Hi,

I live in Vilnius, Lithuania (Europe) probably quite far from your place. But surely the distance doesn’t matter to these experiences and feelings we have.

When it comes to talk about the cosmic reality it seems I’m overwhelmed by the feelings and probably by the thoughts too. So, often I’m quite confused how to express everything ! Well, let me say some words of "my story".

I was not much associated with any anomalies in my childhood but had an expressed fantasy. In my teenage games and writings (age 12-14) I referred to Mars as to something familiar and easy accessible, though "cosmic travels" were not frequent and it was a special games which I remember now quite clearly. ( with the fellow in the yard we "travelled" to the Synthesiser Groups’ Festival Of Mar - it took place in the great beautiful lake with the participants drifting in the ships the same as we, playing music and being charmed. I or both of us heard that unearthly sounds in our ears as well as strong was our visions ). I could admit that I was not fascinated with sci-fi literature that time and I was not a good reader. Surely it took a long time for me to get it all on the conscious road.

At age of 19 I was suddenly fascinated with the idea of 4th dimension and some years later I found my self studying religious thoughts, "discovering" immortality and getting deeper in to the Gnosticism. Alienation was expressed strongly among Gnostics (the "knowing ones" who were accepted the inner teaching of Christ at the very beginning) and their excellent writings of I-III century which survived are to prove it (Hymn Of The Pearl among others). "You are the stranger to this world" the saying is known widely and Gnostics felt them selves like aliens joining secret groups and meeting each other as the natives from distant homeland. These ancient writings were like fresh water to me.

From the other side, the cosmic information, UFO sightings began to show up and somehow I was involved in to this field. In early ‘90’s there was a challenge of "unexplained fenomena" in the formally Soviet Union.

One thing that started to shine like the diamond was the idea of alien as a feeling or being not the physical thing. It’s the essence that you can become or recover to your self.

Once after "accidentally" seeing the film The Man Who Fell To Earth ( by Nicolas Roeg , starring David Bowie, 1976 ) I was stunned and suddenly sensed that I am the alien. But again, it took a long time to open it clearly as the kind of everyday feeling.

As one can see I got many influences of the social level on my way. Only last few years I faced the overflow of cosmic information and knowledge which had awakened from within and somehow expanded my mind. I had experienced lucid dreams and visit of the ships and few times I was nearly abducted in my dreams. These latest experiences were as frightening as they were impressive.

In any case, now I feel more certain on my way. My "wanderer feeling" is not so bright, probably it was covered by the earthly things for long time. I'm a comic teenager. So now it seems I got to the point of concentration, healing and preparing my self to an absolutely new kind of activity.

That’s all for this time. There probably could be an English mistakes in my writing.

I'd be glad to hear from you anytime.

With the best wishes to everyone,

Lukas Vangelis devita@lnb.lrs.lt