Dear Jody:
Attached is a few of the things that have happened to me, as I told you some weeks ago Scott Mandelker used some of these in both of his books and in his ET Journel, which he edited first, I told him to use them as he saw fit. I extend the same invitation to you. Please do not publish my email address yet but if anyone seems really interested then fill free to forward it, if you wish. Maybe someone out there is having a hard time coping with their experiences and if any of this can be of assistance then I am pleased to help.
Thankyou
LB

Abducted
The abductions began when I was a small child about five years old. I can only recall splinters of memories about the aliens. As I lay in bed a being would come from beside my bed, he was small, gray, with large dark eyes that slanted slightly toward the mouth. These sightings happened on several nights and I was very frightened of them. A voice would say in my mind "get under the covers the covers are safe" and that was about all that was remembered until one night when an uncle had taken me to dinner one night. I don't think we made it to the restaurant, if I am remembering right, there was a brilliant white light, which to me as a small child looked as large as the moon. I found myself in the back seat of the car on the floor, when I peeked over the front seat there was another person or someone there and we appeared to be moving toward the white light. My uncle shouted at me to get back down and stay put, which I did without question. The next thing I can remember is sitting on some sort of table with my legs dangling down, the room looked metallic, shiny, and I was looking at a small gray being standing in front of me. He reached up a hand to me and said, "come" and we went for a walk. The next memory is that of walking in a curved corridor with rounded walls hand-in-hand with the alien and being unafraid. We came to an open door and stopped as we turned toward it to look in the room I saw my uncle half sitting half laying connected to all sorts of what looked like tubes, wires, and machinery to my young mind. As we stood there watching I don't remember what they were doing to him. All at once it was over no other memories have surfaced only unanswered questions over a lifetime. There is nothing but slivers, of memories that keep surfacing more and more frequently now than before. I can only ask why me to start with, what did they do with me, and why did the nightly visits end so abruptly.

N D E
My near death experience when about 1965 I know I died and came back but only after I was shown that it was important that I return and I really didn't want to come back here. In my mid-teens it all happened on one sunny day, don't recall if it was morning or afternoon, my stepsister and I were heading toward a large pasture at the back portion of a 2,000 acre ranch of pure beauty. She was riding her own horse and I was on a stallion I'd been training. We were looking for some under weight cows when my friend spotted them in the distance, we decided to race to the other end of the pasture, bad decision. I had just gotten up speed when my horse stepped into a gopher hole. I saw his front go down; the only thing that came to mind was "please GOD don't let his legs break". As I saw the ground racing up toward me I just blanked out, lost all consciousness and awareness everything went black. The next thing I knew I saw myself on my back floating in a gray cloudy tunnel moving toward a white light. Then I was lying on my back in a half sitting position and was looking at who I know to be GOD Himself. He was sitting on a white throne clothed in white robes and a brilliant pure white but not blinding light was in front of his face. As I lay there I could sense and feel three beings behind me working on the back of my head. When I tried to turn around to see them one of them said, "lie still, don't turn around you can't see us, your not supposed to know what we look like". So I did as they asked, the atmosphere there was one of indescribable joyous love, peace, and contentment, everything in the universe made perfect sense. I wanted to stay I begged the Creator to let me stay, and He was going to. In no time the three beings were finished and gone. As I lay there, He showed me the earth seeing it as from an orbit but much farther away. I said, "what of the Earth what is going to happen to it?" He said "That is why you have to go back", I said, "OK" and I was back in my body laying on the ground, As I came to more fully I saw the pickup coming to a stop and the man I was working for running over to me. He looked suprised to see me awake and asked if I was all right as I was getting to my feet. I asked him how the horse was I was so afraid he had broken a leg, but he was just fine. Then I said that I was fine just a slight headache and a little dizziness. There was no blood, cuts, broken bones, or bruising anywhere on me, just some dust. The man I was working for helped me into the truck and drove to the far end of the range pasture to a spring. There we got out and I helped myself to a large drink of cold water. As we were returning back to the ranch house he kept watching me for any signs of passing out but all I could do was think about where I had been and longing to return to that place of loving, peace and contentment. All turned out fine and upon arriving back at the barn I immediately checked out the horse to convince myself that all was right. Then got back on and rode after the cows once again not having a second thought about the fact that I died not more than an hour before. It all seemed so normal to me, so matter of fact. A few days later I found out from my stepsister what did happen. She said the horse went down knee deep in a hole, I flipped over his head and the horse rolled on top of me pushing the saddle horn into the back of my head. The horse jumped up barely missing walking on top of my head and body when she arrived at my side. She said my head looked caved in and she almost fainted. Then she rode back to the barn to get help. This whole experience left me totally inspired with love, faith, and trust in our Infinite Creator and I now have no fear of dying, I guess because I now know what's there. As one who said, "There is no death only a change of worlds" Chief Seattle, how true it is.

Summer 82 Rescue
I was riding my horse on a sunny summer day when I looked up at the sky and saw a distant thunder head and rain pouring down from it, I said how beautiful. I then suddenly saw a very different picture, one of fire and destruction all around me but curiously I was untouched by it. The next thing I knew I was standing on what looked like the bridge of a ship. Around me I could see members of a crew, only there images no details. I looked out of a view screen or large window and saw the Earth in the distance it looked very small so I knew we were far away from it, and then it exploded. In less than a blink I was back on my horse riding along as though nothing happened at all but the memory of it stuck in my mind with the message "your rescue" attached. This is all I can remember from this vision I wish there were more as it leaves some questions.

Awakening June 1996
During my childhood years I have always known and had a distinct feeling of being different from everyone, not just a few but everyone. I held a fascination with the stars and astronomy in general. Always watching the sky and not really knowing why, longing for something not knowing what. I wanted to tell my feelings to someone who would listen and not judge, but who would believe me. My parents would not, as I did hint around to them they would say "It's just part of growing up" or "children should be seen and not hear" as my grandfather used to tell me. I never had any friends to speak of, none that I could really relate to or talk to. I had a feeling of aloneness all along questioning if these were really my parents, if not then whom? So what did it all mean? I couldn't find any answers so I just tucked it all inside with the feelings continually nagging at me. As I grew up the number two kept popping into mind, 'just great another unexplained thought to deal with'. This too, I put inside with the others that were persistently surfacing. Until one day, in my mid forty's feeling more depressed than usual, I was wishing I could just leave this world when I was struck by something that felt like someone was inside me and next to me at the same. This being told me to go to the library Internet terminal and log on. Which I did reluctantly, since I had almost no experience using the Internet, there was even an empty terminal, which is practically unheard of. I was feeling so down that I gave in just to see what would happen next. I felt as though someone else was controlling my hands, because I didn't have clue as to what I was doing or looking for. Rather smoothly and quickly I was at Jodys "Et Phone Home" page. As I read through it I became so intrigued by the sleeping Et quiz I printed it, all 30 pages. Then I took my copy to a quite place and began reading it slowly letting every word and sentence sink in. Right there in the library I cried as I thought 'good GOD this describes my to a T'. Then all at once I felt a giant piece of a puzzle slip into place and I felt whole for the first time in my life. As I read on I felt a resonating vibration of such pure love and joy which lasted for two weeks off and on, coming from deep inside me and radiating outward. My soul felt like it were being lifted out of the depths of semi-sleep to breathe and be alive again to stretch to its fullness. I felt it leap for joy and practically leave my body and return to adjust itself to a new covering. As all this was going on I was listening to a soothing voice telling me everything is all right and it felt perfectly normal. It said the confederation is watching us and guiding us to the event we were placed here for. Then suddenly I was inundated with information and instructions that I could not understand. It sounded like listening to several radio stations all at once. As if this weren't enough I was about to find out what the number two was all about. It seems there were two of us in this body all along, me and the original owner. I felt and saw her soul leave. It was teardrop shaped and I could feel it penetrate the area between the shoulder blades as it exited. There were two beings in white waiting for her and escorted her to where ever they went. I do know she has a deep love, faith, and trust in the Creator, and I feel that is where she went. Now I know this could be dismissed as some sort of psychotic episode but it was entirely real and happened when I was fully awake and conscious. I saw and felt the whole thing it was incredible I will never forget it. One thing I can say about all this is the depression that was present for six years was suddenly gone. As if this wasn't enough of a divine gift, I was then approached by an entity who was from the confederation. This being asked me if I would be willing to return after the transition with our true form and full abilities to help rebuild the earth, I said yes and the being was gone. So I guess if you look on that list of returnees you will find me there. I have never taken anything to try to duplicate this experience, how can something so divine be duplicated by something man-made.

August 96 Waking Vision
While driving in Seattle one sunny day I was watching the sights and scenery pass by when suddenly I heard a voice say, "This is what's coming". Suddenly I was seeing total and complete devastation of the entire city of Seattle and some of the surrounding area. I felt as though I was in two different space\times watching a movie and moving through it at the same time and seeing flashes of the present but I wanted to see this incredible sight. I was very frightened and had to grip my jeans leg as I watched in horror. I saw buildings toppled like trees upon one another while others were broken off half way up. Cars and trucks toppled, crushed, and piled in heaps. Streets were blocked with debris and bridges collapsed on road ways which seamed strange to see as we pasted right through it as though it weren't there, I knew it was only a vision but still it was incredible. I saw the huge bridge spans that used to be interstate five collapsed into Lake Union along with all the other ones not one remained standing. It was unnerving to pass over these fallen bridges looking down and not seeing anything but a wreaked bridge in the water below. I looked at my husband and wanted to tell him about all of this but he is having some major medical problems and I didn't want to lay anything as unreal as what I was seeing on him. Every time after that when we went to Seattle for three weeks I kept seeing the exact same thing all over again moving through the same movie again. It took some doing to see it for what it was a vision and nothing more. I asked myself and who ever else was elsewhere watching me, 'why'? The response I received was, "You must know", well that doesn't tell me much but I just accepted it. One thing I noticed when I was seeing all this devastation is that I saw no people. Days later I asked why, the reply was 'it is not for us to know who survives and who does not that is left only to the Creator'. I was relieved because I don't want to know.

Aug 96 Vision of a new world
A few days after these terrifying visions I again was contacted this time the same voice said 'this is the future'. A pleasant feeling of peace and love came over me as I watched. I saw myself in my true form with my full abilities flying about helping people do anything and everything effortlessly. The world is now so full of unity, peace, love, contentment and joy I wanted to stay. The grass was covering every part and trees were tall and nearly perfectly formed, flowers bloomed everywhere, there were no tall mountains just hills and flat valleys. People were helping each other to achieve the same level of life and happiness as everyone else. No one did without any thing, all the needs of everyone were seen to, just for the shear joy of doing things for each other. There is no money, no stock market, no social classes, no greed, lust, or killing, no tall buildings, or vehicles (at least of the sort we are used to seeing), no military, no homelessness, only a love of life and prosperity for all. Even the animals wild or tame were friendly; so tame children would play around them and with them without fear from either. Everyone worked for the betterment of life for all, not just a few. I felt so at ease there it felt so much like my real home this time I actually wanted to be there I think because it felt so normal and nothing like the twisted insanity of this world. I saw people and animals in this vision but no part of what was in the past as if all had been cleansed and made fresh and new. There were no ruins of the once great cities or the construction efforts of the past. It seemed as though it were forgotten somehow. If this sounds to utopian than maybe it's what the world was suppose to be in the first place. Maybe we are going to have a fresh start and second chance to get it right.