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DEATH
WHAT IS
DEATH?
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- DEATH CAN ONLY BE TALKED ABOUT IN PERSONAL
TERMS
- death is nothing. Nothing! It is here yet it
isn't here at all...I cannot tell you what death is like. But
perhaps I could tell you about your own death. I can't talk about
death except in personal terms...I told you my son's life expanded
at the time of his personal death.. death whatever it is, made his
life expand. SR,195.
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- DEATH IS WHATEVER ONE WISHES IT TO BE/DEPENDS
ON PERSONAL POWER
- Death is not like a person. It is rather a
presence. But one may also choose to say it is nothing and yet it
is everything. One will be right on every count. Death is whatever
one wishes. it is the same for every warrior and yet it is not.
Death witnesses a warrior's last dance, but the manner in which a
warrior sees his death is a personal matter. it could be anything-
a bird, a light, a person, a bush, a pebble, a piece of fog, or an
unknown presence. JTI,156, 157 ..(CC asks if your culture
determines how you see your death.) it doesn't matter how one was
brought up. What determines the way one does anything is personal
power. A man is only the sum of his personal power and that sum
determines how he lives and how he dies. JTI,157
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- WHERE
DO WE FIND DEATH?
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- DEATH IS ALWAYS TO ONE'S LEFT
- ..death is the hunter and that it is always to
one's left.JTI,35.
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- DEATH IS A BLACK SPOT RIGHT BEHIND THE LEFT
SHOULDER
- ..that our death was a black spot right behind
the left shoulder. POS, 34...I turned and I thought I saw a
flickering movement over the boulder. A chill ran through my body,
the muscles of my abdomen contracted involuntarily and I
experienced a jolt, a spasm.. JTI,33 death is our eternal
companion,,it is always to our left, at an arm's length....
JTI,33
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- DEATH'S PRESCENCE IS MARKED AS A
CHILL
- and you felt its chill. It has always been
watching you. it always will until the day it taps you. JTI,33.
Your death gave you a little warning..it always comes as a
chill.
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- DYING
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- HOW
DO YOU KNOW WHEN SOMEONE IS CLOSE TO DYING?
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- WHEN A DARK SPOT BECAME A MOVING SHADOW THE
EXACT SAME SIZE AND SHAPE OF THE PERSON IT BELONGED TO
- ..sorcerers knew when a person was close to
dying because they could see the dark spot, which became a moving
shadow the exact size and shape of the person to whom it belonged.
POS,34
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- YOU DON'T FEEL PAIN IN A FIGHT FOR YOUR
LIFE
- death is only painful only when it happens in
one's bed, in sickness. In a fight for your life, you feel no
pain. If you feel anything, it's exultation. POS,212.
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- WHY DO WE
DIE?
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- WE DIE WHEN WE CANNOT COMMAND OUR WILL ANY
LONGER
- It is his will which assembles a sorcerer..
but as his old age makes him feeble his will wanes and a moment
unavoidably comes when he is no longer capable of commanding his
will. He then has nothing with which to oppose the silent force of
his death, and his life becomes like the lives of all his fellow
men, an expanding fog moving beyond its limits.
SR,198.
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- HOW
DOES OUR COCOON BECOME WEAK?
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- IF THERE IS AN INVOLUNTARY SHIFT OF THE
ASSEMBLAGE POINT THE ROLLING FORCE CRACKS THE COCOON AND THE
TUMBLER HITS THE CRACK CEASELESSLY
- When the AP shifts involuntarily, the RF
cracks the cocoon. FFW,245. The tumbler hits us in the gap in the
cocoon ceaselessly and this is where the cocoon cracks. FFW,245.
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- IF THE SHIFT IS SMALL THEN THE COCOON REPAIRS
ITSELF AND PEOPLE EXPERIENCE BLOTHCHES OF COLOR AND CONTORTED
SHAPES
- If it is a minor shift of the AP, the crack is
very small, the cocoon quickly repairs itself and people
experience.. blotches of color and contorted shapes, which remain
even if the eyes are closed. FFW,245
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- IF THE SHIFT IS BIG (WHEN USING POWER PLANTS
OR DRUGS) THEN IT TAKES TIME FOR THE COCOON TO REPAIR ITSELF THESE
PEOPLE EXPERIENCE NUMBNESS AND COLD AND HAVE DIFFICULTY TALKING OR
THINKING
- If the shift is considerable, the crack also
is extensive and it takes time for the cocoon to repair itself, as
in the case of warriors who purposely use power plants to elicit
that shift or people who take drugs and unwittingly do the same.
In these cases men feel numb and cold; they have difficulty
talking or thinking; it is as if they have been frozen from
inside. FFW,245.
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- IF THE SHIFT IS DRASTIC BECAUSE OF TRAUMA OR
DISEASE, THE ROLLING FORCE PRODUCES A CRACK THE LENGTH OF THE
COCOON AND THE COCOON COLLAPSES AND THE PERSON DIES
- In cases in which the AP shifts drastically
because of the effects of trauma or of a mortal disease, the RF
produces a crack the length of the cocoon; the cocoon collapses
and curls in on itself, and the individual dies. FFW,245. As the
tumbler hits us over and over, death comes to us through the gap.
FFW,245.When it finds weakness in the gap of a luminous being it
automatically cracks it open and makes it collapse. FFW,245.
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- HOW
DOES THE ROLLING FORCE KILL US?
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- WHEN WE BECOME WEAK, THE TUMBLER FORCE TUMBLES
THE CREATURE INTO THE BEAK OF THE EAGLE TO BE DEVOURED
- ....Luminous organic beings meet the rolling
force head on, until the day when the force proves to much for
them and the creatures finally collapse. ..the tumbler then
tumbles the creature into the beak of the Eagle to be devoured...
FFW,243.
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- WHAT
HAPPENS TO US WHEN WE DIE?
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- DEATH HAS TWO STAGES: THE FIRST IS A
MEANINGLESS BLACKOUT STAGE, THE SECOND STAGE IS WHEN DEATH
DISSOLVES US INTO NOTHING
- Death has two stages. The first is a blackout.
it is a meaningless stage, very similar to the first effect of
mescalito, in which one experiences a lightness that makes one
feel happy, complete, and that everything in the world is at ease.
But that is only a shallow state; it soon vanishes and one enters
a new realm, a realm of harshness and power. That second stage is
the real encounter with Mescalito. Death is very much like this.
..it is the real stage where one meets with death; it is a brief
moment, after the first blackout, when we find that we are somehow
ourselves again. It is then that death smashes against us with
quiet fury and power until it dissolves our lives into nothing....
SR,196.
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- DESCRIPTION OF DEATH COMING AND SMASHING YOU
TO EXPAND AND THE DISSOLVE YOU
- If you'd look closer, you'd realize that it is
a cloud that looks like a shiny whorl. it would resemble, let's
say, a face, right in the middle of the sky on front of you. As
you watched it, you would see it moving backward until it was only
a brilliant point in the distance, and then you would notice that
it began moving toward you again; it would pick up speed and in a
blink of an eye it would smash against the windshield of your car.
You are strong. I'm sure it would take death a couple of whams to
get to you.... the face would enter inside you and then you'd
know-it was the ally's face all the time, or it was me talking, or
you writing. Death was nothing all the time. Nothing. it was a
little dot lost in the sheets of your notebook. And yet it would
enter inside you with uncontrollable force and would make you
expand; it would make you flat and extend you over the sky and the
earth and beyond. And you would like a fog of tiny crystals
moving, moving away. SR,197
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- DEATH BEGINS TO ENTER US THROUGH OUR LUMINOUS
GAP
- Death enters through the belly..right through
the gap of the will. That area is the most important and sensitive
part of man. It is the area of the will and also the area through
which all of us die. SR,197,198
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- OUR LUMINOUS LAYERS BECOME SEPERATED
PERMANENTLY BECAUSE OF JOLTS
- We die because our layers become seperated..
jolts are always seperating them but they get together again.
Sometimes, though, the jolt is so great that the layers get loose
and can't get back together anymore. SRP,253. When human beings
are healthy they are like luminous eggs, but if they are injured
they begin to peel, like an onion. SRP,254. We can see death
whirling around the man, setting its hooks deeper and deeper into
his luminous fibers. We can see the luminous strings losing their
tautness and vanishing one by one. TOP,113.
- Jolts of any kind seperate those layers and
can even cause human beings to die. SRP,253
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- THE CENTER OF OUR LUMINOSITY (THE ATTENTION OF
THE NAGUAL) IS ALWAYS PUSHING OUT AND THAT'S WHAT LOOSENS THE
LAYERS
- Death pushes the layers aparts.... the center
of our luminosity, which is the attention of the nagual, is always
pushing out, and that's what loosens the layers. So it's easy for
death to come in between them and push them completely apart.
Sorcerer have to do their best to keep their own layers closed.
SRP,254
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- WE DON'T REALIZE THAT WE HAVE THE SECOND
ATTENTION UNTIL OUR DEATH.
- Our second ring of power, the attention of the
nagual remains hidden for the immense majority of us, and only at
the moment of our death is it revealed to us. SRP,242
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- WE EXPERIENCE A JOLT WHEN WE REALIZE OUR
TOTALITY AT DEATH
- At those moments the tonal becomes aware of
the totality of oneself. TOP,133 when we die, we die with the
totality of ourselves..if we're going to die with the totality of
ourselves, why not, then, live with that totality?. TOP,133. ...It
is always a jolt because that awareness disrupts the lull. I call
that awareness the totality of the being that is going to die. The
idea is that at the moment of death the other member of the true
pair, the nagual, becomes fully operative and awareness and
memories and perceptions stored in our calves and thighs, in our
back and shoulders and neck, begin to expand and disintegrate.
Like the beads of an endless broken neckllace, they fall asunder
without the binding force of life. TOP,131. if we die without
erasing our false dualism of body and mind, we die an ordinary
death. TSC,43
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- OUR ENERGY FROM ALL THE UNUSED EMANATIONS ARE
RELEASED (FIRE FROM WITHIN)
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- at the moment of death is that all that energy
is released at once.. living beings at that moment become flooded
by the most inconceivable force. It is not the rolling force that
has cracked their gaps, because that force never enters inside the
cocoon; it only makes it collapse. What floods them is the force
of all the emanations that are suddenly aligned after being
dormant for a lifetime. There is no outlet for such a giant force
except to escape through the gap. FFW,273.
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- THE DOUBLE BECOMES FREE
- and the light part, the double, becomes free
TSC,43
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- THE DOUBLE IS FREE ONLY FOR AN INSTANT BECAUSE
IT WAS NEVER PERFECTED/WE DIE AN ORDINARY DEATH
- But unfortunately, since the double was never
perfected, it experiences freedom for only an instant, before it
is scattered into the universe. If we die without erasing our
false dualism of body and mind, we die an ordinary death. TSC,43
(And here is the mystery of our being in a nutshell.. if you drive
this concept through all religions, mystical experiences and sages
throughout time..there are no contradictions... every experience
and every religion strives to have contact with the double and
because everyone's rational side interprets the double differently
the experiences are different. 7/18/94)
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- WE EXPAND AT DEATH LIKE A FOG OF
CRYSTALS
- I shifted my eyes so I would see his personal
life disintegrating, expanding uncontrollably beyond its limits,
like a fog of crystals, because that is the way of life and death
mix and expand. SR,90. at the moment of dying, all of our being
disintegrates under the attraction of that immense force.
FFW,59
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- WE ENTER THE THIRD ATTENTION FOR AN INSTANT
BUT ONLY TO PURIFY OUR AWARENESS FOR THE EAGLE TO DEVOUR
US.
- There is nothing gorgeous or peaceful about
death.. because the real terror begins upon dying. With that
incalculable force you felt in there, the Eagle will squeeze out
of you every flicker of awareness you have ever had. EG,243 ...
upon dying our awareness also enters into the third attention; but
only for an instant, as a purging action, just before the Eagle
devours it. EG,247. TOP,131. at the moment of dying all human
beings enter into the unknowable and some of them do attain the
third attention, but altogether too briefly and only to purify the
food for the Eagle. FFW,85 The seers saw that the awareness of
sentient beings flies away at the moment of death and floats like
a luminous cotton puff right into the Eagle's beak to be
consumed... FFW,55..
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- OUR PHYSICAL BODY IS RETURNED AND ABSORBED BY
THE EARTH
- At death, the heavier part, the body returns
to earth to be absorbed by it, TSC,43
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