I never really knew what a wanderer is not until I visited your page. The stories that I've red from your website explaining the wanderer's feeling of alienation and the questions why am I here, who am I, what Is my purpose are some of the things that Im experiencing. And I suddenly realized that it was all normal feeling for a wanderer and some part of me made me realize that I'm no longer alone in this planet.

Eversince I was a child I've always felt different and I cannot trace or understand the reason why. It was like no matter what I do; no matter how hard I try to think that I am no different from the people around me still the gnawing feeling of alienation prevails. I try to rationalize my thought that it was all just psychological but then I recalled that the simple meaning of psychology is soul study so I guess that my gnawing feeling of alienation is deep rooted within my soul.

My interest in paranormal stuff began way back four years ago during my second year in highschool. I enjoyed reading every thing written about it especially about alien encounters and alien abductions and in my opinion aliens are here to help us evolve into a higher beings and to heal mother earth which I feel she's having a hard time because people now are so irresponsible. I always believed in reincarnation and I feel that I have been reincarnated on some place on another time.

From the moment that I've learned that I was a wanderer I somehow felt detached from this world and I finally realized why I've always felt so different like I was not welcomed it was because my soul is not a by product of this planet. Then I've also felt bored and I have to keep on reading or paint scenic places to keep my mind motivated. I also understand now why why look up into the sky during night time asking someone to take me back home; before I thought it was silly that I felt like I was going crazy because I was talking to someone I couldn't see but then after learning I was a wanderer it was all normal and it was a voice inside my head told me that the sky is the closest thing I've got from home.

There is also a time when foods no matter how enticing and delicious they appear holds no appeal to me I suddenly realized that this was not the food that I use to eat before I felt like I was feeding on some kind of energy and I honestly speaking I sometimes find it difficult when this feeling prevails because when this feeling is present I do not have interest on eating foods and the moment it reaches my stomach I felt like I wanted to throw up but I'm forcing myself because I do not want to have a hyper acidity.

I also feel that I have a great mission to accomplish and that is to help people move on and to make this planet a nicer place to live and that some of this earthly stuff is nonesense that there is much more important thing that I should be doing. Sometimes I feel like Im loosing my grip on reality and I thought that I should go on an have a psychiatrist examine my behaviour but I never tried to do so because I fear that they might think that my neurons are close to snap and Im delirious. I also find it hard to get mad when someone tries to harm me verbally or when they do something bad at me because I believe that getting mad is just a waste of time and energy.

I tried relating this to the people who are close to me like my mother and to my close friends they all just gave a nod in response but deep inside me I can sense that they think I'm silly. The weirdest thing that ever happened to me for now is that I've suddenly felt that my mother is a stranger to me I felt like we doesn't share a spiritual rapport. Then I felt that I have two mothers a spiritual mother and a biological mother. I realized that I have a spritual mother when I was meditating I believe that people on the other plane or planets are receptive so they can communicate with anybody on this planet through telepathy. I tried to call for my mother and I heard a voice in my head saying she was so proud with me and my decision on living the planet was the best thing that I ever did. I felt like secured as I talked to her and there was an instant rapport and I soon realized that I was crying. I cried because I felt that I've known that voice before it was the voice that I was longing for for a very long time and it made me realize that I am so distant from them I do not even know from what planet or race did I came from. The only clear thing to me is that Im a wanderer. Sometimes I use to see things in my mind of people wearing white robes similar to tunics and I once had this dream of people visiting me and they told me how much they missed me and they wanted me to come to them but I refrained from their offer I said that I just cannot leave this place and my postion. There are other things that have had happened but I feel that my letter has gone too long.

I wrote to you hoping that by posting this letter I would gain some of the other wonderers opinion and insights and I certainly believe that together we could make this planet a better and brighter place for mankind.

Peace and love to everyone.....

EUGENE altez@pacific.net.ph