Hello!

I remember as a child of six years old, having a wonderful experience with another being from somewhere else.

I am also a abductee although I prefer to now be called a experiencer since I feel that I am a survivor and no longer a victim to my past. So I have had negative as well as positive experiences.

This experience which I am about to talk about took place when I was a child of six years old, and it was a very positive experience for me.

I remember waking up in the middle of the night as usual and being frightened because I would normally wake up paralyzed in bed while feeling negative presences surrounding me.

But this time was very very different! I woke up and in a instant was out of my bed kneeling on the floor and looking at bare feet. I must mention here that throughout this experience there was no sense of time or space, so when I say instant, that's exactly what it felt like, in a flash!

So there I was staring at these bare feet, and without one thought, automatically I kissed the feet. Don't know why, just did it. Then I slowly started to look up to see who was standing there. As my eyes followed up the being's body, I noticed he was wearing a very long white robe, and then I saw his hands extended out with ray's of bright white light emanating from them. I continued looking up towards the face and he had a slight dark brown beard, his hair was shoulder length and dark brown, he had sparkling blue eyes, and fair skin. He was very handsome. He was very tall and it seemed his body went on forever while looking up at him bit by bit.

In the next split second I felt his hand on my head and I had to bow my head down because of the gentle pressure. He said to me telepathically, in my head, "Child do not fear, for I will be with you always to protect you."

The next instant I was back laying down in my bed and said to myself, "Hey!, where did he go? I thought he was going to protect me and never leave me!" Then I felt someone lying beside me in my bed and for a slight moment there got scared, but when I slowly turned my head to see who or what was in bed with me, I saw this wonderful being laying beside me, as if to say, see? I haven't left you after all, I am still here. And with that thought, I feel asleep feeling protected.

The next morning I awoke to find my bedroom bathed in a wonderful bright light. I got up from my bed and ran to the windows which I had opened wide. And then I looked up at the sky, and everything was very bright and crisp and clear, all the colors of the sky were magnified ten-fold along with this very bright light, what a beautiful sight to behold! I don't know what possessed me to look up into the sky, but look I did. From that day on, I never stopped looking up into the sky.

Along with this beautiful white light and magnificent colors, a very strong feeling of unconditional love emanated to me. It was like every cell in my body was being loved and caressed, and along with this was a feeling of unconditonal peace which enveloped my whole being. I would never feel this kind of love or peace again here on this earth, for I knew it was not of this earth. These feelings stayed a long time with me while staring out into the sky, and as the day progressed, the feeling slowly left me much to my dismay.

After that one experience was when I knew that (a knowing) I was not of this earth. That's when I started to become homesick for the place where I really did belong. I knew I did not belong here on this earth. My parents were not my real parents. The people on this earth were the aliens to me. I remembered a different language not of this earth. I became very psychic. And I spent all of my childhood yearning to go back to that other place although I did not know where that place was, only that it was not on this earth.

The heartbreak was very real, I would spend many days and nights staring up into the sky and praying and begging to be taken back home. I would say to myself, "If only they would show up and take me away from here. I do not belong here! I do not want to stay here! This is not my home! Home is not on earth!" A little girl's heart was broken for a very long time.

Along with this yearning and broken heart, I knew that if they were to show up and take me away, I would not look back for one instant. I would gladly leave in a split second with joy. Now, reflecting back, I think that was kind of odd since how could I be so eager to leave behind the only parents and family I knew, but leave I would have!

Something else came along with all of the revelations to me above, and that was thinking of this earth we lived on. I would feel so sorry and sad, I would worry so much because I "knew" that this earth and its people was in big time trouble. I didn't know specifics, but I "knew" this earth and its people were suffering and going to suffer much more. This also amazes me reflecting back since how can a little girl feel and know all of this at that age? What did I know of world events? I was still playing with dolls! But I "knew", I knew! This horrible feeling would weigh on my little shoulders, and it was as if I was carrying the weight of the world. That's a tall order for such a young child to do.

These revelations are what started the feeling that I was from somewhere else. I went throughout my life with many unexplainable experiences happening to me. My psychic abilities never left me. I always walked to a different drummer, and could never understand why human beings acted the way they did, and still don't. I could never understand why humans acted so negatively, why there was so much greed, why humans wanted so much power and control, and why did they participate in others' sufferings. Why were humans so cruel to each other. All of these feelings have stayed with me today, I still have difficulty understanding the whys. I think this is why I became a loner, it was my choice, I felt more comfortable this way, and still do. It's as if I cannot tolerate humans that continue to act in these ways.

It has been just recently that I have fully acknowledged the alien within. It has been with me all along, I think that I was afraid of that acknowledgement, but I have finally awakened to that fact, and now I am ready to deal with it.

So I am coming out, so to speak. I wonder how many will think that I am crazy stating this fact to them, that I am part human and part something else from some where else. Again, it is a 'knowing." Every part of my soul and being, every cell inside of me yells out, "YOU ARE PART ALIEN!"

You know how many say that we all have a mission to do on this earth?, Well, I thought that I didn't know what mine was. It was staring me in the face all of my life, for I have always been of service to other humans since childhood. I was the one who would stick up for the down and out even though my peers would disapprove as a child and growing up. I was the one who would help anyone out and listen to their woes in life, I was the one who would be there when times got rough, I was the one strangers and family would go to for understanding. I was the one who gave that helping hand when no one else would. And now I am the one who has gathered other experiencers together for support in the support group I created here.

I have been in service to fellow human beings all of my life and didn't realize that that was what I was supposed to be doing anyway. This is my mission, to be of service and help to others. It was staring me in my face all of my life. I don't have to search for my mission in this life, I have been doing it all along. Love, caring, kindness, this is what is important for me, and I show that by being there for other fellow human beings.

I am in big time transition here, I am now looking for spirituality in my life, it has no meaning for me otherwise. I guess you can say that I am finally evolving. I am finally awakening more inside of me. There is so much more on this long journey that I have to learn about, and hopefully one day can teach others like me. I know there are many paths individuals can follow, no one way is right, many paths can lead to the same beautiful light.

Already the support group I facilitate, the experiencers here, are not just talking about the horrible experiences we had all of the time, we also talk about spirituality and enlightment, it really has balanced everything out for us as a whole. I hope we can all continue to grow and go onward to better things.

I am now at the point of my life where I must explore this alien within, for I sense there are many wonderful things there that I have yet to discover. A new chapter has started in my life, and we never stop growing do we? I don't know who this alien within me is, but I am willing to find out. I don't know as of yet from where the alien within comes from, but I do know the alien is very much a part of me, it's what makes me whole and who I am.

I know there must be others out there who feel part alien, and I would love to hear from them, maybe this way I can find out where I come from, and what race of alien I belong to. I have a need to share with my brothers and sisters from elsewhere. Maybe a kind hand will show me the way to the enlightment I am searching so hard for.

I feel so lost at times here on this earth, I still want to go to my real home. I am tired, I do know that once I leave this plane of existance, I will not choose to come back to earth anymore, I need a very big vacation!, for I have spent many many past lives here and am ready for a big rest away from humans and the earth. I am a ancient soul, and am not only part alien, but have spent many lives in different dimensional planes as a alien as well as many past lives here on earth as a human.

If I thought it was hard for people to swallow that I was a abductee, just wait till they hear that I am part alien too! Just when I came to grips about my abductions, here I go again having to deal with the alien thing. We never do stop learning do we?, knowledge is power.

Christine :-} a smile plants a kiss on the soul!

Christine Olivo CELESTIALONE@Prodigy.Net