My whole life almost nothing has made sense to me. Let's start at the beginning. My parents only got married because of me: they were married in the summer, I was born in the winter. I never ever felt they loved each other or me. I seemed like nothing but a burden to them. They were anything but great at the art of parenting.

When I was young, about 4-10, strange & unexplainable things occured to me. I don't know which of the following happened first: 1) One night while I was in bed, I swore that 3 pitchforks (or possibly tridents like the god Poseidon possessed) were above my bed going in a circle 2) One afternoon a bee flew into my ear and stayed there, even though to this day I can't understand how such a thing can be possible - I truly don't believe there is a corpse of a bumble-bee inside my head! 3) On several occasions I was lying in bed trying to go to sleep and (I'm going to describe this as best as I possibly can!) I became very scared because I was having horrible feelings about the most mundane things: I would look at my bedsheets and they would, in my mind, keep changing from nicely flattened to wrinkled up; I would think of a car, a limousine usually, that kept driving along a smooth road that occasionally went rugged; I would picture rocks falling on me as I looked up...they kept getting bigger and bigger. In case 3) I would always end up crying and my mother would come in to see what was wrong (of course, I had no explanation).

All thru my childhood into my teens, it seemed no one liked me or wanted anything to do with me. From age 14-18 I went thru many troubling experiences that involved my family and my friends. I became EXTREMELY depressed: my hair was falling out and I was beginning to lose my eyesight. (I have recovered from both thankfully). All my life I had been a skinny kid until about age 16. I started getting more muscular and taller. Ever since I was 13 I started to get a deep voice and facial hair. Then around age 20 I started to grow a third set of teeth. (In my jaw I have 4 extra teeth pushing thru the gums and I can feel more coming in. My dentist was baffled...he never really said anything about it but he looked at me like I was, well, from outer space).

For the past couple of years I became interested in the 'ancient astronaut' theory. Of the many books I have read, there was one that talked about the ancient king Gilgamesh having three sets of teeth (according to legend he was 'two thirds god/ one third human'). When I first began to use the Internet I came across several Starseed/Wanderer quiz's, I was absolutely shocked at how much the questions fit me. All my life I have had a great capacity for memory; no matter how intoxicated I was from whatever I put in my system, I could still remember everything that happened. I would get into arguments with people about things they did or said; they denied it but I REMEMBER EXACTLY what they said or did. I have always had a fascination with ancient history & 'mythology', and it always occured to me that modern society is not right somehow. Even though the majority of teenagers and adults I have met think of me as 'gay', 'weird' or 'retarded'( with no justification whatsoever ), children and animals are unusually attracted to me. I always find myself asking these questions: "Why am I here?", "What is the purpose of living?", and "How come the human race is so screwed up?".