So another day has passed. Another hour has perused through the string of moments that dictate my life.

Is life just [us] reliving it?

Is life just the act of catching up with yourself at death?

What if life were just a string of memories tied together and your goal in death[life] was to make the best out of it. Since you already know that it's happened. It is you who must make the choice this time to dictate your life.

Either you let it wisk you away into an unending recursion of time or you sit, mold, and guide your being to your wanted destination.

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Oh but what about the times when you sit there doing nothing or sleeping your life away. Then you wouldn't be leading your life would you? Unless you had distinct control of your bodily functions. I personally do not control every thing my body does. Breathing, my heart beats, the signals that zing through my flesh. I control none of those. I may be able to stop them for a short time... but that in no way signifies "control" of the highest degree merely an interruption of normal chemical-reactions.

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Life itself is a great experience. We may have self diluted fantasies of how life will play out day to day. But the truth about life and it's ways is that it is not a formula. Life cannot be categorized. Everytime we learn something new we end up learning new questions. Questions that we know of and answers to the questions we know of, but what about the questions we don't know of and the answers to those questions? What about all the knowledge that isn't actually "known" but, instead, is merely a rounded off figure of a calculation? Will there never be absolute knowledge.

Of course.

There will never be a time when everything that can be known will be known.
There will never be a time when all that is unknown becomes known.
There will never be a time when all that could be known will be known.
There will never be an answer to the unasked question.
For it is the unknown answer to the unquestioned question that questions the answers to whom's questions were answered before them by answers before them... off into infinit[e].

Of course one day I will be wrong and that day, the day I am made wrong, I will again be made right. Because it is the act of answering that brings about questions. Like how hot is the sun? X degrees. What is a degree? A degree is a y. What is a y? A y is a reaction between z and a. Where did we get z? Where did we get a? We got a from b. We got z from doing c with d. So where does b come from and how did we find d, and what about c? . . .

It is my belief that [in computer science] the diagonal formula is itself an end. For example if a person every says he has found the longest string of integers which for the sake of argument is "123...456" then by diagonal formula it's possible to graph a number larger than the number found. However, if a number is defined by the theory of mathematical induction. Then is it really possible to find a number that is larger than a number that goes on till infinity? I don't think so.

Wow! Would you look at how long it's been? A month or so how sad for me to have been so dormant. Anyhow I've changed a few things and updated a few things. I'm booting WIN2KPRO and LINUX RH 7.1 so hmm... yeah. Peace out side! Oh I added and moved my news to the history section. Check it out. hehe.

Merry Christmas...

After a jaunt in the hospital, I am back. Slowly as I peice my life together, will everything fall into place.

Times have changed... Yet life is still the same, an endless cycle. Round and round and round we go...

Well that's all for now... I've been reading(egads!) on some new techniques for my programs... so who knows maybe I'll actually finish a game this year?

Well, how are things today... up-up, down-down, left-right, left-right, B, A, select start. Contra codes hehe... Thing's for me are going pretty well. Soon it will be time for PA'E and scheduling our classes.. and sitting in... and regretting not taken the prerequisite the semester before... and lot's of other uncertainties. Hopefully I will have my PA'E Schedule graphing Applet up soon ... to help ease your feeble little minds... till then adieu.( I will post the link once completed. hopefully later on in the morning).

Check out this little thing I borrowed from dictionary.com... now it'll be even easier to search for words. Hmm... I hope this isn't a legality if it is I will gladly remove it from my page... Search Dictionary.com . . .

For all of those who haven't seen just what the Florida voting ballot looked like... here's a link. <<IDIOTS>>
Man, am I lost... lost of purpose and reason. Wanting to do too many things at once... forcing myself to split my thoughts on as many ideas as possible, and ending up doing absolutely nothing. Woe is me, and my confused self. So unproductive am I. Why I do not know, F.U.C.K.!

Well, I put the box up... but I don't want to open the flood gates. I'll be finding the best configuration. I need to set up ipmasqing and ipfiltering... until then I'll suffer with this slow crappy ass server.

I'm watching the news channel to see who will be our next president. I'd rather have a Democrat in office rather than a Republican. Basically I feel this way because I do not want to go to war over stupid oil and gas.

I updated my links and their true frequencies of visits have been reinstated... I have also reorganized them so they're easier for me to add and delete links(not like a end user should care). Hopefully this change will be a positive force to drive me into placing more links... if you want to be linked here... well... email me... I don't link to junk. That's it!

I've added a new section in my drawings section called : desktop pictures, these are all my new designs for my desktop. I may end up putting my icons and color schemes into a Windows Plus Theme pack, but who knows? I'm back and in half-force, I won't lie, school, personal life, and my new drawing pad are clouding my vision. This site may have a major update, so bear with me...