H.) DEATH

WHAT IS DEATH?

 
DEATH CAN ONLY BE TALKED ABOUT IN PERSONAL TERMS
death is nothing. Nothing! It is here yet it isn't here at all...I cannot tell you what death is like. But perhaps I could tell you about your own death. I can't talk about death except in personal terms...I told you my son's life expanded at the time of his personal death.. death whatever it is, made his life expand. SR,195.
 
DEATH IS WHATEVER ONE WISHES IT TO BE/DEPENDS ON PERSONAL POWER
Death is not like a person. It is rather a presence. But one may also choose to say it is nothing and yet it is everything. One will be right on every count. Death is whatever one wishes. it is the same for every warrior and yet it is not. Death witnesses a warrior's last dance, but the manner in which a warrior sees his death is a personal matter. it could be anything- a bird, a light, a person, a bush, a pebble, a piece of fog, or an unknown presence. JTI,156, 157 ..(CC asks if your culture determines how you see your death.) it doesn't matter how one was brought up. What determines the way one does anything is personal power. A man is only the sum of his personal power and that sum determines how he lives and how he dies. JTI,157
 
WHERE DO WE FIND DEATH?
 
DEATH IS ALWAYS TO ONE'S LEFT
..death is the hunter and that it is always to one's left.JTI,35.
 
DEATH IS A BLACK SPOT RIGHT BEHIND THE LEFT SHOULDER
..that our death was a black spot right behind the left shoulder. POS, 34...I turned and I thought I saw a flickering movement over the boulder. A chill ran through my body, the muscles of my abdomen contracted involuntarily and I experienced a jolt, a spasm.. JTI,33 death is our eternal companion,,it is always to our left, at an arm's length.... JTI,33
 
DEATH'S PRESCENCE IS MARKED AS A CHILL
and you felt its chill. It has always been watching you. it always will until the day it taps you. JTI,33. Your death gave you a little warning..it always comes as a chill.
 
DYING
 
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN SOMEONE IS CLOSE TO DYING?
 
WHEN A DARK SPOT BECAME A MOVING SHADOW THE EXACT SAME SIZE AND SHAPE OF THE PERSON IT BELONGED TO
..sorcerers knew when a person was close to dying because they could see the dark spot, which became a moving shadow the exact size and shape of the person to whom it belonged. POS,34
 
YOU DON'T FEEL PAIN IN A FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE
death is only painful only when it happens in one's bed, in sickness. In a fight for your life, you feel no pain. If you feel anything, it's exultation. POS,212.
 
WHY DO WE DIE?
 
WE DIE WHEN WE CANNOT COMMAND OUR WILL ANY LONGER
It is his will which assembles a sorcerer.. but as his old age makes him feeble his will wanes and a moment unavoidably comes when he is no longer capable of commanding his will. He then has nothing with which to oppose the silent force of his death, and his life becomes like the lives of all his fellow men, an expanding fog moving beyond its limits. SR,198.
 
HOW DOES OUR COCOON BECOME WEAK?
 
IF THERE IS AN INVOLUNTARY SHIFT OF THE ASSEMBLAGE POINT THE ROLLING FORCE CRACKS THE COCOON AND THE TUMBLER HITS THE CRACK CEASELESSLY
When the AP shifts involuntarily, the RF cracks the cocoon. FFW,245. The tumbler hits us in the gap in the cocoon ceaselessly and this is where the cocoon cracks. FFW,245.
 
IF THE SHIFT IS SMALL THEN THE COCOON REPAIRS ITSELF AND PEOPLE EXPERIENCE BLOTHCHES OF COLOR AND CONTORTED SHAPES
If it is a minor shift of the AP, the crack is very small, the cocoon quickly repairs itself and people experience.. blotches of color and contorted shapes, which remain even if the eyes are closed. FFW,245
 
IF THE SHIFT IS BIG (WHEN USING POWER PLANTS OR DRUGS) THEN IT TAKES TIME FOR THE COCOON TO REPAIR ITSELF THESE PEOPLE EXPERIENCE NUMBNESS AND COLD AND HAVE DIFFICULTY TALKING OR THINKING
If the shift is considerable, the crack also is extensive and it takes time for the cocoon to repair itself, as in the case of warriors who purposely use power plants to elicit that shift or people who take drugs and unwittingly do the same. In these cases men feel numb and cold; they have difficulty talking or thinking; it is as if they have been frozen from inside. FFW,245.
 
IF THE SHIFT IS DRASTIC BECAUSE OF TRAUMA OR DISEASE, THE ROLLING FORCE PRODUCES A CRACK THE LENGTH OF THE COCOON AND THE COCOON COLLAPSES AND THE PERSON DIES
In cases in which the AP shifts drastically because of the effects of trauma or of a mortal disease, the RF produces a crack the length of the cocoon; the cocoon collapses and curls in on itself, and the individual dies. FFW,245. As the tumbler hits us over and over, death comes to us through the gap. FFW,245.When it finds weakness in the gap of a luminous being it automatically cracks it open and makes it collapse. FFW,245.
 
HOW DOES THE ROLLING FORCE KILL US?
 
WHEN WE BECOME WEAK, THE TUMBLER FORCE TUMBLES THE CREATURE INTO THE BEAK OF THE EAGLE TO BE DEVOURED
....Luminous organic beings meet the rolling force head on, until the day when the force proves to much for them and the creatures finally collapse. ..the tumbler then tumbles the creature into the beak of the Eagle to be devoured... FFW,243.
 
WHAT HAPPENS TO US WHEN WE DIE?
 
DEATH HAS TWO STAGES: THE FIRST IS A MEANINGLESS BLACKOUT STAGE, THE SECOND STAGE IS WHEN DEATH DISSOLVES US INTO NOTHING
Death has two stages. The first is a blackout. it is a meaningless stage, very similar to the first effect of mescalito, in which one experiences a lightness that makes one feel happy, complete, and that everything in the world is at ease. But that is only a shallow state; it soon vanishes and one enters a new realm, a realm of harshness and power. That second stage is the real encounter with Mescalito. Death is very much like this. ..it is the real stage where one meets with death; it is a brief moment, after the first blackout, when we find that we are somehow ourselves again. It is then that death smashes against us with quiet fury and power until it dissolves our lives into nothing.... SR,196.
 
DESCRIPTION OF DEATH COMING AND SMASHING YOU TO EXPAND AND THE DISSOLVE YOU
If you'd look closer, you'd realize that it is a cloud that looks like a shiny whorl. it would resemble, let's say, a face, right in the middle of the sky on front of you. As you watched it, you would see it moving backward until it was only a brilliant point in the distance, and then you would notice that it began moving toward you again; it would pick up speed and in a blink of an eye it would smash against the windshield of your car. You are strong. I'm sure it would take death a couple of whams to get to you.... the face would enter inside you and then you'd know-it was the ally's face all the time, or it was me talking, or you writing. Death was nothing all the time. Nothing. it was a little dot lost in the sheets of your notebook. And yet it would enter inside you with uncontrollable force and would make you expand; it would make you flat and extend you over the sky and the earth and beyond. And you would like a fog of tiny crystals moving, moving away. SR,197
 
DEATH BEGINS TO ENTER US THROUGH OUR LUMINOUS GAP
Death enters through the belly..right through the gap of the will. That area is the most important and sensitive part of man. It is the area of the will and also the area through which all of us die. SR,197,198
 
OUR LUMINOUS LAYERS BECOME SEPERATED PERMANENTLY BECAUSE OF JOLTS
We die because our layers become seperated.. jolts are always seperating them but they get together again. Sometimes, though, the jolt is so great that the layers get loose and can't get back together anymore. SRP,253. When human beings are healthy they are like luminous eggs, but if they are injured they begin to peel, like an onion. SRP,254. We can see death whirling around the man, setting its hooks deeper and deeper into his luminous fibers. We can see the luminous strings losing their tautness and vanishing one by one. TOP,113.
Jolts of any kind seperate those layers and can even cause human beings to die. SRP,253
 
THE CENTER OF OUR LUMINOSITY (THE ATTENTION OF THE NAGUAL) IS ALWAYS PUSHING OUT AND THAT'S WHAT LOOSENS THE LAYERS
Death pushes the layers aparts.... the center of our luminosity, which is the attention of the nagual, is always pushing out, and that's what loosens the layers. So it's easy for death to come in between them and push them completely apart. Sorcerer have to do their best to keep their own layers closed. SRP,254
 
WE DON'T REALIZE THAT WE HAVE THE SECOND ATTENTION UNTIL OUR DEATH.
Our second ring of power, the attention of the nagual remains hidden for the immense majority of us, and only at the moment of our death is it revealed to us. SRP,242
 
WE EXPERIENCE A JOLT WHEN WE REALIZE OUR TOTALITY AT DEATH
At those moments the tonal becomes aware of the totality of oneself. TOP,133 when we die, we die with the totality of ourselves..if we're going to die with the totality of ourselves, why not, then, live with that totality?. TOP,133. ...It is always a jolt because that awareness disrupts the lull. I call that awareness the totality of the being that is going to die. The idea is that at the moment of death the other member of the true pair, the nagual, becomes fully operative and awareness and memories and perceptions stored in our calves and thighs, in our back and shoulders and neck, begin to expand and disintegrate. Like the beads of an endless broken neckllace, they fall asunder without the binding force of life. TOP,131. if we die without erasing our false dualism of body and mind, we die an ordinary death. TSC,43
 
OUR ENERGY FROM ALL THE UNUSED EMANATIONS ARE RELEASED (FIRE FROM WITHIN)
 
at the moment of death is that all that energy is released at once.. living beings at that moment become flooded by the most inconceivable force. It is not the rolling force that has cracked their gaps, because that force never enters inside the cocoon; it only makes it collapse. What floods them is the force of all the emanations that are suddenly aligned after being dormant for a lifetime. There is no outlet for such a giant force except to escape through the gap. FFW,273.
 
THE DOUBLE BECOMES FREE
and the light part, the double, becomes free TSC,43
 
THE DOUBLE IS FREE ONLY FOR AN INSTANT BECAUSE IT WAS NEVER PERFECTED/WE DIE AN ORDINARY DEATH
But unfortunately, since the double was never perfected, it experiences freedom for only an instant, before it is scattered into the universe. If we die without erasing our false dualism of body and mind, we die an ordinary death. TSC,43 (And here is the mystery of our being in a nutshell.. if you drive this concept through all religions, mystical experiences and sages throughout time..there are no contradictions... every experience and every religion strives to have contact with the double and because everyone's rational side interprets the double differently the experiences are different. 7/18/94)
 
WE EXPAND AT DEATH LIKE A FOG OF CRYSTALS
I shifted my eyes so I would see his personal life disintegrating, expanding uncontrollably beyond its limits, like a fog of crystals, because that is the way of life and death mix and expand. SR,90. at the moment of dying, all of our being disintegrates under the attraction of that immense force. FFW,59
 
WE ENTER THE THIRD ATTENTION FOR AN INSTANT BUT ONLY TO PURIFY OUR AWARENESS FOR THE EAGLE TO DEVOUR US.
There is nothing gorgeous or peaceful about death.. because the real terror begins upon dying. With that incalculable force you felt in there, the Eagle will squeeze out of you every flicker of awareness you have ever had. EG,243 ... upon dying our awareness also enters into the third attention; but only for an instant, as a purging action, just before the Eagle devours it. EG,247. TOP,131. at the moment of dying all human beings enter into the unknowable and some of them do attain the third attention, but altogether too briefly and only to purify the food for the Eagle. FFW,85 The seers saw that the awareness of sentient beings flies away at the moment of death and floats like a luminous cotton puff right into the Eagle's beak to be consumed... FFW,55..
 
OUR PHYSICAL BODY IS RETURNED AND ABSORBED BY THE EARTH
At death, the heavier part, the body returns to earth to be absorbed by it, TSC,43