Hello! I have read much of your website with great interest. For a while I have been interested in the concept of wanderers or people who lived on other planets or dimensions in previous lives. Here's a little about myself:

As a child I was surrounded by entities of some kind who came to my bedroom every night. They called my name. I did not understand where the voices were coming from so I assumed that my furniture was talking. I feel they were trying to tell me something but I never quite figured out what it was. I also had a recurring nightmare in which I was dragged from my bedroom by short, white creatures.

As I grew older I was a loner who was fascinated by spirituality and the possibility of life on other planets. Around age 13 or so, I suddenly "knew" that reincarnation was real after devouring several books on esoteric subjects. Animal flesh also repulsed me and at the age of 14 I became a vegetarian. I felt (and still feel) it is wrong to murder animals for food. I never ate another piece of meat again, never even wavered and today I'm 28. I never stopped eating dairy foods, however, and always felt terrible pangs of guilt at my weakness (I love cheese!). However, about 20 days ago I finally gave up dairy and feel that I have accomplished something really good for myself and for the betterment of the animals that are forced through inhumane measures to give us these products. I also feel a lot healthier and purer, both physically and spiritually. I only wish I had done it sooner.

About my sleep and nighttime activities: I often talk in my sleep and have caught myself sleepwalking. My dreams are very vivid and on a couple of occasions I have had lucid dreams. One I remember in which I was floating in the air doing somersaults and how free I felt. I also jumped off a cliff in the dream for fun and loved the feeling of being able to fly away before hitting the ground. When I woke up I was a little sad that this wasn't the normal state of things but something tells me it IS the normal state and I miss it! I look at birds all the time and think how great it would be to have that freedom - and the funny thing is that I can actually imagine what it's like - as if I've done it before.

Here is something interesting and strange that happened and that perhaps is very telling: one morning I woke up and my roommate told me in a very worried manner that I had sat bolt upright in bed in the middle of the night and shouted, "I've got to get off of this planet!"

That was 8 years ago and it still makes me laugh and wonder in amazement when I think about it. Part of me thinks, "Yeah, that would be cool to get off this planet!" because there is so much suffering and heartache here. But at the same time I really love earth and am fascinated by it. I tend to look at things as an observer. Every thing about this weird place fascinates me, especially people. I guess it might be telling that I think of earth as "this weird place!"

When I go to movies I find myself watching the audience watch the movie. For instance, I will watch an emotional scene on the screen while at the same time glancing around the theater to see how the audience is reacting. Because of this, I always feel a little distant from other people because I am always trying to "analyze" them. But I am just trying to get inside their heads and understand them. I have a natural interest in psychology as well.

I have always had a weird feeling of being torn. Much like the feeling of "wanting to get off this planet" versus the keen interest in being here, I often feel torn on other issues as well. While deep down I know that there is life after death, there is always the nagging sceptic in my head that tells me I'm just "thinking wishfully." Because I'm very logical I am always looking for proof. But then my inner self gets mad and says, "Just have faith and don't be afraid!"

I guess it's almost a feeling of being trapped in my body. The human brain says no but the soul says yes! Sometimes I feel paralyzed, not knowing what path to take in life. I know I am a writer but I am often plagued by doubts about what I should be writing about. I know from experience that people tend to listen to what I have to say and often follow my example so I know if I had a large audience I could have a positive influence. But the other part of me says, "I don't want to come across as a lunatic by writing about this stuff - just look what people say about Shirley McLaine!"

On a daily basis I am frustrated by people and their attitudes. People just seem generally ignorant of anything beyond their own noses. My experiences in talking to people about any "supernatural" things is almost always met with derision. I become almost despondent when this happens and feel like I just can't deal with people. One of my pet concerns is civil rights and I become so angry over the way people are treated by governments, parents, and other authority figures that sometimes I even cry. And unfortunately I sometimes lose my temper. I know on your website it says wanderers rarely get angry but I do. I am never aggressive toward people but if I feel I am being treated unfairly or being held back from something I want to do I can really get mad! I guess this means I have a lot of spiritual growth yet left to do...

Sometimes I look around and feel like an alien for real, and think that humans are very strange-looking. Then I realize I must be becoming psychotic since I am human - so how can my own species seem alien?

This e-mail is far too long but I would love to hear what you have to say about it. I don't know if I'm a wanderer but I can definitely understand you and others who are. This planet can be quite inhospitable to anyone who is different in any way. It's great that people are finding like-minded souls. There's no reason for people to live with a feeling of isolation when there are others like them.

Gina