It's now just two weeks ago that I read about sleeping ETs when a friend gave ET 101 to me. Since I've read it I felt there is something going on. Yesterday my brother brought me a modem and introduced me to the internet and my first way was straight to your page. I've never before sent an email and now: it's all making sense.

I was a stranger all my life and always looking for people that were just like me. Most people I have contact with think I'm nice, naive and weird. I don't talk much about what I really think to others. I never thought that I am more interested in space and stuff than anyone else.

As a child I always thought that I could fly, get invisible and walk through walls only if I really (!) wanted. At the age of 12 my favorite book was 2001: A Space Odyssey. As a teen I was lonely, all day reading books and painting pictures of ships (not spaceships), daydreaming and always feeling sick. I remember my brother was once annoying me that I was adopted but I never thought he was right. I got interested in philosophy and when I took LSD at 15 with some new friends, they started asking me 'what's it all about?'. Some years I tried meditation to reach a higher state of being. I got nowhere and it ended in deep depression and drugs. I found it hard to get a job although talented in arts but always in conflict with common opinions. It's only the last two years that everything seems to work out fine. I've had a little success and didn't feel that useless anymore but still I am a stranger. When I went to a course in Shamanism there was a lady walking up to me and telling me that I was from another planet and that I didn't realize. I thought she was some of those Newagers who believe in ANYTHING. The ufo thing seemed to be too much three-dimensional. Now I've realized that I wasn't right.

As I read this I know I have no chance of telling my whole story. I've just begun to remember. Thank you.