I guess it may sound strange to be asking you these questions because you don't even know me, but if you know alot about this, than you may be able to clarify the picture a bit?
Ok, recently, I have come wonder about my origins... Alot of it had to do with the beginnings of spiritual awakening and meditation. Somehow, I just don't feel I'm from here. I mean, it's ok that I am, but I've always had an interest in the "not so normal" experiences of other people.
I haven't had any alien abduction experiences, or any contact or anything, but I've never doubted for a moment that others existed, ever since I was a child. When I was younger, I had a strong penchant for astronomy and wanted to be an astronaut for a long time. I also was very interested in sciences, especially biology, and studied psychology as well. I thought people were nuts if they thought we were alone in the universe, and found that idea to be quite egocentric. I also get really annoyed when I see all these negative alien abduction movies (like Independence Day - whatever). All aliens seem to be seen as something hostile, which upsets me, because it doesn't have to be that way. People are afraid in my opinion.
From the moment I could read, I was fascinated by books and stories on the Egyptians, Mayans, and Atlantis. It seemed so strange that these civilizations would be so advanced in such an early period in earth's history.
I come from a very diverse family background, alot of different cultures mixed, and could never quite understand how people could fight so much and be so prejudiced against others. My parents are very racist, but I escaped that somehow through myself. I am working towards a career in documentary film making where I hope to communicate a message of love and understanding to the world about others. No really, that's a career goal for me at the age of 23 and I can't help but think it's a bit strange for a 23 year old in this society to want to do that instead of focus on other things. Most of my closest friends have the same ideals, and we get along on a spiritual level more than just a physical level. I've always felt connected to those people in a special way. I bought numerology and astrology books and find strange connections, more than just compatibility scales, with those people.
Recently I've been getting more in tune with myself so I don't know what to think. Thoughts come into me, like voices sort of but not really what I think voices should be. More like subtle things, not anything loud or booming in the head. I consider myself an intelligent, hard working, down to earth kid, but I've experienced so much in the last two years that I am starting to let go of things and try to understand more than what I see is real.
What do you think?