I too have always felt different and have finally accepted that I am different. Things I take for granted are not even understood or believed by the general public. Ever since I was young I had imaginary friends. I was always lonely, a loneliness that could not be quenched by anything that I knew of. It was more of a homesickness which I did not understand until I read the book "From Elsewhere". I grew up in the Hudson Valley area of New York. This is supposed to be an area of high ufo activity but I never remembered any that I was aware of. I did have a dream once though which still bothers me, that is if it was a dream, a fabricated memory or a clouded memory of an encounter. I have since asked friends if they ever saw ufos around the area and two of them said yes. One saw one about 1/16 th of a mile from my house one night. Well, let me get on with the turning point for me.

In 1990 I was taking a Martial art that taught hidden secrets. These secrets dealt with moving energy to hurt people. There were twenty people in the class and only myself and one of the 4th degree black belts could perform the technique. It was as if I already knew it. I even told the instructor there was more to it. He said there was not. 6 months later I talked to him again and he had talked to the Master who told him what I had been trying to tell him. Interesting thing is that I was only a white belt at the time.

At this point my life really started to shift. I developed the ability to see auras, move enery to hurt or heal and even heard things that were not physically there. I even developed the ability to see facial auras and disappear in front of people. This disappearing dealt with increasing my vibrational rate. I learned to see inside people and had at times shifted so all I saw was energy where people and things were. I even had a run in with an unfriendly non physical entity that was controlling a girl friend of mine. I also have had and continue to have experiences with angels. I along with a friend have seen about one hundred angels in a room at the same time. We have also seen and heard them at other times. I know this sounds wierd but there is more.

I am currently married but for a year and a half before I was married I lived by myself. I would meditate and read during these times. I abstained from all narcotics and alchohols as well as sex during this period of time. Between the hours of 12:30 and 3:30 am my phone would ring half volume. No one would ever be there. I had the phone and phone lines checked but they were alright. During these hours the house would tingle intensely with energy and my hands would turn red and burn if I got them closer than 3' together. I had to sleep with my arms stretched out away from each other as much as posible. Many times I would feel balls of energy at the base of my skull and I would be given lessons (ie. told things and taken places). After this went on for about a year and a half it stopped. I was grateful but in a way missed it. Kinda strange.

After about three months I decided to do a test. I went out on the back porch at midnite and said "angels of god, beings of goodness and light, come to me tonight". I went into the house and walked past the phone. Exactly as I walked past the phone the phone rang half volume. It sent shivers thru me. I went to bed. As soon as I closed my eyes the phone rang. I got up and picked it up and no one was there. I went to bed again and closed my eyes. As before, as soon as I closed my eyes the phone rang half volume. I kept my eyes open as long as possible but I got too tired and kept on closing them. Each time I closed them the phone would ring. I was scared but also very tired. I finally said "ok, tell me what I need to know" I then heard/saw images saying the gal I was with was not the one I was supposed to be with. I wanted to mention that other people also witnessed the phone ringing as well as the intense energy feel during the hours mentioned before. I asked one friend when it happened if they heard or felt it ring and they said both. They were very disturbed when it happened.

There have been other things that have happened but this is the quick overview. Interesting thing I have realized. My wife and myself both think we are walk ins but if I am away from her longer than a week the strong non physical contacts start happening again. These are not only felt but heard.

Two additional items I wanted to mention. During 1989 and 1990 there were several crop circles less than five miles from where I lived. Also I was in a sweat lodge with a friend and saw a ball of white light to the right of me. I asked my friend if he saw anything in here besides me and him and he told me he saw a ball of white light to the right of me. I had the sense that it was intelligent.

I am not spacey or a drugging. I work as a mechanical engineer for a major midwest manufacturing company. If you want to talk more I will be available. I need to learn more to understand myself and why these things happen to me. It would be nice to be normal but I know I am not. I went to the first lutheran church in town one night. They were having a healing ceremony. I had known the minister and he knew my abilities. At the end of the service he said "We were only play acting here but you are the genuine article." One of my friends that I was with asked me how this made me feel. I said "more confused than ever, I would have rather had him say I was delusional and needed psychiatric help" There was no easy way out. Best Regards,