceive as I do.. but you don't have any
control yet in the new world you are perceiving... that control
comes with a lifetime of discipline and storing power.
DESCRIPTION OF SEEING AMBER COLORS OF
As soon as DJ mentioned that he had "tossed
me into the air" I had a faint recollection of an absolutely clear
scene in which I was looking straight at him from some distance
away. I was looking at his face only. It was monumental in size.
It was flat and had an intense glow. His hair was yellowish, and
it moved. Each part of his face moved by itself, projecting a sort
of amber light. TDJ,166.
DESCRIPTION OF INCREASING
I felt that my condition was getting worse,
for the duration of such states was increasing. I believe sharply
aware of the noise of airplanes. the sound of their motors going
overhead would unavoidably catch my attention and fix it, to the
point where I felt I was following the plane as if I were inside
it, or flying with it. TDJ,175.... he (DJ) concluded that I was
suffering from a loss of soul... ordinarily.. the noise of a brook
or a river can trap a bewitched
man who has lost his soul and carry him away
to his death. TDJ,175.
There was something so exquisite in that
hidden valley that it took my breath away. I stared at it so
totally absorbed that I became drowsy; leaning against a boulder,
I let whatever was in the valley carry me away. and it did
transport me. I felt I was at a picnic ground where a party was
going full force. I heard the laughter of people.... (Clara says..
for a moment there I thought I'd lost you)..I wanted to tell her
what I dreamt because I was certain that I had dozed off for an
For awhile, I watched the swaying branches of
the tree across from me. And the motion of those branches brought
me back to my childhood. I must have been four or five years old;
I was grabbing onto a handful of willow branches. It wasn't that I
was remembering it; I was actually there. TSC,205.
I saw the whole scene myself, as if I had
been watching a movie. SRP,76.
DESCRIPTION OF SEEING THE
it was at that instant that the spirit came
to them...they saw a vision of heaven..where everything was alive,
bathed in light. they saw a world of miraculous sights..they saw
the spirit...they could not hold on to this vision and soon forgot
about it. (AP shifted back to normal awareness)
LET ME SEE MY DEATH AGAIN...NOT KNOW YOU'RE
TOO SOLID (??? REFERENCE TO SEEING DEATH ONLY IN THE SECOND
Let me see my death again...not know you're
too solid (??? reference to seeing death only in the second
attention) JTI,35. In a time of sickness with the pleurisy... I
was brought so near the gates of death that I forgot my name.. I
heard a voice say.. John Woolman is dead..(and that) meant no more
than the death of my own will. EE,M,212, 213
DESCRIPTIONS OF OTHER WORLDS
Description of another world and being eaten.
Reality of dying and visions. SRP,193.
DESCRIPTION OF THE EXPERIENCE OF
For an instant I actually saw a boulder the
size of a mountain right behind the house. it was not as if the
image had been superimposed on the scenery of the house I was
looking at. It was not the view of a real boulder either. it was
rather as if the noise was creating the image of a boulder rolling
on its monumental sides. i was actually seeing the noise.
When you see there are no longer familiar
features in the world. Everything is new. Everything has never
happened before. The world is incredible. Nothing is no longer
familiar. Everything you gaze at becomes nothing. SR,159. Things
don't disappear. They don't vanish, if that's what you mean; they
simply become nothing and yet they are still there.
I felt the feeling of seeing coming to the
top of my head, and then I knew what I've just told you... the
sensations started on the top of her head and then went down her
back and around her waist to her womb. She felt it inside her body
as a consuming ticklishness, which turned into the knowledge....
SRP,209. I suddenly "knew" where they lived; I had not had a
vision of their house. I simply felt that I knew it. SRP,209.
..they were thin, less than a foot wide, but
long, perhaps seven feet. They were looming over me like two
gigantic earthworms..I knew I was seeing ...I realized I was
seeing energy..they retained their candle like shape. TAOD,50
DESCRIPTION OF BEING SEEN
I knew that he was seeing me. I felt a
strange fatigue, a laziness I had not felt until his eyes swept
over me. FFW,96
.All of me saw; the entirety of what I in my
normal consciousness call my body was capable of sensing as if it
were an enormous eye that detected everything. FFW,234. Example of
FOLLOWING THE FOCUS OF THE SECOND ATTENTION
I was experiencing the peculiar feeling that
seems to follow the focusing of the second attention; I could not
talk, or rather I could talk but I did not want to. SRP,277.
You're not solid yet...(probably an early reference to the double
and the physical body out of sync.. or the assemblage point isn't
fixed yet.) SR,192
DESCRIPTION OF THE FEELING IN THE SECOND
ATTENTION FROM THE BODY
I felt something warm and soothing oozing out
of the world and out of my own body. I knew I had discovered a
secret. It was so simple. I experienced an unknown flood of
feelings. Never in my life had I had such a divine euphoria, such
peace, such an encompassing grasp, and yet I could not put the
discovered secret into words, or even into thoughts, but my body
knew it. JTI,252,253. Felt a strong religious love..
My stomach was upset. SRP,277.
My ears were buzzing, SRP,278
I felt dizzy. SRP,278
CONTACT WITH STRONG PEOPLE/ALLIES OUR STOMACH
GLOW BECOMES AGITATED AND WE USUALLY THROW UP
In case of contact with allies or strong
people, the glow would become agitated, change colour or even fade
altogether. In such instances the only thing one could do was to
simply throw up. SRP,133.
FORGETTING YOUR EXPERIENCE IN THE SECOND
..once I was back in my normal awareness, I
found it impossible to remember not only that I had entered into
the second attention but that such a state existed at all. TAOD,
18 ..no one can remember anything that happens while being in a
state of HA. (see sorcerers recollection) FFW,25
DO WE FORGET EXPERIENCES IN HEIGHTENED AWARENESS WHEN WE ARE IN
WE FORGET THE EXPERIENCE BECAUSE YOU STOP
USING THE EMANATIONS YOU WERE EMPHASIZING IN THE SECOND ATTENTION
AND WITHOUT THAT EMPHASIS WHATEVER YOU EXPERIENCED
One forgets experiences because the
emanations that account for greater clarity cease to be empasized
once warriors are out of HA... Without that emphasis whatever they
experience or witness vanishes. FFW,131
ARE THE MEMORIES TRAPPED?
THEY ARE NOT TRAPPED IN YOUR MIND, THEY ARE
TRAPPED IN THE OTHER AREAS OF YOUR TOTAL BEING
No, the memories are not trapped in the mind.
The actions of seers are more complex than dividing a man into
mind and body. You've forgotten what you've done, or what you've
witnessed, because when you were performing what you've forgotten
you were seeing. Everything forgotten had taken place in states in
which my everyday awareness had been enhanced, intensified, a
condition that meant that other areas of my total being were
used... whatever you've forgotten is trapped in those areas of
your total being.. to be using those areas is to see. FFW,70
MAYBE WE ARE PERCEIVING IN BOTH ATTENTIONS BUT
CHOOSE ONLY ONE ATTENTION AND THEN UNDER DURESS THOSE MEMORIES
FROM THE OTHER COME BACK AND WE CAN HAVE TWO DISTINCT MEMORIES OF
Perhaps all of us are continually perceiving
in both fashions (with the first and second attention) but choose
to isolate one for recollection and discard the other, or perhaps
we file it away.... under certain conditions of stress or
acquiescence, the censored memory surfaces and we can then have
two distinct memories of one event. SRP,240.
ITS DIFFICULT TO REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED IN THE
SECOND ATTENTION BECAUSE OF THE INFINITUDE OF POSITIONS THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT CAN ADOPT
the difficulty in remembering what takes
place in HA is due to the infinitude of positions that the AP can
adopt after being loosened from its normal setting. Facility in
remembering everything that takes place in normal awareness, on
the other hand, has to do with the fixity of the AP on one spot,
the spot where it normally sets. FFW,203.
DO YOU ACT IN THE SECOND ATTENTION?
YOU STILL ACT LIKE YOURSELF IN THE NAGUAL
MEANING YOU STILL HAVE YOUR FLAWS BUT YOUR CAPACITY FOR
PERCEIVING, UNDERSTANDING AND LEARNING IS GREATER
to be in left side awareness does not mean
that one is immediately liberated from one's folly-it only means
an extended capacity for perceiving, a greater facility to
understand and learn, and above all, a greater ability to forget.
HAPPENS TO THE PHYSICAL BODY IN THE SECOND
OUR WHOLE BODY GOES INTO THE OTHER WORLD AND
BECOMES SECOND ATTENTION
The body is the first attention, the
attention of the tonal. When it becomes the second attention, it
simply goes into the other world. SRP,284...our whole being
becomes second attention. SRP,285
The passage from one self to the other had no
IT IS OUR PERCEPTION THAT IS LED INTO THE
(rather it is the perception that was led
into the nagual). TOP,244.
WOULD SOMEONE SEE IF SOMEONE DISAPPEARED INTO THE
THE PERSON WOULD PROBABLY WITNESS NOTHING,
MAYBE SEE A BREEZE, A STRANGE LIGHT BECAUSE THEIR EXPLANATION IS
LIMITED TO THE TONAL'S WORLD
What about someone who doesn't see?...he
would witness nothing, just the trees being blown by a wild wind
perhaps. We interpret any unknown expression of the nagual as
something we know; in this case the nagual might be interpreted as
a breeze shaking the leaves, or even as some strange light,
perhaps a lightening bug of unusual size. If a man who doesn't see
is pressed, he would say that he thought he saw something but
could not remember what. This is only natural. TOP,187. The man
would be talking sense. After all, his eyes would have judged
nothing extraordinary; being the eyes of the tonal they would have
to be limited to the tonals world and in that world there is
nothing staggeringly new, nothing which the eyes cannot apprehend
and the tonal cannot explain. TOP,188.
DISAPPEARING IN THE NAGUAL/THE NAGUAL TAKES
CARE OF IT
(CC asks DJ if people can see me disappear
into thin air.)..That is taken care of by the nagual. I don't know
how. TOP,156..(CC asks if they are in danger of being seen by
people)....No the nagual will keep everything suspended.
AN AVERAGE MAN WOULD LOOK AT SOMEONE
EXPERIENCING THE NAGUAL AS SOMEONE WHO IS BECOMING
In your case, I would say that an average man
would think that you are disassociated, or you're beginning to
YOU WOULD LOOK LIKE YOU CAME FROM NOWHERE LIKE
PIECES OF FOG CAUGHT IN A WEB
you came from nowhere..all of you were like
fog..you were like pieces of fog caught in a web. when we poured
water on you, you became solid again. SRP,280.
TO INTERACT IN LEFT SIDE AWARENESS EVERYONE
MUST BE IN THAT STATE
interaction in the left-side awareness cannot
take place unless all the participants share that state.