I don't know exactly what I am, but I have known for several years that I am something other than a normal human. I have a few close friends who are also "kin" as we call ourselves. None of us are certain of what we are.

All of my life I've had an overwhelming feeling that there is something I'm supposed to be doing, but I can't remember what it is. I feel that there is a huge amount of information and a number of skills and abilities I once had and have forgotten. I find it very difficult to apply myself to the learning of spiritual practices because I feel like I know it already, I just need to somehow unlock my memory. I sometimes get "flashes" of knowing. These came to me often throughout my childhood and teenage years, but have become less frequent in adulthood.

Here is a brief summary of what I do know about myself:

• When I was a child I had a guide, who I lost contact with some time ago.
• When I meet others who are like me who do not know that they are "kin", I instantly recognize them as such. With those who already know they are not human, I usually do not recognize them until I've known them awhile.
• This "phenomenon" seems to run in my family. Also, it appears to alternate gender in each generation: my great-grandfather, his daughter (my grandmother), her son (my father), and both of his daughters (but neither of his sons). I have never had the courage to discuss this with any of them, so I don't know what they know, if anything.
• I have always known that I and others like me will have some role in a drastic change in the way people live on this planet.
• I know my true name. This came to me several years ago as I was writing a piece of fantasy fiction and "invented" a name for a character. The moment I typed the name, I suddenly knew that it was mine.
• I have very vivid memories of several past lives in which I played a shaman/seer/priest/ess role.
• There are a number of god-names whaich resonate very deeply with me, like I once knew them very intimately.

A lot of what I have read on various sites, including yours, has verified what I already knew, but it has also raised many more questions. Although most of the stories, quizzes and profiles sound exactly like my life, this is the first time I've considered connections with other planets, Atlantis, etc. I don't really feel like I came from somewhere else. In fact, I feel a very deep kinship with the Earth. It's only the people I feel estranged from. I am uncomfortable in modern society and I have a lot of difficulty functioning within its systems. Although I have a natural aptitude with machines and technology, I have never been interested in them, and did very poorly in math and science classes in school. I have been "resisting the virtual life," as they say. I yearn for a very simple life. I prefer firelight to electric light, and would almost pefer to live without a lot of modern amenities (almost :) I would move to the country far away from civilization if I didn't feel that my purpose lies in the city.

I sometimes have a vision of the Earth restored to a healthy ecology, and not covered in metal and concrete as it is now. But the time-frame of this vision is right here and now. I am not seeing the past or the future.

I once had an idea that the material of my soul was taken directly from the energy of the very planet, although this doesn't seem exactly right either.

So my question is, do I sound like a wanderer who just needs to accept that I'm from another planet in order to get on with my work, or are there other types of beings who incarnate in human form for the same ends, and if so, what might they be?

Aneia@aol.com